wishlist..updated may 2nd...hahaha

goodness gracious...as somethings in my wishlist materialised.....things are quickly filling up the empty slots....hahaha....

1. Coach tote bag....for MEN!!
2. Sunglasses.......
3. New accessories......chain...rings....bangles....
4. Shoes...loafers!!
5. Cash...lots of cash...hahaha

p.s. coach things are so much more expensive here in sg than the states...hahaha...who is going states??...tell me...i wanna buy coach!!

long needed post....hahahahaa

alrite...and so....its been 1 month since i last updated my blog....and i think i should make it a point to clean up the cob webs....hahahaa...basically....i'm bored to death tonite.....

ok...lets start with something...work related(or rather camp related).....hmm...i've been in GB for 5 months already....whooo....1 more month to half a year there and 2 more for my 1 year soldier mark...which also reminds me that i must have some form of celebration with everyone i know...hahaha.......and slowly....i'm beginning to settle into the whole tempo already...oh wells....i think thats the only thing that can happen...isn't it??...but i'm kinda at peace with the status now....at least i'm not getting into any trouble...and it'd better stay this way.....

as for my personal relationships.....yes yes...i'm very happy to report to everyone that.....I'M STILL SINGLE!!!!....so...dun bug me anymore if i'm finally attached or not.....cos i dun really meet anyone in camp.....

my friendships however...needs some strengthening....and so....i might want to plan for a chalet....so that...i can invite everyone everyone.....and they can all come and see me....woohooo....that would so save me the trouble going around and meeting ppl all over sg....hahaha.......

now....my shopping urges....hehehehee....i have yet to get all the things i want to get...cos...i haven't really slimmed down yet....my wt is like constant for the last 3 months...although my uniform does seems tighteer.......hehehehee......

down...sick....haiz....

oh wells....just when i thot i have evaded the cycle of falling sick every 3 months....haha....it hit me again...so...yeah...i fell sick on a dismount day...and....i dun even have MC...haha...ok la..i did reject getting one.....

in anycase....it was a very sucky dismount today....erm...i think as compared to the last sucky dismount (when i got scolded by everyone on the mounting day)....this is much worse...cos..this time...it was someone within us that doubt me....which i seriously think that the intention that is more humiliating than saying it out....especially when after some childish ppl got into childish fights...and decided that...ok...now to confuse everyone else...and to make everyone seem as childish and evil as he is...he shall pick on everyone else.....and..erm...well...lets start with terence....

i mean...if its really my fault...just say la....and pls...dun beat around the push...and for fuck sake....(yes...i'm using the word fuck).....dun confuse things la....and....the way you guys say it....especially...after the opening of doubting someone's integrity.....and then frame me up like that........its not fair to me at all lor...its really not........

if you think that it could be my fault, just tell me straight lor....pls dun beat around the bush..and wait for me to admit, becos...it has never occured to me that i might be the one who spoil it...i really didn't think its me.....and it really wouldn't hurt to mention it straight in front of my face and not go 1 big round......really u know.....that feeling sucks...becos u just got pushed to the execution table without knowing really if its you or not.....

and i'm beginning to think that this place is full....really really full of politics.....oh wells....you guys want to play politics...fine...i'll do that.....but beware....i'm no stranger to politics....i'll be the most scary bitch u guys have ever seen..........lets see who shall outwin who...!!!!!!!

p.s. its not a good day to fall sick....or should i say..its a blessing in disguise.....

hmmm....just some random things....

wow...this is like....a long long needed post...haha...its been into my 3rd month here in GB already...things are slowly getting used to already....until the big thing known as ORD happened to my section mates....

so...kenneth and john both ORD liao....which is like...yeah..finally..their hard earned freedom!!!...very happy for them...though at the same time...i'm just pondering how long will mine take...hmm..in abt another 1 year and 4 months...haha...but at least there's a date to end it all...i must think of a crazy thing to do for my ORD...haha......something very crazy...like standing at the train track and shout ORD to the whole world!!!!!

haha...anyways....good luck to those ppl who have left platoon 2...be it the ORD ppl...or those that are so lucky to get posted out....i'm still there....trying to change the things bit by bit...still dun understand why are the ppl there so gloomy....but oh wells....its time to infuse some positive vibe there...haha....

alrites...its pretty short...but yeah..thats all!!!....see ya....

p.s. i finally get a clean cupboard to myself after all these weeks here!!!

my personal want list...

ok...so..to make my every month work go and feel better...i've drawn up a personal want list...by which i'll get once i hit a certain target of months and savings...hahaha.....

they are...as according to the sequence...

