food fight...with choc cake...at muzzie's bday...

yesterday was a surprising day..got a present from my boss early in the morning which kinda surprise me a little...haha..for a moment i thot it was a prank...but anyway...thank you so much for the christmas gift....then...we had a year end party yesterday...lots of food...i was so so bloated that i could puke....haiz...sometimes i just can't stop doing things that i have to stop doing...eating for instance is one of them...haha...

at night we went out to celebrate muzzie's bday at simei yesterday...have to go all the way from buona vista....but since its where the bday girl wanted..then ok lor...haha...when we were there..we had 2 choices...steamboat or western food...i happily supported western food..cos i was still very full from the previous meal..and didn't feel like having steamboat that is going to ruin my throat....haha....so....in the end...we had western food....now...hold on to your seat..cos i'm abt to say what i ate....i ONLY ATE A CLUB SANDWHICH...can you believe it???...haha...its like one of those few times i ate so little for dinner...yeah...then was choc cake for the bday girl...which in the end became a food fight...i thot i was save for the day..until they came and attack me..or to be exact..muzzie and heather came to attack me and ah bao actually helped them to block my way...argh...thank god i got strength and i broke off the bundle very soon...but i still got choc on my face...and arms...i'll rmb that...next time...its my turn to attack!!!!

haha..thats all...seeya...

p.s. have a great 20th bday muzzie!!!!

my "CNY...or rather...adding to my wardrobe" shopping list...

now lets see.....i've got a few new tops...4 to be exact...maybe i'll just get 2 more...1 polo..and 1 button...that should do for my CNY...haha..if they survive not being worn by me for that long that is.....

then bottoms...i need to get perhaps....4???.....2 jeans...and 2...well...lets just say...not decided yet...but definitely those those khaki colour schemes that i have in my existing collection....

some new accesories might me good...perhaps...a necklace or 2...and a new ring....haha....ohoh...a new messenger bag will do quite well as well.....haha....

okok..thats my shopping list so far...so if anyone wants to buy me anything...just work along this line la....hahaha

lalalala...i'm in a very good mood!!!!

ok...so today..i went back school to do my first FYP presentation....dr.guo's my assessor..and she told us that all 3 of us did very well....means...we'll get to have As....yeah!!!!

and..down at the atrium...they had a tangs bazaar...bought a pair of onitsuka shoes...yeeehhheee....weee!!!!!

i thot i should come here to blog for a while...

hi ppl....i thot its time for me to do some serious blogging so here i am....well...this week...nthg much at work...i didn't do any serious labwork...and i've been skiving off and i got caught by my boss...she told me off a little...but its still ok...haha....got my presentation done...letting her see tmr..and see how will i fair....

in anycase...yesterday was so shiok...i was at tiong bahru having breakfast and marketing....oooh...so many things to eat...but i choose....lor mee...with shark meats.....so nice....made my trip so worthwhile....then i went to bugis to meet up with my colleagues (or shld i say co-workers)....to buy a farewell gift for one of my colleague who is going to NY....as usual...i was early..this time by like..erm...45 mins...so i went to starbucks first....then i waited and waited and waited...finally...ppl start to come...haha...then we went chilli padi for some good nonya hi-tea before going on our shoppin spree....with 200 bucks budget in hand...we started roaming at raffles city....walked and walked...but nthg to our real liking...so we hit marina....there again...nthg much..and i found out that..not only ppl like me(i meant big size) have trouble buying clothes...the smaller ones as well...some international shops only have M as their smallest size...haha..so ironic...but in any case...we got to nautica and bought a navy blue pullover....then...muji for a pair of gloves....with the majority of the budget still at hand, we went to suntec....finally at suntec...we blew the rest of the budget...

