hello...my holiday feels so great but empty...haha

my 6 weeks of holidays started this week...somehow..i felt a sense of emptiness in me..haha..i think its becos all these months..i have been busy with my school work..projects, reports, test then exams..life is school was stressful and occupied...but now..i've cleared all my work...its like i've got so much time now..no needing to worry abt what projects..what reports..what exams...so..i guess...i'll use this time to let myself settle down and recharge...

anyway...i had a very intesting conversation abt the tremor on tuesday with lydia

lydia: did you feel the tremor?
me: i didn't feel anything..i was having lunch at that time..its shook alot???
lydia: ya..i can feel it so strongly
me: i was too engross eating...can't feel anything perhaps...
lydia: haha
me: oh dear...if there is a real earthquake..i should be dead by now..can't feel anything when i'm eating....

haha...that was my thots then...hehe...funny rite...

ok..now for some reflections...you see during my school days..i was very busy...so i made use of the time in the holidays to watch streaming in videos of the movies i missed...the first was devils wears prada....the reason i like this movie was not only becos of meryl streep, also the story line...she really can act i must say....she is the only one that can par with helen mirren in the oscars for best actress....but her dressing for the academy awards was a little...way out....hehe...

the story line is good as well...i like the way they portray the different aspects and walks of life with different goals..what else better to show that than the ever changing world of fashion....there is no really right or wrong to the choices...its more like the different routes that ppl take in life...miranda choose the high life..the glamourous side...andrea choose the simple side of life...but i guess its all depends on the individual and what they really want...for miranda..she choose her career and the high end of life...but she lose her husbands and a perfect family....andrea choose the simple journalist...but ended up having alot more than she thot..which will you choose???...haha..i guess...i'll take the in between..its much better that way isn't it...you'll get the best of both worlds..haha..typical libra i must say...

the other movie is the mistress of spices..i must say..not alot of ppl around me mention abt this movie..but i must say..its really good...just like pride and prejudice...its is by the same female lead afterall...the world's most beautiful woman...i must say...her eyes are really beautiful...and her facial features gave you a feeling of the east mixing the west..very sophiscated...and beautiful...the story is nice...a little about the current world of the tradition clashing with modern world...and a little magic...so...its really made it very nicely...very well done i must say...of course...for her...she got the best of both at the end of the story...she manage to keep her roots...and accepted a new life at the contemporary world...but for the others...is it that easy...????

singapore is a country that has been a melting pot of the east and the west cultures...but how much of the roots do we singaporeans really have...singapore to start off with is a young country...all of our roots came from our ancestors that travelled from other parts of the world...and settled here....youngsters nowadays...how much do they know about their own traditions....i guess...not alot...except that angbaos for CNY...mooncake for mooncake festival...etc...but do they really know their roots...sometimes..i think malays and indians are much better at keeping the traditions than us chinese....most of my classmates dun really know their roots...i mean..in some ways...we are forgetting the legacies that our ancestors left behind...the beautiful words and poems...all those...i guess its pathetic...no offence to my classmates...i think on the whole..this is wat that is happening to singaporeans especially the young ones....we are a young country still waiting to develop our own kind of culture and bring it to the mature state....so alot of the time..we rely on our parents or grandparents to impart the culture of the old times to us....but i guess...alot of of those things simply went down the drain under the effects of the modern trends....i guess...its time to do something...but still..who am i to say all these....i guess...i'm a little better off at this than alot of ppl of my age group...

ok..thats all for today...tataz..

p.s. i guess...youngsters now only have the problem of the keeping the traditions...but also facing the future world...the current affairs of the world...haiz...i'll tok abt this again....

exams...exams...

i find that somehow after my O levels...my ability to memorise thing fall dramatically...i think...i'm getting old...haha....really...i use to memorise bio and social studies like nobody's business without really studying...but now...i have to really make that conscious effort to memorise them now...haiz...

my papers...overall..was good...med micro and immuno wasn't that bad after all...i think i should be able to get B+ for the both of them...vanaja..is like the 2nd shailu and even better...haha...her question on bird flu was the easiest...how i wish all my lecuturers are like vanaja when they set questions..and micheal when they give tips...haha...so....let me continue...bioproccess and protein tech...it was stressful...i didn't finish my graph for bioprocess....no time to do them...mr ong!!! if you are reading my blog...pls moderate ok???....i dun ask much....a B will do!!!!!....haha...protein tech...B should not be a problem....

mol gen was tiring...by the time i came to the last page...my hands weren't mine anymore...but overall it was manageable..as usual...dr.chan's part save me...haha..just like MBT..so...B+ for mol gen as well i suppose...as for marketing...A should not be a problem....but pls pls...i really need that grades...oh god...i so so regret not putting effort during my yr 1...now my GPA is so sad...haiz....

ok...shan't tok so much abt my papers already...haha...later lecturers see my blog again...hehe...

tataz....

p.s. to all my classmates...all the best for the results coming out on the 21st!!!!