1. white casing for my hp
2. a new brand of perfume...perhaps...narciso rodiguez
3. polos shirt...paul smith..then RL
4. sunglasses...this time..something ex..haha...prada perhaps??...
5. erm...new loafers??...
6. ehz...jeans...straight cut bottoms??
7. accessories...lots of them....

that ought to give all of you some ideas on gifts to buy for me...haha..rite??

looking back at my year....

today is the very first day of 2009...by right i should write abt my reflections yesterday on the very last day of the year...but i thot....its nice to have a new beginning by looking back on how life was to me....

2008 wasn't the best year i had in my entire 20 years on earth..but i would say..its the year i had the most changed....

physically...i finally came down on my weight and i feel so much fresher and better looking.....

mentally....i gone into NS...where every boys become men....although i might have gone thru that stage before i entered NS...but it had certainly made me more independant....

spiritually....i feel that somehow...i got a new life...a new start weighting to begin...but perhaps that will be sometime after my NS...haha....

so...i would say...life has been good to me for 2008 like the many years before....in anycase....i'm ending off.....with a wish...that everyone i love and i care abt....yes yes...u reading this...will have a wonderful 2009 ahead!!!!!!!

is honesty always the best policy???

hmmm...this is a question that i have been pondering all day.....lets hope one day i'll find the answer....

meanwhile.....i just pray that my honesty will bring me something good in the end....good begets good...rite???

the moral of the story is....take, suck & go.....

ok...5.22 a.m. in the morning...and i still have sometime before i get ready to leave back to camp so that i can move to my new working (permanent) jobsite for the next 1 years and 7 months(guelling 19 months).......

was rather anxious abt getting the posting order yesterday.....and when i got it....the first thing that came into my mine was..."ok...within the 2 that i anticipated".....hmmm....shift work is going to be a little weird now....that i dun really have my full weekends.....still...i want to work out something with my new place...and see if i have save up my off days...haha..then take them like...3 days in a row...haha.....but in anycase...i'll be working in weekends as well...haiz...looks like i have to get used to it already.....

wonder how will it be like for the first few days...good thing is that most ppl in my bunk are also going there...so at least i have some familiar faces over there.....not like tekong and training school all over again....when you know no one except yourself....haha....

ok..i should get going and get ready to leave my house already...tataz...

p.s. hopefully..its going to be easy for me to adapt....

i'm bored...so...here i am....

its been almost a month since i last entered a post.....wow....that was how lazy i am to write up a post here...haha...not that anyone really reads it...everyone and anyone seems so busy now...haiz....

in anycase, my life have been more or less the same so far. nothing special came about, still the same old same old except for the fact that i'm going to get POP again and get into another sub-unit which i hope its going to be a good one, cos i really look forward to a 8-5 kind of job so that at least i dun need to face up with all the regimentation and discipine plus all that crap.....

tok abt that, which brings me to the point of some people that i've met in camp.....trust me, its much worse than what i have back in tekong, this time, i seemingly dislike some of my superiors more over here....especially 'THE TRIO'...gosh.....how i describe them....hmmm..one of them is still ok..at least he does things with a reason(although that doesn't rule out the fact that i dun like him)....the other guy...is just someone whose barks are more painful than bites....and one final one....whom....i seriously doubt his function in the organisation....

in anycase..this guy.....is erm......let's see...where do i begin...has limited vocabulary as he only uses the F*** word to scold ppl.....no brains.....lack manners....behave like a gangster more than a soldier......low EQ (not to say IQ)....and oh...have i also mentioned that he likes to pick on stuffs?????........yeap...in short....let me just say that my stay in that training school will be a much better without the presence of some ppl around...then again....the world will be so much more perfect without this ppl too.......i hope i'm not going too overboard...cos this was exactly the same kind of feeling he made me feel that he is such a person.....

well...now after the venting of anger...my feel slightly better to go back camp later and get started on my area-cleaning...just in case someone wants to pick up some other faults again......