went to crocodile...now..i know..many ppl thinks its a brand for older man...but it turned out that its really trying to get to the younger crowd...went to the store...saw a shirt that really got a lot of meanings..its like pictures of poverty on the shirt...and at the back with very wise words from mother theresa....and best of all...the amount of money we paid for the shirt...goes to the children's foundation directly...so..its like....of course we'll buy...haha..got one for him...and one for me as well....and then...2 shops down...lacoste...haha..we got a scarf for him that goes with the pull over....and then....at precious thots...we met yee ling, chin han and swee ling....so...we decided that we'll meet for dinner after the shopping...they got ahead to get their ipod while me and ruth went to find the perfect box....at citilink mall...we got our box...and we felt so complete...haha...finally everything in the list that we are suppose to get is completed....haha..then we went to magic wok for dinner....by the time we got there..its already coming to 8 plus....we quickly settle down and ordered first....time goes by...food is served..and i'm still chatting with ruth without knowing when the rest will come...cos its very weird when you are occupying a table for 5...when theres only 2 sitting there for a long time...haha...thank god they finally came...well..after dinner....we went back to raffles city...now at there....ruth went off first to get carrots for her rabbits...while me and the girls went a little walking until they are all so tired and i went home....the bus back home sucked....no sits...jerky..and a man that keeps playing hp game and everytime i knock to him and he lose...he'll say f***....not like its my business anyway....

got home..bathed..and slept...

p.s. shopping is fun when you dun have to pay for most of the merchandise

i think i'm suffering from paranoia....

i dunno if anyone noticed abt me....i'm always double or even triple checking everything i do you know.....and if i dun do that...i'll go and think abt the worse case scenario that can happen should i not do that checking.....i all along didn't had a term to explain that until one day someone from my lab saw me checking the same thing for like the 5th time...then she said...you paranoid ar....

haha...and that was then that i know what is it abt me...yeah..i think i'm a little paranoid you know...haiz....i'm always letting my imagination run wild...things are supposedly or 100% alright kind of things...i'll go and wander with my imagination until it gets very very ugly and someting bad can happen...sometimes i even propose the scene forward until i die becos of it you know....aiyo...my imagination is certainly giving me things that i love and hate....its like a muse to keep me inspired to do things and make ppl laugh...on the other hand..it keeps instill in my those bad omens....

argh...how i wish if i can only have the good part only....i dun suppose that will mean that i'm suffering from any psychological disorder rite....haha....

tataz...

dialogue gossiping.....

ok...first of all, i need to as a rheotorical qns.....its our course really that difficult????....or did we just manage to survive and live thru it.....haha....i'm asking that becos...that had been the main topic of debate for yr 1 and 2....they are like complaining that there are too many things to do at one time....life is definitely not easy....but think of it....whose life is easy????....

i guess...its just life la...things only gets more and more diff as you go ma....thats why this place is call poly....not sec or pri school what.....how can you ever grow up to a better person if you dun pass thru those hurdles......its like only mid sem...and you ppl are complaining like hell...just imagine the end of the sem...when all the reports and projs start crashing to you...not to say preparing for the exam....haha....aiya...just learn to live thru it la...so many of us did.....no matter how much you complain...you are not going to change the fact that its going to be like that...reports...projs...and heavy modules...if complains actually work.....trust me....all of the complains i made is enuf to waive off the projects already.....so...just live with it la...and you'll get thru and become a better person....and oh...stop comparing us with other polys...cos we are just different....in case you dunno....we are NYP...and they are not....besides..we are better than them in alot of ways....hahaha.....

today...some lecturers got shot as well....surprisingly...i didn't shoot anyone this time...the other did.... guess....one of the MBID lecturer got shot the worse la....but i think the fault is not entirely hers also...its definitely not something she wants anyway....the other modules went very well with her also what....cut her some slack la......at the least....tell her personally....then tell the senior ppl...get her mentally prepared anyway.....haha....i dun think she is going to take it into heart so deeply anyway.....hehe.....

okok...thats all for my dialogue gossiping....tataz...

p.s. there are other things i want to blog...but not really in that good mood...so..next time la huh

my stars...from glad's blog

Lets101 Quizzes - blog quizzes

while waiting....here to blog...

blogging has seemed to be a more increasing thing that i'll do only when i'm free...haha...yeah...especially after starting on my IAP....i only use my com only during the weekends....its been a chore for me to on my com after i get hom from work....in anycase...here i am to blog....

its a sunny day today...haha...a perfect day for furniture shopping...if anyone ever rmb...how i have manage to break my bed...so this time...i'm going to IKEA or COURTS to get a bed...and shun bian look for some inspiration for redecorating my room in the near future....haha....

anyway...i'm very well suited into the crowd at work already...ppl are nice...and i've got to know a few close co-workers...haha...now they have manage to get me to do something that neither my darls...my classmates..or family has gotten me to....that is to exercise...somehow...haha...yaya...i've been playing squash....going jogging with them already...haiz...i guess..this would be a sign from the divine intervention to get me started on exercising...haha....