read my post below as well!!!!

yesh...the worst sem is over!!!!!!!

hello ppl...how have you been...oh god...i haven't been blogging for 2 weeks...thats becos of my exams....but b4 i tok abt my exam...let me blog about my new year sales...haha..if that is what you ppl call it...surprisingly..i have roughly...$400 worth of angbao..and still counting...i may have another auntie coming to my place today to give me an angbao...and my godfather...very pai seh to take from him...cos his business not very good....then not alot of money also..so...dunno whether i should take the angbao from him or not....

anyway...we went to mdm koh's(in case you are wondering...my sec 4 form teacher) place yesterday..and miss phua's(my physics teacher) place last week..oh my god...so long never see the 2 teachers already...guess what..miss phua's boy has really grown up...last year when i saw him...he barely know a few words...now...he is so talkative...haha...its nice to see children grow up day by day....i also found out that lots and lots of things have changed in school....haiz...so sad rite...its no longer that 2nd home i use to call when i'm in seconday school....but we had a fun day with miss phua..chit chatting and gossiping...too bad..only me..josephine...eileen and junrong went....after that junrong ps us..and the three of us when to orchard...it was a stupid idea to do that when its like the chingay day....i can barely squeeze through the crowd...the good thing is...the shops and resturants are all empty...but the crowd was just bad...the next time...unless i have a ticket to watch the show...i'll never go orchard again.....the food at vilage was good nevetheless....

yesterday..omg...i was soaked half of my upper body..and all of my lower body...actually..i need not be wet at all actually...its all becos of yiwen...he did not bring any umbrella.. and i have to go and save him....its was like a hurricane hit parkway parade yesterday...worse..i have to carry a pathetic bright pink umbrella that jo brought..the frontal part was dry when i found that the rain has just brough the rain to my back...jo's umbreall was swinging with the wind as well..instead of singing in the rain...i was swinging in the rain..my shoes were all wet becos...we choose to seek for lower ground when we enter parkway...guess what...it flooded!!!!!...wth...my shoes were like wet...its like you just threw them into a bucket of water..that kind of wet!!!....anyway..me and jo met earlier b4 that when the sun was still out...we went to a recommendation that miss phua gave us...oh..that jap resturant is really good...she was rite!!!...then i went to fix my phone...haiz...1 more week b4 can collect it...when we reach mdm koh's place..it was like 1.15 hr after our planned time...becos...the queue for the taxi was like so long...haha...but me and glad plus jo...enjoyed pissing yiwen off...sorry hor...haha...

ved met us at mdm koh's void deck..we went up together..chatted with mdm koh...waiting for junrong...and then...when across the expressway to kenny rogers for dinner..it was good...the ribs was nice..the side dish and the chicken..wasn't really as good as it seems....then i took a bus with yiwen and junrong home....

ok..my next post is on exam...be sure to read!!!.....

p.s. all the best to eileen for her found freedom!!!!!

i've got so many things i want to blog...

ok...in view of the exams coming...i have decided to blog in advance for the next few weeks to come...since i am also here waiting for my movie to be loaded...in any case...i feel like blogging like what a free lance journalist does...haha..i know...i'm not to that level yet...but still i want to blog abt things that happens around me..so hold tight..this is going to be a long post...

first...the CNY..well..this year...my business in collecting ang bao seems to have shrinked...by 20% or so...the reason??...haha...beats me too..maybe this time round....i did not go to the some of my uncle's and auntie's place where $50 is the minimum they give...haha..no la..just joking...but this year's new year...is rather...i should say...less festive...maybe its becos of my mood...i do feel that having the CNY before the sem exams for the worst sem ever...is a little to torturing....hopefully...i'll do well for my exams this time....

CNY in my family is a big matter..year in year out...many ppl come and go...my grandma has to prepare loads and loads of food to keep us these pigs happy and contented...haha...my grandma..i love her to tiny tiny bits...my life will be so different without her..sometimes..i feel that she is my mother..and my mummy is more like my best friend...perhaps its becos i was being brought up under my grandma's tender loving care ever since the day i'm born...cos my mum's a workaholic...haha...materialistically...my parents has gave me what i needed and wanted...so...i have no complains...but my emotional and spiritual upbringing..its all from my grandma...sometimes..i feel that she is more fashionable than i am...she even criticise my fashion sense every now and then...haha...her perseverance and elegance..is what i want to learn...she is a very competitive person...perhaps thats where i inherit my competence from....i always tell ppl...if she is given proper education at her time...she will be some big boss now...haha...

i admit...i'm a competitive lazy bone...when i want to get things done...trust me...that thing gets done in no time...and i'll do an outstanding job...but when i dun have the mood...nthg can get me going...i like to compare and compete with my friends..sometimes i lose...other times...i win...when i was in primary school..the lazy side of mine takes charge most of the times...so..i'm not really good...but when i enter upper secondary..suddenly...my grades shot up...and i can almost get the top in class like breeze without any problems....its either my intelligence grew in that short period of time..or my classmates went stupid overnight..haha...but when i went into poly...things starts to change...i'm no longer the best in the class...maybe its becos i have been too boastrous b4...such that...i didn't really put in effort...so my chem flunked..as a result...my yr 1 did not do very well..when i finally woke up in my 2nd year...i did fairly well..but i found out that its all too late...my yr 1 has pulled my grades so down that its really difficult to bring it back up again...haiz...so this time..i'm really working hard to do well....

ok..thats all for today..see you again...after my exams that is...

p.s. HAPPY CNY!!!!

my post was gone....argh

i actually have a post when it was unable to publish and i lost everything...so here is the summarise form....