end of the year is around the corner again...haiz...normally....i would be very very happy as its time to reflect on what i have done over the past year...and plan for what i want to achieve in the next....but seriously...this time round....not particuarly interested at all....cos...i'm in NS...like...2 years void from my life....hahaha...so...who cares to plan or reflect over a voided period of your life??....rite??......hahahahaha...yeap......

ok..thats all for today...i hope i didn't infuriate too many ppl over this post....hehehe

how i've spend my 20th bday.....

well..i've spend my 20th year living on this planet in the most peaceful way compared to wat there is in the past few years.....not much presents....no parties and celebrations...just a simple meal with my family with a price tag that i didn't need to pay for....hahahaha.....

hmmm...this year is a shifting year for me....went from studying as an occupation into becoming a NS man...haha..from using my brains to work for me....to using my muscles to work for me...hahaha....have i also mentioned that after so many many years of crying and screaming to slim down...i finally did it...hahaha....14kg to date......wow....this year...shifting year....hahahaha....i guess what was hardest for me is adapting...hmm...maybe its something everyone have to go thru...and it relaly put my self-proclaimed independence character to the test...and oh wells....haha.....

for my bday wish...nthg much actually....just hope that my family and i can have a fun and healthy time ahead of us for as long as i want it to be....and for everything to fall out in place eventually.....and of course...for my 3 secret goals to come true....hahaha...of cos...one of them...involves a particular date....hahahaha.....some ppl will know what i toking abt....hehehe....

p.s. to those who have wished me a happy bday....and if i never get to reply you....thank you so much!!!!

my 'want'...'wish'...and 'need' list...hahahaha

my needs:

1. 1 decent belt*
2. a few standard pair of raw jeans or 1 tone pants*
3. some polos......or shirts*
4. good reads
5. MONEY!!!!!!!!!

***haha...these are needed...becos of some stupid rules on wat ppl should wear....argh....stupid ppl and their stupid rules.....hahaha...then again...think of who i am in the first place...haha.....

my wishes:

1. Get thru my training and go to a lovely 8-5 posting!!!!
2. Erm....get my bday wish to come true...haha...its for me to know but for you to find out....
3. Get my 3 'the secret' goals reached.....
4. Attain a body that makes me look healthy and fit...by....erm...say....next CNY??? (haha..for the shopping spree ma)

my want:

1. Get some nice outfits and purge my wardrobe...god...i got so many things to get and altered...
2. get another bank account.....and have my credit card...haha..at least i can attain some financial freedom from my mum's clutches........
3. nice pair of loafers...and one other shoe...
4. no outfit is complete without the accessories....
5. erm...my white leather case wallet and its full set of items...hahah
6. for all my needs...wants...and wishes to come materialise......

YES YES....i can feel them....all coming...and i feel goood abt them....yes................here they come!!

as promise...some b4 and after shots...hahaha

POP lo.....hahaha.....call me PVT Chui.....

yeah...POP lo....hahahaha...thats been the word that i have been wanting to say and meant if for weeks....but guess what...i made it thru...and so....naturally....5 hours ago...i can shout it out loud for the whole world....or at least the whole tekong to hear....hahahahaha.....

and so...finally got my 11 days of block leave....and yes....said goodbye to 1 impt phase of my life...to another phase in NS...thats called unit life...let's hope it'll be good for me...and i get to get something out of it...hahaha..

okok...i've got to go....but...i'll upload some photos in the next post...hahaha...tataz...

1 more week to 11 days of freedom....yes!!!!

ok..if you happen to drop by for the past few days...you'll notice that i took away some of the entries cos i was advised not to post anything abt my BMT training...hahaha...and so i took them away....

and yes....just to give an update on how i look...hahaha...i'm still botak....and i'm just less that 5 kg to my perfect weight....and then i can start training up my shape (or muscles)...hahaha..if things goes well...by CNY next week...i'll be a totally different guy (from the outside of cos)....hahahaha....have i also mentioned that...i'm just 1 more week to my pop....to be exact....in 10 days time...then i'll have my 11 days of block leave...can't wait to enjoy that 11 days of freedom as a civilian and doing things that i've been craving to do....like going shopping on a weekday....watching afternoon shows....just lying and doing nthg...and of cos...meeting up with all of my friends...whom i haven't got a chance to meet for the past 15 weeks......hahaha......

