hey...its 9.58p.m. and at normal times...i am suppose to be watching the tv..but here i am blogging...that is becos..i am sick and i have been coughing non stop...due to this..i cannot have an early nite and after taking some tcm for cough...i am here waiting for the medicine to take its effect....i dunno y...everytime i come back from chalet..i'm always sick..is it becos of the heaty food...the alcohol..or the overnight thingy..and one common thing...i'm always feeling a little sick when before i go to the chalet..so the chalet will only aggravate my situation....haha...
ok..toking abt the chalet...after so much trouble...my class finally has its own gathering..but guess what..only 15 ppl came..can you believe it..the rest all didn't come...haiz..no choice lor..but we still had fun la....started off pretty well..until jiawen's bf came from downtown east and brought along a group of guys...haiz..the moment that happened...one of the guys saw sabrina and yiting(the 2 most pretty girl of the day) and start trying to get close..and the whole bunch of guys happily sat down and played "the strawberry card game" (which no one in our group wants to play with sab).....chasing a large number of us out of the room into our own territory and heather they all went out to get some alcohol..i followed at first..but then the cheers at downtown east was closed and so..me and michelle headed back...no choice..we waited for the gang to came back..and we chatted outside...finally the guys notice that their presence was a nuisance and finally want to leave...but then..the guy that 'flirted' with sab and yi ting saw heather drinking and was saying..so tempted...and heather was like finish the whole bottle if you dare la(there was one bottle that no one wanted to drink)...and so..he happily finish the whole bottle..still trying to act cool after that..and they finally departure...yiting and alec and baocheng left leaving me and wilson and a bunch of girls...we went to took our shower..and those that are tired slept...those played mahjong played mahjong..and me....well..just watched the tv..feeling very tired..that was like around 1...then i started to have energy...woohoo...i played a little mahjong..and that was time to have the sunrise...turned out that there was no sunrise to be seen from the beach that we had...so..oppsy..they all came back..and most of them fell back to sleep...once the morning light came...wilson went off...then jiawen also went off...then geraldine was unwell..so michelle and elizabeth took off with her together..leaving me and fiona still awake...haha...then fiona started to took a nap..then i all by myself..cleared up the bbq...the chalet inside..took care of all the rubbish..and then waited for them to stay awake...and i left...to the beach at round 7 plus..just sitting and looking around..lydia woke up..and she had to leave for work..so i sent her off..and return the bbq pit..after everyone woke up..we left the chalet..and went mac for breakfast..then all of use went back home..i reach home at around 12 in the afternoon..slept all the way till 6...by then i was feeling sick..and oh dear...it got all the way worse till now...
last saturday also went pasir ris park...for mentoring..had a fun time with the kids too....yeah...took some photos...show you next time...p.s. i saw joanna as well..yeeps..nana!!!!
hi..sorry for not blogging for so long...cos i cannot bring myself to it...today..i'll first tok abt the most saddening thing for the week...MY RESULTS....haiz....the only good thing is...my MBT miraculously got B+...the rest not bad...cell tech..ABC and IM..also got B+...only A is marketing..haha...i can still get A for that...but my GPA...just fails to rise abt 3 you know..cos my first 2 sem's gpa is really low..so it just pulls everything down..or else my GPA for this sem got 3.428 one lor...so whats my lesson learnt...dun ever ever flunk your first year..its going to set you into a big chaotic vacumm that will make you work like siao to get good grades...really..and no matter how hard i work..i still cannot get thru to the 3.5 mark i want for the yr 3....haiz...so sad...but nevertheless...i'll still be working very very hard for that..yeap..i promise!!!!!!!ok..thats all for today..i'll come again soon to tok abt the rest..see ya..p.s. wish me all the best for all the sems to come!!!!!
yesterday just finish watching a hk drama series...its canto..and abt the olden days..concubines of the emperor...haiz..its the 3rd time i watch this drama...but i still cry for the 3rd time nevertheless...the storyline is very captivating..in fact..its so good rather than the other ones you find in the market...those other stories are predictable..so boring...but this one..the storyline is nice and there a lots of suprises along the way...but there is a very bad ending...out of 4 main characters...2 died..1 stucked in the palace...1 living but lover dead...i hate this kind of endings lor..its so..SAD...haiz..now you know y i cried rite...and the songs they have also very nice...if i can..i'll upload for you ppl to hear...