1. I bumped into jas yesterday at NTUC...we were smsing each other at that time..haha..so funny...feeling like meeting all my darlings now..i miss them!!!!

2. my dad is back...

3. i'm going off..tataz...

haha...

Valentine's Day..Chinese New Year greetings all at once...haha

when it come to blogging during the special dates...i'm always that slow..haha..today is like the 16th of feb when i only here wishing everyone a happy vday...opps...its late..but its also better than never rite????....

after my last day of lesson this week...i acc sabrina to buy presents for 2 person...one for her bf..and one for...erm...shan't tell you...haha...sab's bf valentine's day present was so difficult to find...this one cannot..that one gave already..walked here and there....i swear that i have at least walked thru citilink mall for 3 times....omg...that sab..still dunno what to buy...haha...blur lehz...in the end...i gave a very cranky idea..cos i want to go home already..ask her to buy underwear for his bf...she was giving me that disgusted look....i quote: "yeee...dun want la..so kinky"...i went like...its kinky..but fun and thoughtful...you gave him something that only he can see...and no one else could...haha...even wearing the underwear he will still think of you...haha...then i gave some very kinky thoughts that i shan't post it here in case everyone vomits...haha...

then the funny thing was we finally entered the CK undergarment shop..the first thing she did was start to criticise about the designs...haha...she ended up wanting to choose the boxers which only left with waist of 38 and 40 inches when is bf waist is only 30 inches...haha..she was like never mind la...just buy one...its for sleeping also...me and the shop keeper was like...it minds alot lor...its just like you are a B cup when you buy a bra for a D cup...haha..that was my analogy...she replied "for sleeping only ma...big never mind la...er..more comfortable"....immediately....i said...ya..he'll feel comfortable alright...but he will find out the next morning that he went without boxers and slept naked the whole night thru becos it slipped off...haha...so..we left the shop empty handed....i think she is just embarassed in the undergarment shop...haha

the final present she picked...was a topman gift card...haha...that was the first shop we went when we reach marina...she should have sticked to her first choice...

as for the past few days..well..i was busy preparing for new year...and a little for the exams...y must the exam come at this time...i got no time to study at all lor..argh..now i have to burn the midnight oil already..see la..every fun ar....ok...thats all for today..see ya...

p.s. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE OUT THERE....hehe..this time..i'm early!!!!

first time i blog in school...haha

as of 5.05 p.m. 1st feb 2007...i have finish all project presentations...so whats left now is just the handing up of some final reports....yeah!!!!...OMG...this week was like the most pathetic week of mine for the whole 2 years i hav been in NYP....i have never tried packing lunch and doing work every for 4 consecutive days...can you imagine that...

dr.chan asked us during mol gen tut yesterday which was the heaviest module..i think its immuno...OMG..eveything from the start till the end is being tested...actually...every module in this sem is heavy..its just which is more difficult..and which one is more interesting from each other...like some modules that starts with the letter B....its so boring..and totally unrelated...i swear i'll never venture into that when i grow up...haha

hmm...my mum and grandma gave me the utimate warning to cut my hair...if i dun do so...i think they'll really burn my hair...hehe...and oh...the end of projects...means the start of shopping trips....

miss chan gave us all one free pack to thank us for helping out in open house....so sweet...we should buy something for her in return...hehe...

ok..thats all for today...tataz

p.s. whats with the blog thing with the lecturers ar????

busy..busy..busy..but i dunno wat i'm busy with...

hi there...open house..haha...thats the first thing i am blogging on..i was there all 3 full days...can you believe it...i'm the overseer (if that is such a word)...for the crowd control on my school side...wow...the mornings of the first 2 days was so quiet...the afternoon is like CNY at chinatown..so many ppl....the students from secondary schools plus the O level graduates...so many ppl...but thank god...all my classmates helped out...so i'm not that dead beat tired...oh the t-shirt...super big sized....aiyo..all the girls..especially...sab looks like they are wearing pj...haha...didn't take alot of photos...i think of all..i only took 1 photo...must go and look for who's camera is my photo in...haha...gossiped with alot the lectures and the ppl from other class as well as those from my class...haha...very nice...hmm..i dun mind having this like every half- a year...haha...

my projects are clearing already..but i'm still stucked with 4 of them....but...after this coming week...we'll be all done...yeah...then i'll have time to go shopping already..hehe

ok..thats all for today..see ya...

