lalalalalala.....hehehehehe...hahahahaha...thats my title

hello...its 9.26 at night and i've got nthg to do around....while waiting for my show to load...i decided to come here and blog abt something....honestly...i dunno what thing am i suppose to blog abt...but i guess...i'll just rattle on like i always did....

i was watching law and order on the hallmark channel just now...that is one hell of a good series...and i've got to say...the deepest heartfelt feeling i had watching the show was not abt the criminals...its abt living with the rightoeus courage that everyone had...i always watched the lawyers trying to get their way thru the attorneys...which is like...hello...your client just killed someone...and you are trying to get him away....is that even..ethical...which by the way...it is...under the law...everyone reserves the right to have a lawyer to defend for them...and the lawyer is suppose to defend their clients...but still...where did all the lawyer's ability to distinguish right and wrong...evil and good go???...is this what they are suppose to do?...helping people who broke the law to get away free...i dun think so...haha..so much so for my childhood dream of becoming a lawyer...looking at those lawyer going into unscruplous means to save their clients....gosh...it just shattered my dream...

toking abt values...i wonder what values are still left on the face of earth that is worth being praised...what has the world become....didn't everyone after WW2 decided that there should be no more war already....and that everyone should be in peace and harmony...then can someone explain to me why is there vietnam war...and the iraq war...actually...this kind of war is something that is the least scary..at least you know where your enemies are...and what are they going to do...but the war against the terroist is totally opposite...we are in the light when they are completely out of sight...and within a moment...boom...there it goes...some car just exploded in the streets of iraq...pakistan..and somewhere else in the world....sometimes i wonder...what the hell is wrong with these guys..who on earth gave them the idea that sacrificing their life to do such idiotic things is meaningful enough....i guess..its something they have been taught and brainwashed with the very day they are born.....but i think...the bottomline is..they are not bad people...they are just trying to protect themselves from being bullied...its just that they way that they engaged in is just to extreme....maybe someday...someone will be able to teach them that actually they can use their life to do something great and good...not by being suicide bombers...but by perhaps..educating or doing businesses and then using their abilities to help their people...isn't that much better....i guess...that someday might never come...but at the very least...there is this piece of hope around....and as long as there is hope...there is still a chance of this world being a better place.....

suddenly...this reminded me of a song by barbra streisand...SOMEWHERE...and maybe i shall leave this song for me to conclude it all....

freedom...lost...lovey birds...

ok...first of all...i want to make this post shout out loud.....I AM FREE!!!!!!.....yeah...kinda that meaning la...i finally finish my excruciating 2.5 years in NYP...MB course....well...my experience in NYP...is something bitter-sweet...haha...but the sweet part came in more than the bitter ones....studies aside...i've met and know lots and lots of new friends and classmates...of course...all my boys and girls in the class...hope that i've been a nice nanny and took care of them well....haha....not to forget my pal in class... heather...sab...elize...yufang...muz...geraldine and dan...haha....its nice having them as my pals in class...killed alot of boring time in lectures....and definitely...those sweet people from other classes...can't name all of you...but you know who you are...haha...

actually...the thing abt this course is that you must really have the gift for it...and that you are must be persistent enough...haha...if not...its really a dead and dry track to take...really...looking back...thats is the idea that i can gather...each and every component counts..and that you must really work hard for all of them....any slacking...everything is gone...so...my advice to those ppl left...is...hang on...and stay focus...haha...yeah....thats the thing in our line...

other than my classmates and work...i think...i have also know some very wonderful lecturers...a.k...vanaja...jay...micheal...dr.liang...dr.xu..henry..william..miss lim...miss diong...miss tai..miss tan..miss lai...miss chia...dr.chan...miss leong..alvin..and so so much more...thank you for all your lessons...good or bad...exciting or boring...haha...thanks to all of you!!!!!

suddenly...now that all exams comes to an end..and we have to go for attachment...i'm sort of in a mixed feeling...on one end...happy that all the studying in NYP is over and that we can take a break in IAP...and on the other...a little lost..empty and of course...going to miss the school a little...haha...but in whichever case...this is part of my life that i'll remember...always...those bitter and sweet...yes...haha

toking abt my IAP...its really confirmed...NEA...haha...at least quite a few of us are there and we can go and have lunch together...haha...and i get to gossip with them as well...and oh..one thing...haha....my pay...is 440........haha...i think sab and muz must be so jealous now...haha....