i think its last week...i went out with the little rascals...was suppose to go sakura but in the end went ramen tan..and took super super long to get seats...finally...we ordered and thankfully despite of the full house, our food came pretty fast....we ate..and walked our way to heeren, balcony...which i did 2 things to embarass myself....ordered virgin magarita when all of the first are drinking something alcoholic....haha...then....making mistake that i actually tendered a 100 dollar note when its only 50 and in the end...dan had to save me....haha...oops...never mind la...it was so dark there...i can hardly see a thing ma....hehe.....

haha...okok..thats all for now...see you again...soon!!!!

cleaning up my blog....haha....this is a very very very long post....

while i'm waiting for my face cream to take effect and my show to load....i shall do a little bloggin to clear my the dust for the past 17 days that i have left it here......

alrite...lets start of with work....things are going along fine....getting more and more adapted to it already....but still finding it hard to resist lying in bed than waking up to go to work every morning....haha....in any case....i've got to know all of my colleagues at work better already....which is a good sign until i offended one with my words again....opps...i didn't really mean it...haiz...but its all over now...so...nthg much to think about rite???....wore a perfume to work yesterday..and my colleague told me it stinks and smell like a middle aged man....god...i have to go and get a new one already...to think that i have been using it for so so long....haha....

last week was heavy...really heavy partying for me....went to alec's place last fri for some partying....god...its like liberation after one day of work....haha...all the bitching and seeing ppl drink...played a little mahjong(not very shiok though)....haha....stayed around until 12 plus when geraldine's dad came and i got a ride home....thanks uncle(again)......by the time my whole pre-bed ritual (if there is such a thing) is done....its already like 1....haha...its been a long long time since i slept so late....

the next morning...i woke up around 10...got ready to leave the house and met glad(with someone else)....to go get presents for ppl whom we are celebrating bday and late-bdays for....got jo her tee that she wanted from mango....and well....as for ved...let's just say....it ran out of stock...so...we'll have to go hunt for another one....but dun worry ved...i already have in mind what i want to get for you already...haha...and its not a book....ok....so...after that...i did a little shopping of my own and bought the mr tee that i have been looking for since dunno when...got it...so its one item lesser on my shopping list....okok...then met up with ved and drove to pasir ris...things were so funny in the car...haha....missed an exit at TPE...but still manage to arrive at the place....aiya...jo's bf left just when i reach..can't even get to say hi and see him in real person...what shocking is that i saw a very slim and fit kenny.....and he became so gentlemen and matured....and i'm so not used to it.....haha....with everyone beginning to slim down...looks like i'll have to to...haha...so lets go for it together jas!!!!!.....and jo got me a massager for my day...so sweet...thanks!!!!

after that was usual bbq stuff....untill after that....me...ved...glad...shikai...jia xian and kenny get on board and go see the night life of singapore...haha...since we are all at pasir ris....of course...the first stop is changi village.....and yes...it is the FIRST time i've gone there at night...so...for ved and those suspecting individuals who thinks that i practically live there...you are wrong......anyway....toured around...but only saw one....haha...very scary already....since there is no more show there....we went to the next night spot...at geylang...haha...we were laughing and joking around there....saw the...erm..what i would call the 'practicioners' there...haha..and i saw some young guys...not bad looking..and i would guess eligible guys going there as well.....the point is...are they really that in need to go there to seek their relief....haiz...i guess...thats what are men detoriating to be...so ladies.....beware!!!!.....haha....then...we went to beach road to see...but there's no show there...so too bad....finally it was clark quay where we have a drink and ved sent us home 1 by 1.....passed by our secondary school.....and all that chatting with our ex-classmates(now good friends)....makes me think of my sec days....those good old days...that we all regretted not treasuring it and appreciating it better then.....really...if you let me choose a part of my life for me to re-live again....that will be it...my 4 no worries years at sec school...things were much more simpler and innocent then.....and then i can do things more carefreely and fun.....its like....as i grow up...i started to miss those time....i can bitch, gossip, command and most of all....live freely then.......well....i know...that that is a part of my life that i can never go back to again....but i'm always grateful becos at least i have all the years in the future that i can use to saviour the memories i have in those days and good friends to share it with......ok...back to blogging....so..of course i reached home very late with all the partying...and went to bed at 3.....haha....thank god there isn't much for me to do on sunday...and i took the monday off as well...so...its kinda good afterall....