in anycase....for the past few weeks...i've come across several interesting ppl...and boy...its been a long time since i've got this chance to meet ppl that i dun wanna include in my social circle in such a short period...hahaha..the last time this happen was 4 -5 yrs ago in sec school...but then...i was much more bitchy than now...haha...not to say i'm not one now la....hehehe.....

in anycase...these days...i've came upon some very interested ppl....some good...some not that good...and some...let's just say..i prefer them to stay out of my social circle....hahahaha...ask me abt them next time...i'll fill you in every single dirty details...hahahaha....

ookok...thats all...i'll fill you in more details when i POP...hahaa...tataz....

p.s. one day...i really want to tell this guy this: 'Confidence and arrogance will be your greatest downfall leading your man'.......hahaha...

qns: how sweet is home??

hi ppl....well....i'm here to update again.....actually..there's nthg much i can blog abt over here since i'm mostly bounded by so many other things...haha....

in anycase...my weight is getting down...yes!!!...haha..or the first time..in like 4 years...my weight finally dropped...and by that i dun mean by faking the figures or using some underhand means(note: not that i have done that in the past anyway).....hahaha....yeah...my fitness is picking up...but still..there's alot more to work on..or one thing....my muscle power...whoosh...its really really weak...hahaa....thats what happens when 1 gets too dependent on the brain....hahahaha.....

also...i really look forward to go home now....its like...i finally understand the meaning of home-sweet-home....haha....i really started to cherish this time more...and really..understanding how hard it is to really depend on yourself for most things....which i am very very grateful for my family to be able to provide for me.....

yeah...basically..thats all i have...cos..the rest...aren't really that good to be publicised out..so...hahaha...if you really wanna know..come to me!!!

tataz....

p.s. ans: its so sweet...its almost diabetic....

my first 2 weeks in BMT....or rather...my first 2 weeks of 2 years in army....

ok...hi everyone...i'm back after 2 weeks of enforced isolation on the island of Pulau Tekong for my BMT training....hahaha...and so...here i am blogging abt some interesting things that i have come across over there for the past 2 weeks....

disclaimer: i was told to practice discretion on what i blog and therefore...dun expect too much juicy details.....

oh wells...the first few days of fitting into communal life was abit not so easy...especially having to leave home and spend it with 12 other different man living in the same bunk....so when i called home the first few nites...things got a little emotional for me...but things got better after the initial phase...and i began to adapt to the communal living part of life la....hahaha....

then the training started really gradually...and so..its not that difficult as i thot it would be for me..and so...really...again...glad is rite...i'm just worrying too much......its not that difficult to get used to the military lifestyle of having to greet everyone higher ranking than me and having to march here and there....haha..cos 4 years in RC has erm....kinda equipped me for that....and so....the footdrills are really i should say...chicken feet for me la...haha...

other than that, the food there was alright too....and yes...despite all the food i have in there...i did manage to slim down...haha..not alot...but at least i did slim down..so...its an accomplishment for me already...considering the fact that its just 2 weeks in BMT.....hahahaha.....

basically....thats all la...nthg much..since most of my life in BMT now is devoted to slimming down....haha...so..there's really nthg much to blog abt la....haha...like i promised...no juicy gossips for anyone at all...i suppose??....hahaha...

okok..thats all...till i blog again.....ciao!!!

p.s. life is so precious and so fragile...therefore...cherish it...every single minute of it!!

ok....3 months of holidays now comes to an end...

oh wells...i guess by now...everyone will know that i am going into NS tomorrow....and first stop in NS....is tekkong island for BMT....15 wks in all...and by the time i come out..i would have already missed most of my friends' bday....

these few days...everyone has been telling me abt NS...the bad and the not so bad side...i guess...all i need is time to adapt...time to tune myself into the clock of military life....and fit myself into that lifestyle...upon doing that...i guess..i would be fine with alot of things already.....

i seriously dunno what to say abt going into NS...i'm not excited...not too sad...not too anxious...and not too depressed.....just...no feeling....you know...sometimes the calmness you feel before something big happens...thats those feeling....but like glad says.....eventually i still have to get in..unless i can change my sex into a girl...or become an cranky old man....NS...is one detour that i must take no matter what.....so....goodluck to me i guess......

ok.thats all for today's post...nthg too anti-govt or mindef i hope....hahahaha....the next post will be in 2 weeks time when i come out of my confinement period.....tataz.....wait for the juicy details....