the other kind of ending is the open one..dun you just hate it...so...so...disgusting..just like the channel 8 series that ended yesterday..so stupid rite...in the end...melissa also never go with norman..argh..out of the 3 male lead..norman's story attracted me the most one lor...in the end like that...wth....
anyway..my holidays was alright la...all along trying to slack..haha..having fun..and i started my diet already so..hope that i can slim down..and all the best for my results also...!!!!!
i told myself i'm letting it go
but i didn't know it was so hard
i told myself to forget it
but it just keeps coming back
how i wish i'm a child again
then my life can start all over again
how i wish i'm a dying man
then all the things will soon have an end
if the stars can hear me out
please just take this suffering away
if the sun can shine on me
please give me hope to renew again
it was never meant to be
so please take it away from me
let me cast this thought away
so i can live my life again ...
hihi...i'm back after 2 weeks!!!....everyone got miss me??? hahaha....nvm....i'm officially having my holiday as of yesterday 10.15 after i finish my last marketing paper.....for my papers...its seems that things are going not really as good as i thot it will be but its not that bad after all...i may not be getting As for all my subject...but there is a high chance that i can pull up my GPA pretty high...i'm quite happy with my IM, Cell Tech, MBT and ABC......but HBD didn't really turned out that good for me...cos i did really expect them to give such questions..anyway...i won't score too bad either....as for marketing..i really dunno how to do one of the 10 marks questions..but heck care it..cos i did pretty good for common test and my tuts...so..i should be able to pull it off....results coming out 2 weeks ahead...lets pray for the best....when i was having my exams...i seemed to be very stressed out..even i have problems with my bowels...haha...but nvm...its going to be ok...i'm feeling much better now...my health is really deterorating..i can practically fill it...omg...its just like what the zodiac speacialist said dragons will be this year...but next year will be a much better time for me....anyway...after exams yesterday..i went back to srs...wah...its so kiddy now..no matter from the interior to the exterior....i visit practically all the teeachers i can know in the school...thats practically all la...haha....i went back with jo and zixian...then the security dun let zixian in becos of his hair..he scared mr tina or mr rafi say anything...i told him is the two of them say anything i can handle...haha...he was so shocked..he still dunno who the hell i am...haha...want to talk mr rafi in terms..you are far far behind...in the end we all still went in together....chat with lots of teachers...mr rafi...mr tina...mdm loh...mrs chong...miss phua..miss ong...mis low...mdm xuan..mdm duan...mrs tan...lots and lots more...haha..renewed my sosa membership also...dunno y...but i just did that...me and jo also went back to our old classroom..its so dirty now...all the tables are vandalised...haiz...all these made me think back those days...life was much easier and carefree for me then...i wonder wat happened to my old self already....i think it slowly going away..thank god i still have all my darls to remind me of who i was....speaking of darls...after srs..me and jo had lunch at the ramen resturant in hg mall..food not bad for me...but jo didn't like it that much..then she ordered more..i paid for it..cos i owe her the teachers' day present gift....glad came and meet us..then we chated and went marina for shopping...wah..i walked till my legs were sore....jo told glad where she made her accessories...haha...then glad keep pestering me to go chinatown with her yesterday..omg...from marina..we took train to chinatown and we gave glad lots of ideas..she finally made her necklace...and she stop pestering me already(for the moment)....then jo got lots of chinese novels...haha..finally..we all went home...my legs was full of blisters becos my shoe was soaking wet becos of the rain yesterday...as for my holidays...i still dunno what i am going to do...maybe i'll decide later la..for now..just let me rot...i miss doing that....ofk...o'm done today..see i told you..its a long blog...haha...bye bye....p.s. happy teachers day to all my teachers!!!!!!!!!...i love you..and thank you!!!!!!
hello...while other polys students are enjoying their holidays or at least their coming holiday...i have to study cos my sems exams starts next tuesday...haiz....me and exams is in a love-hate relationship...i used to like exams in sec school..cos i noe i'll score well without studying alot...now i hate it..cos i really have to study to score well...and thats what i am doing now...studying and studying...hopefully i can do as well or even better for my exams like my common test....ok..abt this week in school...well..nthg much..just went back school for 2 days for revision only...haha..it turned out that only my class acutally asked the teachers' for a revision..haha..i admit what dr. chan thinks la...we are kiasu...okok...that i dun deny....my class is a competitive class....or else...how can we be the top class in the whole of the cohort...hahanthg to write abt this week acutally...and i dun think i will be coming next week to blog...cos that is my exam week...you'll hear from me the week after..when i report abt my exam...stay tuned..haha...tataz..p.s. i want to enjoy my holiday already!!!!!!