p.s. thanks for all my classmates who helped out...dan..sab...heather..muzzie..fiona...jiawen..lydia...aloy..zhong..bao..wilson...
alec...geraldine..elizabeth...yu fang...hui ling..and the list goes on and on and on.....

she's gone..haha...if you know what i meant...

hi there....its time for my weekly post...wow..this week...its a tiring week for me...settle the open house things for next week....get my med micro project done..and keeping her away from me(if you get what i meant)...haha...med micro proj...haiz..very disappointing...especially when a question came from the floor..and ppl dun really know the answer...and suddenly the whole class is waiting for me to give the ans....so..i gave an answer that ppl can't really find fault with me...i think i fooled vanaja over as well...thank god i'm rather quick witted...or we'll be finished....

was sick on thurs...went to to the doctor..and got their strongest medicine they have...haha..went i left the clinic...felt giddy..and decided not to go school anymore...initially i was planning to go to school after i'm done seeing the doctor...but eventually..went home to rest...cos i want to make sure that i'll be able to do the presentation on the following day...and after losing sleep becos of my blocked nose and my cough the previous nite...i decided to go home a rest....

went chinatown for porridge today..argh so many ppl..no place...haha...and i threw all my tantrums at my sis and my grandma...so sorry..didn't meant to do that...sorry hor...hehe..anyway...after that went PS...went daizo...wanted to look for the bag that heather had for her lap top...in the end i can't find...so went off home..did a facial mask..and took a long nap and woke up an hour ago...woohoo..so refreshing...so nice...but tmr i'll be stuck at home the whole day to do my work for projects...3 more to go..and then i'm all done...haha..yes...then i'll have time to go shopping...haven't got time to do any of my CNY shopping yet...haiz...after i get my projects done...i'll have 2 weeks to do that...

ok..thats all for today..seeya...

p.s....no post script today..haha

it has been raining non-stop..

i'm going to bed...but b4 i do that...i just want to blog my post for the week....

well..this week is school....is tiring....i've got lessons until 9 at night with a lecturer who speaks to fast as though as he is trying to outspeak a plane...haha..if you can get what i meant....anyway...other than that...projects deadlines are mostly due in 2 weeks time...some are half-done..some are still at the planning stage...it looks like my weekends are going to go to my projects already....

sometimes...i get really sick of doing work..and i dun feel like touching or even thinking abt anything that has to do with my work...in fact..i have that feeling most of the time...i think i'm just pure lazy...haiz..what to do...i'm born like that...but the good thing is...i'm rather efficient..and i always get the job done on time..on spot..and seldom recieve complains...woops...i'm going overboard praising myself...haha....

ok..i'm sigining off...cos i'm getting sleepy..haha..tataz...

p.s. give her a broom..and she could fly like a witch...hahahaha...daniel is so right..!!!!

i am a relationship guru who has never been thru one at all...ironic rite!!!

hi ppl...first of all..i got my results back...depressing..a little surprise but expected...haha...well...for starters...my med micro is C+...i all along thot it shld at least get a b or something...my protein tech and bioprocess..two of which i have not much confidence in got B for me in the end...haha...marketing as usual got an A....my imunno and mol gen is B+...ok la..not that bad....bioinfo is C+...hehe...did not study for it..so not suprise to get low marks...hmm...with all these results...i think i'll need to buck up for the exams and the reports plus projects...some modules..i can definitely do better than what i have did now....take bioinfo and med micro...no worrys...i'll come after you two...i aim to at least get B and B+ for all my modules...at least A for immuno..mol gen and marketing..and i can do it..yes!!!!!!!...I CAN DO IT!!!!

went back to school today for a last minute mentoring meeting...aiyo...they all really dun have time management skills....not to say leading the crowd la...if its back those secondary school days...i would have hold the meeting myself already...no inefficient...then again...who am i to criticise them when i never really put in effort haha...but i gave them lots of constructive ideas that i have been evaluating abt for mentoring over this long period of time.....i shld have brought it up long time ago...but since they did not ask...i never say lor....hehe....

after that..went to amk's polyclinic to buy my meal replacements...bought half a month of supplies...shld be able to make it this time already la...hehe....then went to the bank to deposit some money...after that i went home...whipped up my own burger..bath and went to bed...hehe...didn't really sleep well...my sleeping position was wrong and i have back ache after that....went to repair my pair of nike shoes....then went for dinner..and here i am blogging already....

one of my friends that i have never met face to face asked me abt some love issues...haha...said i know relationship very well...but come to think of that...my love report is as blank as white paper...so i'm a fashion guru who don't have one at all...hehe....

ok..thats all for today...see you!!!

opps...i missed my new year post...

haha...its 4th of jan today..and now then i wishing you a HAPPY NEW YEAR...haha..was too lazy to come up here and blog during new year la...anyway..i spent my first day of 2007 and geraldine's place doing my mol gen poster...supposedly we can be going home at 4.30...but most of us went off only at 10 that nite...haha...have to reprint the stuffs for quite a long time...so no choice have to stay back lor....