it was working on all day.....until thurs that i took a little short jog with my colleagues chin han and swee ling after work around the biopolis area....haha....we made fools out of ourselves that day....god....but we discovered quite a few places...and its nice...so...its kinda enriching for me...although the way back was alittle eerie la....haha....yesterday..went out with yeeling and chin han after work...walked around....spent money buying masks again...i just can't restrain myself....god.....hehe....i dun understand why does all of them keep looking after me like i'm their little brother....i'm old enuf...ppl are calling me uncle already(i shall talk about that when ppl start asking me).....today..went buffet (there goes my diet) with my auntie and grandma with sis.....after that went to walk around at suntec....haha....bought a ring...at a good price...and went carrefour to buy ingredients to cook up the lunch on monday....yes...i'm bring some to my work place...haha.....alrite...then....went home....all the way...until now i'm blogging...

thats all for now...see ya!!!!

i've been walking on the earth for 19 years already...can you believe me???

hihi....as of today...i have been living and breathing on this earth for 19 years already...haha...well..let me start with some thank you speech shall i???....hmmm..let me see...first of all, i would like to thank my parents for concieving me 19 years and 40 weeks ago....haha...without them...i wouldn't even be here.....haha...then of course my mum...who has been putting me and my sis always b4 herself....and my grandma....she has been taking care of me for all of my life....my sis...for the laughing and angry moments that we had when we are growing up together....my aunties who dotes me alot....and of course...all my friends...classmates and darlings out there.....all of you make my life complete.....!!!!...yeah!!!!!!!

anyway....i have been working at EHI for 1 month already......well...i didn't really learn any hardcore lab skills or techniques for the past 1 month...in fact...i haven't even used a micropipette for all of my stay at EHI....haha...but well...i know alot of other friends and learn alot of other things that is rather challenging for me...hahaha....you all have to know that i haven't been working in the real world for a long long time....in fact...its not at all b4 lor...haha....

okok...thts my bday post...haha...tataz...

thank you everyone who had wished me bday...one way or another either by sms....msn...friendster...mail...phone...or in person...thank you so so so much.....love ya!!!

haiz...troubles troubles...and more troubles...

blogging in my office now...just got allocated with a laptop of my own in the office that i can use to do some of my work.....in anyway...i'm not here to blog abt this com la...its abt the troubles i face at work...or as my auntie will put it....fumbling at work...the first 2 weeks of work was nice...nthg much to do...so its kinda free for me...my for the past few days at work..i've got into some troubles...ok la..not some..only 2...and one of supervisor colleagues just scared the hell out of me by saying some nasty things to me becos i forget to wear gloves....haiz...i know its not really her fault that she is scolding me...but its not entirely my fault either....its like...i didn't even know that there is serum in there and when i found out that there is serum...i have already picked the vial up.....in anycase...still..she started to scare me by saying what if the person have HIV...then how...i was like...argh...okok...sorry!!!!....haiz...my supervisor came in later and tells me she always exaggerate things...so...dun worry too much...in anycase...the serum is from a child...i dun think the child has HIV yet so early...and there are no open wound on my hands as well....besides...i washed my hands super long after that....haha....but i still need reassurance...hehe...my colleagues helped me out la...thanks to them....

ok..thats all i want to say...so....tataz...

p.s. i'm hypnotising myself that i love my job alot now...haha.....

finally my goal has reached....

wow....this morning woke up at 6...just in time to view my results...haha...my GPA is finally good now...3.040...ok la...compared to alot of others...its really the lower end of the average...but after my chems in yr 1...they drag me down alot...really alot...like..0.5 of my GPAs....so..it took quite awhile to get up...exactly 2 sems later...i finally got over 3....haha....my goal has seems like its reach...now...i have to work hard and see how my FYP and IAP goes....maybe can get 3.3???...then i'll be really really happy...at least i know i can still stand a slight chance to study in local U....if not...haha...i'll get an absolute sit in the aust. Us.....those that I choose la...haha....

and oh....i was staying with the copier and labelling machines for the past working days of my life...haha...can't start lab work until samples comes in next week....which i'll have to go and collect over the weekends...and today...going to bukit batok (study site)...to give pamphlets....haha...okok....thats all...have to go now..tataz!!!!!

p.s. whoever is up there...thank you for letting me reaching my goal!!!!!! ....now i got a new goal...help me out ya????

work...work..work...i'm like a working adult now!!!!!