oh hihi...its a very easy lazy week for me..i only had to go back school once on tuesday for matthew's makeup lecture and the national day celebration...i was one of the few that wore black..hehe..got reprimmanded...but who cares...patriotism is in our hearts...not on our clothes...rite...haha...pass the mug and the card to mr koh after the celebration...finally got it done during the 5 hr break...and i also got a hair cut..now my hair is the shortest ever since i entered poly..i'm so secondary school now...haha....
the rest of the days are basically slacking time lor..didn't really studied until thurs...finally touch my HBD..cos i got a revision coming up..and i want to be prepared for that tutorial...haiz...i'm so worried abt my MBT...i got a C last time round...hopefully this time can at least get a B...i won't lose my face so much...hehe...
my face has a weird patch of pigmentation..went to the doctor and gave me some bleaching cream...haiz...hopefully it will go away..it makes my face look really very dirty lehz...eeee..beautician said my it was allergic reaction but doctor said it was pigmentation...dunno whose rite or whose wrong..whatever la..as long as i can get rid of the marks on my face...i'll believe whose ever words...
ok..thats all for today....seeya
hihi...i finally hand up my completed HACCP project as well as my HBD report...and i am free of assignments for the semester already...weex....haiz....but exams are coming..and i'm so so so....not in the mood to take the exam...lets tok abt the happy stuffs first....i went for my last shopping trip before i go into retreat for my exams....my legs were sooooo sore by the end of the day when i reach home..haha...all thanks to our dear sabrina la...she wanted to buy the addidas jacket for her bf...haha..but she just cannot find the correct one..and i keep telling her to go to the next store....oops...its my fault also la.....hehe...but i know that i went suntec twice and 3 times to citylink mall...and bugis and marina square...haha...no wonder my legs are sore la...plus we walked from bugis back to suntec somemore..haha...but sab's is worse than mine la....we had 7 when we start shopping...but at the end...only left 3..thats me..sab and michelle....haha...we had a wonderful time la....i wanted to buy a MYUK bag at first..but i didn't like it in the end cos i saw a kappa bag...then keep asking me to go bugis village to buy the imitation goods...haiya...i dun like to buy fake goods ma...hehe...in the end also never buy la.....hehe...next time then buy lor..after my exams...now a little sad stuff...haiz...mr koh going...hmm..actually...i dun feel that sad initially when i heard the news..cos i thot i was over that emotional stage of mine(remember those sec3 times when i cried when miss ngo left).....but now...i'm having that feeling..maybe its because...he's really to good mentor...yup..he is a really good mentor..a kind person too...but i'm not going to be so sad la..cos afterall...we'll still be able to meet..we are going to be in the same sector next time also ma..and who knows...i may be working in the same company as him lehz...haha....ok...i took some class photo....i'll post them tmr...ok..see ya...
hello..this week is a hectic week...haha...just when i thot that i can finally finish rushing the HACCP project..stewart told me to make the admendments...haiz....already..this week..report + test + project...not much time already...still need to do amendments....hopefully i can get it done soon....and also study for the cell tech test that is coming....i really find it confusing to study for cell tech scale up...maybe i did not pay attention..or maybe ng chee wei just sucks in teaching...hahayou know...i'm always told that i'm a very generous person..the word selfish was never the word for people to describe me...but guess what..this week while doing my report...i'm actually being called selfish...haiz...i also dunno why...maybe i just dun want all my hard work by my group members to benefit those ppl that really did nthg to help us in doing our project..and yet use it to their own benefit...haiz....selfish...thats such a subjective thing...while other call it selfish...some might just say that it is being fair to protect their own rights...which side you are on?...that depends on you....well...anyway...i just hope that the darn HACCP can get over and done with so that i can concentrate on preparing my exams...i want to get better results this time...ok...thats all....bye..p.s. after danielle and heather suggestions...i have increase the font...see ok not la....