and oh...love is definitely in the air...suddenly all my close friends are attached...and also...some couple just formed rite under my nose and yet..i have no sense of detection at all...haha...really...it never occured to me at all...haha...but still...its nice..and hope they'll have a unforgetable memories together...remember to invite me to your wedding dinner ar...haha..dun worry...i sure give a big angbao one...haha....

okok..thats all for today...see ya!!!

p.s. thanks for the card daniel..its nice having you as a wonderful classmate as welll

and

all the best to prawn noodles with agar agar...haha....

all of life's...what if and if only...

halfway thru the day...and i was getting very sentimental and didn't want to do my revision..decided to come here and vent it out a little....

in any case....maybe its just me...always asking myself what if...and if only...haha...yeah...for everything i do...i'll always ask myself...sometimes...i always think..did i make the wrong decision...did the wrong thing...or simply speak the wrong stuff....i guess...i'm always asking myself that..cos i'm always lack of that sense of security....

i love to day dream...and most of the time..i always imagine what would have happen to me if i have done the thing the other ways...or choose another life....but slowly after all this while...i've sort of come to the understanding that....no point thinking of them anymore...becos...its all over..and since i cannot go back in time to make the decisions all over again...its best that i give up those little thots that things will be different....and just let it go...

i know that we are just like a big jug of stuffs...in our mind, if we keep pouring things in and not getting things out...we will go bonkers...but sometimes..i just feel that its so hard letting something off...letting it go and forgetting it is by far the most difficult thing i've ever encountered....i know that..nthg can come in unless i take something away...but in terms of this...i'm a very greedy person...all i want is to put the things in and not taking anything or anyone out of my life...haha...sounds stupid isn't it...but its really like this....

i do hope that someone that eventually find out a way to selectively get rid of certain memories of certain things...then...i can choose what i want to stay and what i want to forget..then perhaps...i'll not daydream of those impossiblities already......

ok..thats all...vented it out a little...bye!!!...

p.s. someone teach me how to forget????

oh..foodie guys...

kinda getting too tired and lazy with my revision..so..i decided to respond to wil..haha..and blog abt the guys and food...hmmm..which one shld i blog abt first...haha..i know..my favourite boy in class..dun get me wrong....



bao bao...now..what food do i think he is...lets see...hmm..for him..looks is very decieving..tall and dark as he might seem...haha...he is actually a gentle puppy (as someone will put it)...haha...so..i think..the food that represent him will be...a nice array of sashimi...haha...looks like there's alot of things going on in the plate...but actually..its nthg more than the natural sweetness and flavour of the ingredients only...



bao's friend...haha..who i termed..gay partner..ah zhong...hmmm..lets see abt him...actually he is really the opposite of bao..haha...looks simpler and cool from the outside...but inside...i think..he is a very very..explosive person...its not difficult to think of a food for him...haha...i think..he will make a nice bowl of prawn noodles...hehe...looks plain and normal...but really...everything there is so flavorful and with that tinge of chilli...that kinda makes up ah zhong...haha



aloy...is the joker of the class...haha..always with his boy's school kind of tricks...i think for him...he is something sweet and nice...haha...choclates truffles....haha...girl's bestfriend...other than diamonds and shopping la...hehe...he is really for everyone actually...and i'm sure his gf will have no problem forgiving him if he makes her angry..haha...becos..he never fails to make ppl laugh....haha...



wilson..the guy who wanted me to write abt this...i think..for him...he is...your very typical guy...haha...but with attitude...and always know where is his turf and limits..for him...i think...he'll make a very nice bowl of...haha..wanton mee....or fishball noodles....you know why...its really those kind that can be found everywhere...but yet...its something..that you will kinda notice it everytime...it gives you a very down to earth feeling...just like wil...and with that spicy kick..thats all the attitude it needs to show you....



now...who's next...hmm...nantha..the big cool guy...for him...definitely...ice cream...peppermint with chocolate chip...haha...makes everyone's heat cools down immediately...really..even the hottest summer craze can't do anything to his cooling effect...i guess..he is a friend that you really need..to cool down your excitement...haha...yeah..thats nantha....and very reliable also...



haha..i know who's next...edwin ang...hehe...well this 10 o'clock king...haha..and the guy i always like to bully...hehe...for him..i think...he always give a dreamy feeling...i wonder is it just me..or is he always dreamy...dreaming..i mean...haha....okok...well for him..of course something dreamy la...yes...cream puffs...those japanese ones...filled with thick thick cream...haha...that is dreamy enuf...rite girls???