p.s. like i told glad...if i can get thru NS....then i really really believe that...actually there aren't alot of things that are impossible for me.....haha

i've finally GRADUATED!!!!!

hihi...after 1 tormenting sleepless nite..and 1 hr of nerve wrecking nervousness....i've finally graduated from NYP....whoooshz......i can't believe it....haha....yesterday all the lecturers came asking me how i feel...my first reaction is....yes...I MADE IT!!!!!!.....hahaha...but too bad i didn't get to take pics with alot of lecturers and classmates though....manage with AK and Micheal...but the rest of the lecturers...oh wells..too bad la...haha..next time when i come and visit...i'll take....hahaha....then there's with muznah and heather...haha..as for the rest..they just...erm...disappeared....hahaha.......

my mum and grandma came for my grad...haha...when we entered the audi..my grandma is trying so damn hard just to try and find me.....hahaha...but i'm sitted at the front row and she keeep straining her eyes all the way to the last row...hahaha...but at least she manage to get a shot of me before i go up the stage and get my dip...haha....i kept imagining what might go wrong on the stage...falling down...tripping over...haha...or fainting???....haha..but it turn out ok la...hahaha...i hope my pic taken is nice though....i think i'm gonna but a pretty box like what i have for my sec school...then i'll put all the memoriable things abt poly into them....wah...10 or 20 years down the road...it'll be so fun to bring them out and see them again.....hahahaha

now that grad is over...my next big thing is enlistment...ppl keep trying to remind me its 2 wks time...and i keep trying to forget that....but oh wells...whats gotta come still gotta come....so lets just hope for the best la....hahaha....yup....

ok..thats all for now...seeya

p.s. my lovely honeys in MB0503...and MB....congrats...and the best of luck to wherever you might go.....

love,

your nanny always

i'm gonna kill myself if i turn out ugly tmr!!!

hihi...so....its nearly 3.30 a.m. in the middle of the night and here i am doing my blog post....argh..i wished i could be sleeping away on my bed rite now but unfortunately...it just seems like something is keeping me from sleeping....if i turn out ugly for tmr grad's ceremony...i'm am so so gonna kill myself...

so anyway....tmr is my big day.....3 years mounting and boiling down to just 1 day...1 moment...for me to officially graduate with my diploma in hand...oh wells.....very fast actually...everything seems so current..its like the feeling i have when i'm getting out of sec school...hahaha..i think i just went from my freshman orientation last month.....haha....and tmr...i'm finally graduating from NYP with a DIPLOMA IN MOLECULAR BIOTECHNOLOGY....phew....thank god i survived it.....

haha...alrite...i think thats it for now...

man v.s. nature....

ok...its very unusual for me to make 2 posts in a day...but oh wells...this post is just an immediate feeling i have.....over the past few days...i know of the different natural calamities over asia.....the cyclone in myanmar....the earthquake in china....and yes...i'm sure we have all heard of it...but when i saw a special report made for the earthquake just now...my nose felt sour...and i felt like crying.....(yes...my sentimental-selve is in control again)......

there is abt this news where a young school boy was stucked waist down rite under a pile of debris yesterday and there is no way for them to save the young boy by moving away the large slaps of concrete...a little mistake can cost that young boy his life...so the doctors made a painful but necessary decision...they decided to amputate the boy then and there....there goes a possible healthy life and disable free life of a children less than 10...this i'm sure...is not going to be the only child that would suffer from the same fate....the whole province of sichuan is so devasted that they actually called some parts of it totally demolished into piles and piles of debris......there are old grandmothers for the sake of trying to keep their grand kids alive...digging under the debris to find bits and pieces of food to feed them......local hospitals are also resduced to dirts and dust and ppl have to lie down on the ground to await medical help.....newborns were delivered rite then and there in the and placed on the dirty floor......

hell...would be the word or perhaps even an underestimation to describe the sight.....

ppl say in times of death....the very true fundamentals of love can be seen.....there's a couple who used their own bodies to block a wall slamming down just so that their precious daughter can be saved and by then....exchanging their lifes for that of their daughter right in the face of death....

we human beings always try out very best to be in the top of the world...to rule over all other species and even our own kind...but in the face of mother nature....we are just spawns......i can't help but wonder....how many people's life would be changed right from then.....perhaps...in sichuan....their lives would never be the same again.....

p.s. life is so precious...yet so fragile... and while you still have one...cherish it.....