i just came back from jo's bday party...hmm...its so short..haha..we just had dinner...and everyone just went off....hehe..but jo says its the thot that counts...well..i agree also la...but anyway...i knew i should have booked tickets if we were to watch movies in the weekends...end up...me and jo had to walk from cine to OG to meet glad then walk to grand cathay to watch the show...and we were like given super front seats la...but its not that difficult to lift our heads up and watch the movie..cos the chairs are rather comfy...toking abt the movie...hmm..its not something i expected...its so...unfinished..and bloody hell...we waited for the LONG credits to finish just to watch the dog becomes the tribes' chief....but the show overall ok la...then i wanted to go new urban male and see see one..these days...the new urban male having more and more shops....but we did not went in after all..i also never bring money to buy things...so we walked to suntec to meet them...haha..and for the first time..all of them met up already...opps...that means we were late...but who cares...the bday girl came with us...and kenny totally pissed me off the dinner just now....argh...dinner was at swensens....yeah..real normal..cos i thot hawa coming..in the end she did not turn up...if i had known..then we rather go sakura for buffet lor....but nvm la..its still food...after dinner..the boys said its very sian..and all went back...left me, glad, gigi and jo went esplanade for the sea breeze and tok some 'artistic pics'....haha..its fun la...after that..all of us went off liao...just now when i was bathing...i was day-dreaming again..i was dreaming i became fit and with all the nice clothes..suddenly had an urge to work towards it...well..we'll see...haha..ok thats all for today..see ya...i'm tires and going to bed...p.s. HAPPY BIRTHDYA TO JO AND DARIEN(my cuzzie)
just when i was happily at the pasar malam buying my favourite ramly burger...someone bumped into me and i was instantly reminded of a past...or to be exact...a past fantasy...ya..thats what i called it...a past fantasy..well...i shan't tell you the story..because no one...not even my closest friend knows about this...its is so classified that i have been so trying to forget...but guess what...i just admitted that i can never forget it...its a part of growing up....and i hate to admit it...but its already a part of my memories....i know that i'm a person who always like to dream...but i'm always dreaming about lots of other things...being a supermillionaire....or a famous star...or a mad scientist....but the fact is...i seldom dreamt about falling in love...because deep inside...i know...i dunno how to fall in love...really....thats y i posted the last post that i am a difficult guy to fall in love with...but this person is a very exceptional case...well lets just say...i'm hooked...haha...but i know...its a dream that is never ever going to make its way to reality...which is a totally different world from what i dream....nevertheless....i still like to dream...because it keeps me moving..sometimes...i dream abt things that can never ever happen...but sometimes..i dream abt things that can happen to me in reality...and so..i work hard to fufill that dream...i used to dreamed being a good student leader when i was in primary school...i was so happy to be the computer monitor of the class(a post that till now.. still dunno what is it abt)....then i realised that my dream can be fulfilled when i was sec school...so i work hard..no matter academically or socially or even with my character...and true enuf...i was the deputy head prefect...and getting into a dream course...ha...yeah...working hard is the key.....but for this fantasy of mine...no matter how much i work hard...it is just not possible...and so..i can just keep in a secret with me..till the day i die...perhaps...p.s. my darls...dun try to guess who is that person....you'll never make it....
ok..my right foot has a huge blister on the heel because of my new custom made shoes...haha..they're beautiful...but a little small for me..well...no problem...i think i can make the shoe fit me..haha...just need a little of expanding...anyway..the shoe is beautiful..if you look carefully...the words in golden is acutally my name...nice isn't it...haha........
p.s...there is another post today....
well...first of all...i'm still having some muscle ache on my arms after the fat busting activity i have done with my classmates 2 days ago....haha...we just went east coast cycling la..but its fun..i like that...this is the 2nd time i cycled on a bicycle throughout my whole life...weex...the last time i broke a pair of slippers...but this time....nthg was broken..and i am getting more pro...however the problem is...i haven't been excersing too much to a long time and wanting me to cycle for 3 hours is a litte problem especially when the cushioning for my butt is not very good...my butt practically wasn't mine when i got off the bike...haha....
but i was pissed when i just started the bike ride...we have one classmate who did not know how to ride a bike...so we have to teach her...then at the start point, i asker..."ni xu yao wo pei ni ma"...in english..do you need me to acc you....then 3 top naked bikers(guys of course) came at my back and said.."xu yao"...which means yes i do...and i was like...so pissed...i'll castrate them if i see them again....argh...how dare they make a pass on me...nvm..i shall be gracious and tok abt some thing else....
i got back all my results...yeah...i got 5As....the best i've got so far...wahahahahaha...i'm so happy....looks like my GPA will definitely break 3 this time round...wootx.....hahahaha.....anyway..tuesday we went sabrina's place for a mahjong game...but it wasn't a very idealistic kind of fun...becos....her dog was bugging me all the time....you know what is jack(sabrina's self aclaimed cutest dog in the world) did...he hugged my lower leg and trusted trusted his pelvis(if there is such a bone for the dog) forward...and it looks like he is very attracted doing that to my leg...i tried to run..he chased me...i tried to scold..he ignored me..even his owner(miss sabrina koh) also did nthg...in the end...i have to give up the game and let michelle play....all thanks to JACK!!!!!!!!!....