tuesday was much much better....brought my cousin to buy his bag...picked one from billabong...he is so not into picking his bag for the new school year..haha...cos he wants to go home and play his computer...its his last day ma....i dun really like that bag...but its his choice..so...i'll respect his choice...afterall...i'm the one paying the money...not the one carrying the bag....toking abt bags....i had a very pleasant surprise..i was at thomson plaza last week when i found this suede gola bag...going at a 50% sale..haha..only at $25..its a must buy..so i bought it..and i'm bringing to school today...woops!!!!...oh...back to the shopping trip...i wanted to buy a new pair of slippers cos mine broke..so i went to new urban male for their havannas or their brazillians ar...omg..they dun ahve my size..wth...shoes also dun hav emy size...haha..then i went off la...hmm...saved my money..and bought at ripcurl.....

this week is slacky week at school...not much things to do..cos most lessons are cancelled....like today...i only have 1 hr lecture...haha...ok..thats all for today...tata!!!

p.s. i am so happy and proud for my poster..its very nice!!!

its a little late..but anyway...MERRY CHRISTMAS..

hi there...i should have posted this yesterday nite...haha..but i was busy watching the online movie that i forgot abt it...and what is the movie abt??...hehe...its a chinese movie la...called lan yu...hmm...i think my classmates should have heard abt this b4 rite...the movie that i have been repeating and repeating all the time...i found this cool china website that allows me to watch the movies and not worrying abt getting caught at the same time....haha....

lets tok abt the christmas spirit first b4 the movies...well...christmas....i think it has been very very commercialised in this world we live in...just think abt that the resturants and their christmas sets...shopping malls with the christmas sales...but actually christmas is abt sharing...sharing the happiness and love for each other in this sacred night...and not only just to celebrate the birth of christ...but celebrate the love and sharing spirit of everyone...thats more like christmas...kids nowadays..including myself years ago...thinks that christmas is all abt getting the presents from the adults...well at least my younger sisters and cousins think so...i think its high time that we teach them christmas is actually abt sharing...and not only just giving...that is why..less and less kids are believing in the existence of Santa Claus now...haha...

anyway...back to the movies...okok..i have watched 2 movies from the website so far...one is lan yu..and the other...is i think...sweet 17...haha...first of all...i must tell you that these two is not the normal movies you find outside...well...its stories abt gays...but not what you think...both of them are love stories...well..maybe the idea of gay love stories doesn't really appeal to you..but hey...ann lee's brokeback mountain made its mark...haha..anyway...lan yu...is a tragic love story..cos the 2 main characters did not get together in the end..cos one of them died in a car accident...i dun really like the ending..not becos its tragic..but becos its a little too slip-shod...at least come up with a better reason to die la...haha..

the next movie is called shi qi sui the tian kong...when translated directly...meant the sky of a 17 year old..haha..but i'm sure the proper tittle is not that...but anyway..this turned out to be much more decent as i expected..haha..its a comedy actually...and i liked it alot...i found one of the phrase to be very true...."in this world, there is a thing called love. But only those with the courage can see it and own it."...yeah...sometimes loving someone needs lots of courage...the courage to trust that person...that courage to suffer with that person...its a nice movie...if you want to watch...just let me know..i'll give you the url...

oh..i also want to recommend a song..its an oldie..called "carry on till tomorrow"...i think the melody and the lyrics is nice...enjoy...ok..thats all for today..tataz....

p.s i've got so many things i want to buy..but no time to get them all...argh..

its a nonsense post..haha

hi ppl...tmr is christmas eve...so i decided to come blog first b4 i blog for tmr's christmas blog...haha..if there is actually such a thing la...

anyway...this week..is a cocktail of busy and lazing around for me...i went back to school for 4 days for meeting of my projects..but after that...i went home and did nthg...opps..so much for being hardworking...i went for mahjong session at heather's place...haha..took 3.5 hrs to play one round...haha..we are so slow...but we chatted and played with the stuff toys at the same time la...so i manage to relieve my addiction for mahjong over that 3 plus hours....

today..i was suppose to go aloy's place for christmas party...but then i have to stay at home for the furniture guy to send the new furniture...haiz..can't go..or else i'll be there enjoying myself instead of sitting here blogging...

ok..thats all for today..see ya...

its only the beginning....

hi there...whoo...i finally finished my last of the 7 papers i have for this sem's common test...haiz...and i ain't got a very good feeling..cos i think i'm not going to score full As...what to do..this sem's common test has no 1 week break for us to study...its like straight after that, we'll plunge into the horror of the common test..no time to prepare also...and..i got a feeling..this is only the beginning...more has yet to come....

anyway...my holidays are 2 weeks long..but i'm not going to enjoy it either...i've got loads of work to do for my project...its like one after the other...never stops..i guess only after this sem can i really take a break...thank god my class is going for the attachment later...or else...i'll never get to have a break to rest....