something i wrote last sat....but posted it now...

hihi....wooo...1 week of finish working in EHI...i'm very contented in working with all the experts in epidemiology...haha...actually...i think i'm really better in working real life than studying in school....i've got really nice colleagues to work with and my supervisor is really cool....at least from what i've heard from other ppl....my supervisor seems like the best...haha....grace(my supervisor) will be so delighted if she sees this....

anyway...this week...i didn't really begin in too much lab work...thats becos partly my whole place is busy with the Cubans that came here on a work trip and to attend the seminar and that my supervisor just came in on wednesday so there is nothing much i can do.....so what did i really do??......erm...how about labelling 500 tubes for 4 days...and then reading all about dengue epidemiology....haha...yeah...and on top of that...attended a seminar for like....the whole day...by half of it...i'm all about to sleep already...haahaa....but next week...i'll get to really start work...real lab work...woo hoo...

okok....yesterday i went out with lots of classmates...had Manhattan fish and chips...not really that fantastic...haha..they went clubing later...i went home...hehe...have to sleep la...

p.s. there are other posts also...

my first day of actual..actual work...

alritey...today i started work...first day of really working in the adult world...and not fun and enjoying my life in my auntie's office or godpa's shop....haha...so..this morning..was a gosh...dreadful morning....firstly..i wore the wrong pants...so i had to go home and change...then when i came out..i missed the bus..have to wait for like 20 mins for the next bus to come....then on the way....it was supposed to be express way ok...but the traffic moves super slowly...gosh...i took the bus that alot of NP students took...haha...now i know why is everyone dosing off..cos they know the bus really takes a long time to travel...the good thing is...i was at the back of the bus and there is this cute guy that sat beside me...very good at dressing himself...haha...his chest muscle is as big as my breast...just that his is muscle...mine's fat....haha....

then it rained...gosh...made the bus even more slow...no choice lor...alighted at the place i'm suppose to alight and took a cab...hail for super long before the cab came...gosh...in the end...instead of being early...i became late..thank god my supervisor is on leave..haha..no one to scold me...

at work..4 of us...one more guy working temp sat together on 1 tiny round table....gosh...so cramped..and the 3 of us..yoges..deng lu plus me have to study biosafety and SOPs all day round...at the end of the day..we still have to take a test lehz...if we never pass...cannot go into the lab...guess whats they passing mark???....80%....haha...tmr i'll know the results...hehe....

okok la..thats basically all for my first day of work...haha...bye!!!!!

shopping makes my world go round....

my biggest lesson learnt from going shopping with my darls...glad and jo yesterday is that....whereever you go...as long as you are going shopping...never ever wear a pair of uncomfortable shoes...or at least..wear a pair of fitting shoes...haha...glad and jo can testify the fact that i have been complaining abt my pair of shoe for like....the entire shopping trip....

so..in any case...i've finally meet up with jo and glad to do some shopping.....but...eventually i went home empty handed...haha...cos i didn't want to buy and didn't dare to buy....i met up with glad first...went to jalan jalan around bugis junction..and then went to tcc for a drink..they change their menu and now...they dun have anymore sea of gold...i loved sea of gold...now they dun have anymore..looks like its time for me to start looking for another signature drink of mine at tcc....haha...so...jo met up with us after that....and then...we went to bugis village for the shopping spree...with my already screaming feet....haha....so..we walked around..and went to the sunday shop (by now..i've got 6 of their tees already)....jo and glad each bought their own pair of jeans while i didn't think of buying any..cos i didn't really like jeans...but i think i'll buy a pair or two next time i go there.....i want to get the tee that everyone is wearing now..the one on litte miss..and mr tee....argh...they just dun have the guy size at bugis for the mr collection....they only have the guy size for the little miss collection...looks like i really got no choice but to go to heeren mambo and buy from there....then...our stomachs start to grumble...so me and glad brought jo to ice monster to try their mango ice...that is so exotic...and its to die for....after that..we aren't done with the snacks so we moved to long john and had a little platter before going to haji lane....