okok...now..its daniel...well daniel..i think he is really someone very fun to be with...and so..of course...something fun for him...haha...i actually thought of those biscuits that i used to eat when i was young..those with sugar icing on tops...with different colours...haha...but now..i think he'll make a nice really nice tub of cookies..yes...funny...cracky...and once you start..you can't stop!!!haha...



alrighty..who else...hmm...alec...well...i guess...he is someone...always sitting around at the corner...haha..looks innocent..but always engaging and looking out what is happening around him...and oh..appears when you need his help...haha...that..i think..he is going to be a cup of green tea...haha...always somewhere there..and always there to give a little anti-oxidant help...haha...



ohoh...there is one newcomer....yong cai...hehe...i guess...he is a really mr nice guy..always so polite and nice...haha...so..from what i think..he is going to be a nice set of english afternoon tea...haha...always reminding me of how gentlemen and how nice he is...haha...

ok..its lunch time for me...haha...bye!!!

wow...schooling is over....i meant...in NYP...

as of 10th aug 07.....my days of tutorials and lectures in NYP is officially over at 3.30 p.m. with henry as my last lecturer for the years in poly..whats left is my FYP and IAP which i'll be doing together at NEA....haiz...next week going over for the interview..shld be ok..i think...well...



abt my recent outing..haha..last week i went out with jo to raffles and then bugis to do a little retail therapy which i have not been able to do for the past weeks....haha...but i had to wait for this big missy for like 45 mins...thank god i went to the fruit juice bar..ordered something and finish reading the straits times and thank god..at that time..she's finally there...i like the ambience at the juice bar...next time...whenever i'm waiting for someone in that vicinity...haha..that will be the meeting place...cos..i got a strong feeling...i'm always going to wait for ppl or something...haha...in anycase...i bought a shirt while jo...haha...bought a kappa tee for the sake of buying something....hehehe....



and yesterday...after my presentation(i'll talk abt it later)...i went out with my mum and we had buffet at the equinox...haha...at raffles swiss hotel in case you dunno...at the 70th floor...wow..this time...i had a hard time in that 45 secs in the lift....the pressure difference just made my ear cracked...haha...but i survived the ordeal...the place was nice there too...you can over look the whole CBD area at the place...woooo hooo...so nice view and nice food too....my mums and aunties really know how to enjoy life and pamper me after all my suffering in school...haha...thank you!!!...after that..i had to teach my another auntie how to use excel...yes, your eyes are not playing a trick on you...haha...this computer nerd here is actually teaching someone how to use the computer..haha..so funny....



well...as for school matters...some projects came back..got quite good results...although proteomics might not be that good...i think...had several tests...turned out to be pretty manageable...i will not say its easy..but at least...i think i should be able to get Bs...as for my business...finally i finish my last presentation...all that work for the elective...but miss tan is really nice and helped out alot...thank you...i'm so gonna buy you chocolates...haha...and oh..thanks for the chocs...racheal..eugene..edwin..daryl...haha..its nice being your class rep for that 1 sem also!!!!



ohoh...one last thing....national day celebration in school...haha...i think its nice...erm..although the thing was a little rough but overall...hmm..i think its something fresh and new...haha....well..of course...i'm in charge you know...hahaha...okok...i'm leaving you with some pictures....

My chocs....its nice...haha...

Me and jo...

The watermelon 'thank you card'..haha

me and my yima at the equinox...

sleeping has got me into troubles again....

ok...now...my past week...was erm...termed as ever so....i dunno what words to use...its just sucks....so...i'm going to just highlight the impt parts....

very very firstly....i want to say a BIG BIG SORRY...to muznah, sabrina, michelle and most imptly danielle whom i guess is still very angry with me(and hopefully after your sleep, your anger will be appeased)....its my sleeping gene's wrecking havoc and cause all of you to stay up so late to do the work alone...its my fault and so....DUI BU QI...i'll find ways to make it up to you all one day.....promise!!!

miraculously, we are able to complete that project from scratch in 2 days...and most of the efforts really go to them...all i did...was like the minimal 5%..and paying the expenses...haiz...well...its definitely not nice being irresponsible for once..and i thot..its a chance for me to remember to ask things clearly and make sure i'm that i'll be there....gosh...

haiz...after this friday...finishing up all my stuffs...i'll be so so free....finally..and i get a chance to watch harry potter...with my sister...and...some little long needed rejuvenating shopping...

ok...i'm going to hand up the reports now...tataz....

p.s. SORRY...DANIELLE...FORGIVE ME..K???