yesterday was a seeing doctor day for me...haha..we went to the chinese physician again..cos i was coughing non-stop and my mum wants me to go and see a chinese doc....so i went..to probably the most expensive chinese clinic in town...tong ren tang...haha..and spend my mum $130+....which she was happily enuf to spend..of course...i went with my grams...haha...then went carrefour to buy things...so many things to eat...cos they having a food festival...wahahahaha.....had my tummy filled in no time..and i went to packed some home too...what a nice day for me...
as to y am i here now instead of school...hehe...my school starts 11 today...so i got plenty of time to waste and type my blog...okok..thats all for today..see ya....
p.s. my shoe has arrived and i am picking them up!!!>....oh and...i'm gonna do something naughty today...haha..bye....
hello...hmm...maybe i should tell you all something...my mentor is leaving the school already...he is going back to join the industry..some vaccine plant which will take the next 4 years to be completed......he is a nice guy...a typical gentleman..one that you noe will take care of his family very well one...haha....actually...i dun really know him that well....i mean although it has been one over year already...but i dun really know him as a person...i just know he is my mentor...and he is a good guy....tells me stuffs so that i can tell the class...meet up with us occasionally...but other than that...i really dun noe him that well...i dunno his teaching methods...because he has never ever taught us in any subject before....or neither did he gather us alot of times....haha...but anyway....i wish him all the best in wat ever that may come to him life la.....
as for me...this week in school...well...is just that..usual stuffs...nthg much to say also....our teachers keep telling us that we are the better class out of the whole cohord...haha..that we know...its so obvious...haha....anyway...marketing teacher said we had 1 failure in our class for marketing..i wonder who is it...pls..pls...the results are going to be out next week.....give me some good news...i really hope...
ok..thats all for today...see ya....
hello hello.....i'm back blogging again...hehe...i didn't blog the past 2 weeks becos i was sick for the first whole week and the second week was packed with test and i need to study.......
so eventually...we went to glad's and shirley's bday chalet...prior to that..some tension was created...but after all the alcohol....its alright already....i had no appetite the whole day...cos i was a little sick...bbqing for the whole bunch of ppl for 3 hrs worsen it...at the end of the day...i was having cough and sorethroat already....i'm really not good in drinking you noe...i think i only had about.....4 cups...and i went googy....haha....but eventually i was awake to fine out that glad and ved went tipsy....and i have to send them home....haha...they were very quiet ppl when we take taxi...but that night...they started toking rubbish to the taxi driver...and ved keep claiming that he is not drunk when he can't even walk straight....haiz...haha..nvm la...it was the fun day...but the next day..i still had to go back school...with a little hangover...and sick...i had to go to the doc 3 times to finally get well...i'm still having a little cough now
the past week was just tests and tests...then just studying and studying...cos i had to catch up for what i missed during the week i was sick....of all the papers...i think IM...Cell Tech...and HBD..is rather manageable....think can get good results...ABC and MBT...maybe not that good..but won't be that poor also la.....i better not give myself too much confidence...cos sometimes things really never turn out the way you think they should be......
its going to be 2 postings today...so read the next one ok......
today is an important day....one place that i remember the most in my childhood memories is going to be undergoing renovation...but after that...its not going to be what it really was in my memory....that place is chinatown complex....my grandma used to bring me there and do marketing when i was young and we were all staying in a shophouse in chinatown....then my grandma will hire a trishaw and bring me home....those were the days...when i don't need to worry abt anything in the future..and just enjoy the love from everyone...i was the first grandchild in the whole family..so i'm showered with love....chinatown is the place i grew up in...the place where me and my grandma bonded the most....and the place where my childhood was with no worries....but now its fading away......in my memories...maybe its becos i grew up...or maybe becos the place wasn't what it was supposed to be then already....
my life was very simple then...going to my nursery...going home...eating my favourite food...enjoying the afternoon walk with me and grandma in raffles place...its was so easy and sweet then....i remembered that during the first day of my nursery day...i practically hugged my grandma's leg like a koala bear...not wanting to let go...cos its a place i have never gone before...but eventually i still went in...then there was once when i went raffles place with my grandma for the afternoon walk...and i wanted to go to the loo...my grandma had to carry me all the way back to nankin street where our old house was....its so funny yet so memoriable to think abt them...