so..you know...haji lane and ann siang hill now its like the place where to coolest and hippest underground brands are....with lots of nice little boutiques there....so..it was at one of the boutiques that i found those bermuda shorts that i have looking all around..which is not at the high priced end...abt 40plus per pair..and its really nice...but eventually i just didn't have the courage to ask if they have my size..haha...cos i thot..such boutiques..its sure that all of them are going to be clothes that is suited for the fit and lean...haiz...so eventually..i didn't even bother to ask and i left...but i at least know where i can find such places to buy clothes already....and they have all sorts of cafes and resturants there...they even have a egyptian resturant there...haha..next time we can go and try...there...i find lots of nice places to shop...and i think it'll be a heaven for ppl like sab..you can find all your dresses there!!!...haha..next time i bring you there....

so..after haji lane we decided to go back to bugis and walk a little round more before going for dinner...and i am telling you...the dinner food there..is really just ok la...but jo's ramen looks very very not appetising...and then..we went to OG...oh god...jo at OG...keep wanting to get the guess bag...me and glad kinda sucessfully persuaded her to get something else...eventually..she bought a carlo rino bag at 20% off...and it sheek..white...and best of all....cheaper than the guess bag...haha....after that...my bus came..and off i went...haha...so jo and glad have to walk themselves to the other bus stop to take the bus home....

today...i'm at home..watching some shows...enjoying my last day of holiday by rotting...haha...okok...thats all...tataz!!!!!

huge lesson in life...never ever judge a book by its cover...

hello...i came acrose a RD article that really got me thinking...its abt a girl...1 year older than us....with a very very rare skin genetic disease....harlequin icthyosis(HI)....only 1 in 250,000 babies can have a chance of getting it....basically..this disease causes the skin of the body to grow 14 times faster than normal skin and then you'll be shedding thick thick loads of skin cells...your skin can dry up so fast..that if your skin is allowed to dry...you can't even bend your fingers...so..this poor girl had this disease...and miraculously she survived...having to survive so many ordeals and even get a college degree...most imptly...she is not afraid of being judged...not afraid that people will get disgusted by her and how she looks like....and that she is willing to open herself up to help children of other diseases...and those kids dun ostracised her....how brave and courageous this woman is...i mean...if i were her...i would have locked myself up like a hermit..and never ever get out of the house at all.....

sometimes...its not the disease that is scary..its the way and state of the people's mind that thot about it....and unfortunately...i'm afraid..thats just not something that all of us are born with...we have learnt to developed this sceptical eye at everyone else....those kids dun despise her in anyways...becos their innocent is in the heart and they look at the others with the heart..not their eyes....and that is why children are the most honest and angel like being ever on earth.....which by the way...many adults can't even do that...and i personally...admit that..i'm one of those ppl....haha....especially on the you-know-who.....

ok...enuf abt my values on life...now for something on the more personal level....well..these 2 days...i have been staying at home clearing up all the vids that i haven't got a time to watch them when i am in school...haha..who else has the time to watch them when you are in school..especially when you are in my course....the most scary course anyone could ever attend in NYP...haha...okok...opps...i dun want to get sued....ha...so...i'm on this new series...queer as folk....well..its kinda...erm...not very well known...but its basically a gay version of sex and the city....where they really toked abt the different views and things in life...

so...that was how i spent my last hol week for school....cos next week...i'm starting a 6 mths work attachment at NEA-EHI....haha....and the truth is...i'm not at all prepared for anything...not at all...haha..cos i dunno what is there to prepare....well..i guess...i'm kinda ready for it mentally...and socially...i'm always ready in meeting new friends..and from what i heard abt this place...haha...i'm going to really expand my circle of friends...on some particular side...haha....well...and honestly..i dunno how are things going to be like there...cos for starters...its real life work...not experiments in school...you cannot afford to make mistakes...haha..well...its not that i make alot of them in school...but its just that you know...i dun wanna ruin thousands of dollars worth of experiments....haha....

ok..thats all for today...see ya!!!!

mahjong...east coast..haha....physically and mentally tiring...

okok...let me start of by reaccounting what i did for the past few days...haha...erm...i was at home all day for thurs thru sun...haha...it was nice staying at home to rot...so shiok..haha..guess it was something that i desperately need after the exams....hahaa

then yesterday morning...made a trip back school..to collect reports and information abt the modules..haha..see i'm such a good nanny....haha...better buy me something for graduation...haha...okok...moving on..after that..i went to geraldine's place for mahjong..i was suppose to meet all of them..heather..geraldine..and sab at northpt....well..as expected...heather and sab was late...why is it that it appears that only a handful of ppl around has the idea of time management....haha...in any case..after everyone came...we went to the foodcourt at northpt to buy food back to geraldine's place so that we can have lunch there and straight away start with the mahjong....haha....and so...mahjong...wooohoooo...it was one of the most glorious victory i've ever won...4 rounds in a row...haha..of course la...it wasn't very professional way of playing that made me won...so..they decided to raise the bar so that i will need to play professionally...then of course..i started losing...but still...geraldine was the biggest loser...at home ground somemore....and oh...before we left at around 7.30...i stole sab's wallet becos she left it lying around...and made her go all the way back to geraldine's place to search for it...haha...me and heather were laughing hysterically...haha...then it was home sweet home...