ok..thats all for today...see ya...

p.s. i really want to confront her and tell her to stop pissing the rest of us off....

common test is coming..and i have never really start studying!!!!!!

hello..i know i was suppose to blog..but i have been too lazy to do that..since i cannot find my bioinfo past year paper this morning to do...i figured i'll spend some time here blogging....anyway...the past few days was simply boring...both in school and at home..i didn't went out...in school..its all abt projects...reports...studying...now that is overwhelming me..but still..i haven't really started studying yet...haha...but i'm certain somehow..i'll do better this time round la....its improving every sem...thank god...or i'll be dead....but i think by the time i graduate...the highest GPA i can score is around 3.5...but i'll definitely be putting in more effort to achieve higher goals....

something nice was my sis bday dinner at nyny...hmmz...the elders didn't really like it..but me and my sis enjoyed alot..after that we went shopping..and my mum keep asking me to buy new shoes when i dun really find anything i like to buy...haha...i just didn't had the mood to buy anything...

now for a little reflections of life....sometimes..some people..they really piss you off....haiz...they are really those ppl that will resort into any means just to get what they want and they have never in their life think abt others....this particular person...i shan't say who is it..really manage to do that...i mean..throughout my entire life..i only hated 2 person and i swear that i'll never be true friends with them...one is vacuum in sec school..the other one is this....they ask stupid questions which obviously showed that they did not use their brains to think b4 they speak...and the have no sense of decency....hahaha....

if there is a eighth wonder in the world...they can very much be it...this person try their very best to assimilate into one group of close friends that i know...just to tap in into their expertise...haha...and the thing is...that person totally cannot fit in...cos she is not using her true heart to make friends...if everyone in this world make friends becos of materialistic benefits...this such a dark world.....relationships are never measured...just like you can never ask how much your parents love you....becos..they love you so much that they sometimes...are willing to give their life for you....friends likewise...if you make friends..only calculating how much benefits you can get...then i must say..in your whole life...you'll have no true friends...becos...relationships in this way can never work.....

i dare not say that i'm a saint...and i know i have gain benefit from my friends, my family or even just mere acuquintance....whether is it from school...from work.....but the fact is...gaining benefits was never my first intention when i make friends or start a relationship of any form...my first intention is to help one another....i'm sure many people are...but there are always some ppl who thinks that relationships is about exploiting the next party...which i think..its pathetic...and for these people...they'll never fit into the circle they want to be in becos they are not the at the rite level with the rest...and for me...i'm not jealous...neither am i going to be worried that these friends will be lost...becos i truly believe that when i put my true heart in managing every relationships i own..they'll never be gone..even its decades later...in fact i'm more worried for these friends...becos they are getting exploited on...and i dun want my friends to be treated that way....in any case...i simply just despise such low level human beings...

ok..thats all for today..see you soon...

p.s. for all my friends out there...in life...you can only gain what you want only when you put in your whole heart and soul for it....you reap what you sow!!!>>>>and i'll always love you and be there for you!!!!!

i'm gonna tell you loads of things today...haha...

i wanted to blog abt 2 weeks ago abt the bbq with my juniors and ved's bday with my darls...but the stupid blogger suddenly half way down for maintanence in the end everything cancelled...haha..so i decided to add it in here..very short la....basically..i had fun with my juniors...expecially...their mentor's kids...haha...christine is so cute...keep asking me to carry her..and play with me....haha...i'm really much more popular in the kids than the adults.....ved's bday was also very nice...but we didn't go out in the afternoon cos jojo had sore eyes..so we didn't go out...but we had a nice dinner and billy bombers...then everybody went off 1 hr after the dinner...haha..i went off with glad...

last week..in school...everything was ok la...but i didn't go school on thurday becos i was sick...but i heard that it was very chaotic...my class dun really like that part-time lecturer...haiz....her pracs are super duper long...over-shot for 1 hr...thank god i'm not there...or else..i also dunno what to do...stuck in the middle...haiz....

after i recovered...i went out with lynn on sunday..so long never go out with her already...went to walk around and go shopping....had a fun day with her....was laughing and joking with her...especially the time we went tcc for a drink..and how she tease this waiter that is very cute and looks like christopher lee....wahaha..i was laughing my heads off.....she ar...only she has the boldness to do all these things....my brave daughter indeed..then went to orchard to see one of her suitors...haha...1 yr younger than her...out of a scale of 10..i only give him 4...cannot make it la...not lynn's style....then we went heeren to walk around again...then she told me this story abt the jerk in school...she is so damn rite...but that jerk looks ok lehz...looks really can be decieving...then another of her suitors came along...haha..this time same kind of family background lehz...haha..he came from hk as well...initially he was very shy la...then it turned out to be ok lor....dun i dun think lynn will go stead with him...haiz...lynn...is still recuperating.....what to do.....ohoh...you know...straight after i meet lynn...she dropped me a bomb..she is going to to france to study business for 6 months...and she is leaving in december...omg...i was like..so fast???.....haha...i'm going out with her again..and give her a nice gift......