i wasn't a person that favour the renovation projects in chinatown...chinatown wasn't suppose to be that modern....it loses all the rustic touch already....ya..it might not be very hygenic...but we can all just clean the area up and be responsible....anyway..they'll be moving to the outram park temporary market la...so i still can have my favourite food there....
you noe y i always like to tok abt the past times..the old times..when i was younger...thats because its already in the past..and very likely...they'll never come back anymore..so..i like to tok abt them...so that they will never fade away in my memory...and i can bring them to my grave till the last day of my life..........the another reason is...the past is the past...and its always the best...becos it had already happened...not like the future...so uncertain...right???
ok..thats all for the 2 posts....remember to read my 1st post just now ok??????
tata
ok...if you see my msn nick...you'll see that i have changed my nick...into a brand new me...yaya...thats what i am going to do...i'm going to be a brand new me....
may all the mistakes vanish and begin a whole new me in a whole new world of mine...things that were good in the past of my life...i shall keep...those ugly...naughty...bad things will all stay in the past...and yes....i meant it...i really do...
thats all see ya....
p.s. sorry...sorry to my old self for being so naughty...but its no longer there now...really!!
happy bday to glad btw.....hehe
i know...its maybe too young for me to write something like this...but i'll just get it down anyway...who noes...my blog may still be here when i'm old and feeble......
i've just watch the final episode of charmed...and i think i want to follow them...write a short memoir in the book of shadows on their lifes....i dun have a book of shadows but i surely have a blog...so here it goes....
a legacy to continue....
i maybe a young person...in fact so young that i'm not even married(if i ever do) and have kids...but throughout that 18 years of my life...i've learnt lots of lessons...there were happy moments...and of course sad moments....but if anyone will ever want my advice and read it...my legacy that i want my future generations to have is two things....courage and optimism...because with these two things...even the darkest moments of the lifes will be enjoyable for anyone to life in...really...i want this to be a lesson to ppl....courage is not something that you are born with it...its something that you'll acquire through the course of life...and the reason i want them to have it...is to make sure that they'll have the responsibilities and tasks that they will have so that they will all become good man and woman.....one that is daring to risk and learn from their mistakes
optimisim is because i need my generations to come to know that even in the darkest time of their life...there will always be a light that will shed upon them...and with that light...they'll find hope...in hope...they'll be able to suvive down and continue forward....
but if there are mistakes in my life that i dun want them to learnt is sensitivity........yes...being sensitive and consider other ppl before yourself is good...but too much of that...makes you think too much...in turn...the ones who suffer is your ownself....learn from me...i've got plenty of experience.....
well...for a young person like me...i'll end my legacy here....until i have more to cover when i get older.....
okok...its a little irregular but i'm gonna make my second post of the week here...some reflections again..cos..i think i'll forget it by the time i come to next week.....
remember the last reflection post i wrote something abt me not falling in love....ya..i really think so too....i dunno...i have been trying to find a kind of food to describe my inner self....and i guess i found it...its cabbage...really...layers and layers before coming to the very centre of it all...ya..i guess...i have been building fortress over fortress....to protect myself...its kinda stupid and ironic sometimes...i give my good friends advice on love...yet myself...such a disappointment in it...haha....ever since i'm a small kid...i dun really have much self-esteem...so i have to find different ways to protect myself...and i really managed it out...protecting myself so securely such that nthg can come in..and nthg can go out....i may be very friendly....helpful...fun...sociable and capable....but when it comes to that inner blank..oh god...i'm as good as nthg...haiz.....
but nvm la...i still have lots of things ma...a family at the very least....and very good relationship with them....last week..i was watching this news on tv....oh god...this mum left the child with the nanny...and never came back...and that poor child...was alone then...and so unsociable....how irresponsible...i mean...if you cannot cope with a new kid...with whatever reasons...then dun let them be born to this world...they have not offended anyone nor commit any mistakes to suffer in this kind of world....haven't those ppl heard the song...天下的妈妈都是一样的....a child without love from the family is the poorest thing in the world.....it all boils down to the word....responsibility....really...a moment of foolishness may cause you to make a grave mistake...but still..running is definitely not the way....you should stick to what you pick..and make the best out of it....even i can understand...y can't those parents understand that....
ya...thats all for now...see ya again...tataz