today....we went to east coast park....gosh...we were suppose to meet at 12.30...and i reached quite at the exact time....then...dan appeared 10-15 mins later...after i finished my big mac meal with upsize....haha...then...by the time..the guys and girls come...it was 1.30...and we finally left at 2 when everyone finished eating...and then we went to rent the bicycle..dan and anwar didn't want to cycle..so they sat there and chit chat while the rest of us go for the main activity of the day...cycling....oh god..the person...who gave me my bike...he is either trying to make me work real hard and lose weight..or he simply hate me...gave me a super short one...and made it so difficult for me to ride..i had to use up all my energy...haha...took some pics at certain stops....and i was totally wasted during the last bit..and i simple gave up riding and started walking instead...haha..then heather called that everyone is now waiting for me..so i had no choice but to ride that slow pace and finally reached for the sugarcane drink...before starting off early so that we will not miss the time to return the bicycle..becos of me of course...haha...

so i had to slowly ride..and finally...gathered myself to return the bike...when i got down the bike...my butt hurts like nobody's business...and my legs were sore...sweat was dripping down my forehead while half of my shirt is wet becos of my sweat..haha...you should have see me then...the word to use on me...was wasted!!!!....haha...so...i dragged my very weary body and went to parkway for dinner...i ordered kauy chap...actually wanted to have 2 bowls of that kuay with at 1 person's share...in the end...haha...something else came out of my mouth..and it became 2 person's share...haha...i had to like...force ah bao to eat some so that i won't look too big like a glutton...haha....and we of course had some fun chat...and then..we walked around the mall....played a stupid drum game..and failed utterly...and had discs with yufang..haha..it was so exciting...in the end..i won!!!!

then..i took bus with yufang...sab...geraldine...elizabeth...heather and her bf...changed 2 buses thereafter..and here i am blogging...haha...

okok..thats all for today..see ya....

lalalalalala.....hehehehehe...hahahahaha...thats my title

hello...its 9.26 at night and i've got nthg to do around....while waiting for my show to load...i decided to come here and blog abt something....honestly...i dunno what thing am i suppose to blog abt...but i guess...i'll just rattle on like i always did....

i was watching law and order on the hallmark channel just now...that is one hell of a good series...and i've got to say...the deepest heartfelt feeling i had watching the show was not abt the criminals...its abt living with the rightoeus courage that everyone had...i always watched the lawyers trying to get their way thru the attorneys...which is like...hello...your client just killed someone...and you are trying to get him away....is that even..ethical...which by the way...it is...under the law...everyone reserves the right to have a lawyer to defend for them...and the lawyer is suppose to defend their clients...but still...where did all the lawyer's ability to distinguish right and wrong...evil and good go???...is this what they are suppose to do?...helping people who broke the law to get away free...i dun think so...haha..so much so for my childhood dream of becoming a lawyer...looking at those lawyer going into unscruplous means to save their clients....gosh...it just shattered my dream...

toking abt values...i wonder what values are still left on the face of earth that is worth being praised...what has the world become....didn't everyone after WW2 decided that there should be no more war already....and that everyone should be in peace and harmony...then can someone explain to me why is there vietnam war...and the iraq war...actually...this kind of war is something that is the least scary..at least you know where your enemies are...and what are they going to do...but the war against the terroist is totally opposite...we are in the light when they are completely out of sight...and within a moment...boom...there it goes...some car just exploded in the streets of iraq...pakistan..and somewhere else in the world....sometimes i wonder...what the hell is wrong with these guys..who on earth gave them the idea that sacrificing their life to do such idiotic things is meaningful enough....i guess..its something they have been taught and brainwashed with the very day they are born.....but i think...the bottomline is..they are not bad people...they are just trying to protect themselves from being bullied...its just that they way that they engaged in is just to extreme....maybe someday...someone will be able to teach them that actually they can use their life to do something great and good...not by being suicide bombers...but by perhaps..educating or doing businesses and then using their abilities to help their people...isn't that much better....i guess...that someday might never come...but at the very least...there is this piece of hope around....and as long as there is hope...there is still a chance of this world being a better place.....