ok...school this week was nice...but i have to do crisis management with that part-time lecturer...cos my class really dun like her...haiz..but we ended early this time..haha..my class very efficient rite....the top class indeed...had to do 2 tuts with mr ong also..but we enjoyed it...haha..mr ong ma...can chat...now i know he is not that old already....hehe....we have a new lecturer for med micro....new also...but her experience way way exceeds the other new one...so funny...and yet...makes her lectures not that dry and really made me absorb better....haha...oh..her name is vanaja...now i'm thorn between her and shailu as one of the best female lecturers....hehe...anyway....william decide to only take our class for bioinfo prac...creeply lor...haha...but at least he is better than the other 2...i think his tips are much more obvious...haha...then yesterday morning...a.k. took us for tut for immuno..i was so afraid that he will scold the late comers..expecially one of my classmates....who is like 30 mins late...i'm her...i'd not come....a.k. temper is famous lor...although you can chat with him..just make sure you dun get on his nerves..other than that he is a nice lecturer to be with....

ok..thats all for today...my 3 day weekend this week is for me to do work...haha...

p.s. can anyone teach me how put youtube video on my blog???...and thanks yima for my new jacket!!!...i love ya

THE THRUTH

Choose one. Yes or No? (or just answer what you like!)

1. Can you live without your family?
HELL no...
2. Dare to kiss a stranger?
if that person is cute....maybe...
3. Kicked someone's ass before?
are you kidding me??...of course
4. Scolded your teacher?
nope..i'm always a model student..hehe
5. Cheated on examinations?
i think so...
6. Wish that a celebrity is yours?
nope..but i did wished that i can be one...
7. Hit yourself on the wall?
wall??...nope...glass doors and panels??...all the time..just ask dan or sab and my darls like glad
8. Wish that your bf is here with you?
gf you mean??....nope...i wished that food is here with me...
9. Wish that you can fly?
yup..but have you seen a pig fly???
10. Wish that you were dead?
yes...when i'm giving it all up...
11. Lastly, 1 wish you want in life?
That all my wishes come true or are fulfilled! (same as dan and sab)
12. & 1 word to end everything.
FOOD!!!

YOU.
1. Are you a girl or boy?
boy
2. Attached or single?
very single...
3. Smoke or drink?
occasionally
4. Night or day?
day..night is for me to sleep
5. School or work?
School...no need to work and you can get pocket money..isn't it better?
6. Black or white?
how abt grey??
7. Short or tall?
i dunno,is 1.8m tall???...haha
8. Dance or sing?
sing of course...i'm very vocal
9.Happiness Or Money:
i want both....
10. RnB, Reggae, Rock, Metal, Techno or Emopunk?
er...none of the above...


WHOs.
Who sits next to you?
No one..execpt the stairs..and students from the next class
Who sits infront of you?
Fiona
Who's on your left?
that place is empty..any takers?
Who sits behind you?
sab..the ever blur queen
Who are your bestfriends in class?
Everyone...haha...yeah..its really everyone..i'm a very sociable person you know...
Most shy?
i dunno..its between jiawen and wilson...
Cutest guy?
can i vote for myself???
Cutest girl?
i'm thorn between glad..sab..yiting..eileen..
Prettiest?
kelly...i think...
Most annoying?
Er. that will have to be glad..she's always acting cute to me only!!!
Brightest of all?
sab and dan
Funniest?
me...muzzie..sab..they never fail to amuse me
Ugliest?
er...you trying to get me killed rite?...thats a evil question...
If you could live one of your friend's life, who would it be?
mine's very fine for now..i'll stick to it
Your favourite teacher?
er...most of them...the others..are just nice lor...
The teacher you dislike?
NCW only...thank god he's gone...
Favourite subject?
dunno...
The subject you dislike?
Biostats and chemistry
Who's your class monitor?
that person will have to be me
How's he/she?
doing just fine...no complains...haha...
Who's the class asst. monitor?
is there such a person in my class????
How's he/she?-
Your class teacher is?
Mr Michael!
Your class?
mb0503!
Do you love your class?
absolutely

Now you have to ask 5 of your friends to do this survey in their blogs.Write down their names in the list below. Tag them in their blog to let them know. And DON'T STOP THIS GOING AROUND SURVEYS. It made people occupied.
Get started-
- glad..
- yiwen
- heather
- and all my darls and friends....

i leave ppl with impressions...haha...

well...this morning...i went to school for bioinfo prac..and when we were chatting away as the prac lesson is already coming to an end that time and i have already packed my bag...all ready to go...so..william was like toking abt the different types of students there are in the school...then he started to describe me...haha...according to him..."generally he's ok...can do better(i agree)...very vocal and dramatic(i second that)...chase and barks after eveyone regarding school work(hello..i have been the one doing all these lor)....and i can leave ppl with impressions..."...haha..that is his description of me...i find him quite true la...i really can do better....just that i am lazy..so...i didn't really push myself very hard to do the things...but i hope these can change...haha....