suddenly...this reminded me of a song by barbra streisand...SOMEWHERE...and maybe i shall leave this song for me to conclude it all....

freedom...lost...lovey birds...

ok...first of all...i want to make this post shout out loud.....I AM FREE!!!!!!.....yeah...kinda that meaning la...i finally finish my excruciating 2.5 years in NYP...MB course....well...my experience in NYP...is something bitter-sweet...haha...but the sweet part came in more than the bitter ones....studies aside...i've met and know lots and lots of new friends and classmates...of course...all my boys and girls in the class...hope that i've been a nice nanny and took care of them well....haha....not to forget my pal in class... heather...sab...elize...yufang...muz...geraldine and dan...haha....its nice having them as my pals in class...killed alot of boring time in lectures....and definitely...those sweet people from other classes...can't name all of you...but you know who you are...haha...

actually...the thing abt this course is that you must really have the gift for it...and that you are must be persistent enough...haha...if not...its really a dead and dry track to take...really...looking back...thats is the idea that i can gather...each and every component counts..and that you must really work hard for all of them....any slacking...everything is gone...so...my advice to those ppl left...is...hang on...and stay focus...haha...yeah....thats the thing in our line...

other than my classmates and work...i think...i have also know some very wonderful lecturers...a.k...vanaja...jay...micheal...dr.liang...dr.xu..henry..william..miss lim...miss diong...miss tai..miss tan..miss lai...miss chia...dr.chan...miss leong..alvin..and so so much more...thank you for all your lessons...good or bad...exciting or boring...haha...thanks to all of you!!!!!

suddenly...now that all exams comes to an end..and we have to go for attachment...i'm sort of in a mixed feeling...on one end...happy that all the studying in NYP is over and that we can take a break in IAP...and on the other...a little lost..empty and of course...going to miss the school a little...haha...but in whichever case...this is part of my life that i'll remember...always...those bitter and sweet...yes...haha

toking abt my IAP...its really confirmed...NEA...haha...at least quite a few of us are there and we can go and have lunch together...haha...and i get to gossip with them as well...and oh..one thing...haha....my pay...is 440........haha...i think sab and muz must be so jealous now...haha....

and oh...love is definitely in the air...suddenly all my close friends are attached...and also...some couple just formed rite under my nose and yet..i have no sense of detection at all...haha...really...it never occured to me at all...haha...but still...its nice..and hope they'll have a unforgetable memories together...remember to invite me to your wedding dinner ar...haha..dun worry...i sure give a big angbao one...haha....

okok..thats all for today...see ya!!!

p.s. thanks for the card daniel..its nice having you as a wonderful classmate as welll

and

all the best to prawn noodles with agar agar...haha....

all of life's...what if and if only...

halfway thru the day...and i was getting very sentimental and didn't want to do my revision..decided to come here and vent it out a little....

in any case....maybe its just me...always asking myself what if...and if only...haha...yeah...for everything i do...i'll always ask myself...sometimes...i always think..did i make the wrong decision...did the wrong thing...or simply speak the wrong stuff....i guess...i'm always asking myself that..cos i'm always lack of that sense of security....

i love to day dream...and most of the time..i always imagine what would have happen to me if i have done the thing the other ways...or choose another life....but slowly after all this while...i've sort of come to the understanding that....no point thinking of them anymore...becos...its all over..and since i cannot go back in time to make the decisions all over again...its best that i give up those little thots that things will be different....and just let it go...

i know that we are just like a big jug of stuffs...in our mind, if we keep pouring things in and not getting things out...we will go bonkers...but sometimes..i just feel that its so hard letting something off...letting it go and forgetting it is by far the most difficult thing i've ever encountered....i know that..nthg can come in unless i take something away...but in terms of this...i'm a very greedy person...all i want is to put the things in and not taking anything or anyone out of my life...haha...sounds stupid isn't it...but its really like this....

i do hope that someone that eventually find out a way to selectively get rid of certain memories of certain things...then...i can choose what i want to stay and what i want to forget..then perhaps...i'll not daydream of those impossiblities already......

ok..thats all...vented it out a little...bye!!!...

p.s. someone teach me how to forget????