anyway...after that we had our lunch break..pass glad her book and she told me abt the author's new novel...i can borrow that from her classmate actually..i was like..."after you lend glad..lend me ok?"...haha..she was so blur and shocked...haha...see..i really do give ppl impressions....then after that..went to the tutorial room..and waited for the med micro prac to start...i thot my prac tutor was mr jay...until i finally found out that it was this new lecturer...miss vanaja...she looked experienced so..i dun suppose there should be any problem until she juggles 2 class at once..now..thats when all hell break loose....i was running to and fro form both classes to get things done and make sure all the stuffs are there...that kind of things..i told the class to learn to bear a little while..she's new..but soon there should be progress la....i hope....

after that prac that ended early...i went to get my hair cut...my hair stylist was turning fatter..but still cute la...i am recommending him to my classmates...hui ling was like so excited..as always..haha..she's a pervert in diguise...opps...hehe...the reason y i like to go there so much is becos for the past 2 years...i have been getting my hair cuts there...so...i just keep going back there to get my hair cut done lor...after that..i went home..laze around a little while..haha..then took a nap and woke up like 9...had a late nite dinner..actually..i just took some meat..then i was fuller that ever...after that...here i am blogging lor...

ok..thats all for today..seeya

an devil in disguise...so scary...and the army tok...

hi there...first let me tok abt a shocking news...its so shocking to me...in fact it has totally disputed whatever knowledge and memory i had one this guy who used to be so close to me....i always thot that this guy is saint...someone that will never ever in his life do anything that is going to be so evil...despicable and cheap...this guy...i promise..will never ever gain my respect again....

ok...i went to this army tok..more like being forced there...but anyway..i benefitted a little from there la...i asked my ex-classmate is he ready for army...he asked me that question back before even answering...i said..well..mentally..yes...physically...hell no!!!....haha....true what...ever since i'm in primary school(i think)...i have been told that i'll need to go NS...so..by now..i have been "hypnothised" for at least 10 years...so mentally...yes...i'm prepared....for goodness sake...every year so many ppl went into NS and came out intact...haha...i'm sure i will be too....but physically...its far from being even prepared for NAPFA...not to say NS...wahaha...but i'm trying to slim down already...so lets hope...it'll help...

ok..thats all for today..see ya!!!!!

someone is avoiding me...and i know who you are!!!!!

hi there...its not frequent of me to come so early to blog....but anyway...its rather nice in school this week...execpt for some practicals when we have a rather blur part-time lecturer to coach us...but i think we can give her a little more time la...she's new and look very young....i think we can tolerate a little mistakes here and there...rite guys???

anyway...i'm drowning in projects...i have projects for all the modules execpt bioinformatics....haiz....its going to be a busy semester...A.K. and the other lecturers all told us that this sem is the worst sem out of all the 3 years diploma course...anyway..i think i can make it thru la...there is very minimal of my hated discipline..chemistry..haha...all quite biology...so i dun forsee any troubles...lets just hope that my common test results will be just the same as my semestral exams...if not all As and first then all turn to B+s....argh....i hate this kind of situtations...really...all the B+s are like 1 or 2 marks then i'll get A lehz...argh...i hate it....

someone is avoiding me..and i know it...i hate this feeling..if you want to avoid me...at least let dun make it so obvious rite...even a pig can tell....just tell me la...and i'll make sure i'll disappear from your sight...always like that...something happen then start to avoid me...very fun ar...idoit...heather is rite...just ignore it...yupyup....

today is ved's bday party...lets hope its a fun day...me and jo going shopping today first...the rest joining us later...haiz...y like that one...anyway...glad got things cropped up...not coming...dunno y hor....i shall demand an explanation from her on behalf of ved...haha....ok..thats all for today...see ya....

p.s. faith hill and tim mcgraw's...."lets make love" very nice song...

i like all the old ladies in korean dramas...just like my grandma...haha

well..i just finish another korean drama...the very hot GONG... haha...seriously...i find the second male lead better looking than the first lead...the crown prince...i dun really like the crown prince la...maybe becos his eyes are too small...hehe...

i pity the second prince in the drama actually...he has the worst fate out of all the characters....haiz..lost his love...gave up his career(throne)....had such a wicked and selfish mother....in the end still become the scapegoat for his mother's crime....how sad...haiz...

anyway...i dun really like the ending of all the korean dramas that i have watched...maybe they ran out of budget when they come to the end...so they had no choice but to give such sloppy ending..that kim sam soon like that...this princess also like that....it just gives you a very frustrated feeling....like you didn't really watch till the last episode....haha....

i found out a very weird thing...i seem to like the old ladies in the korean dramas...like that zheng shang gong from da chang jin and the empress dowager from this drama...i find them very wise and very nice..basically..makes me think abt my grandma...so..i really liked them alot...hehe...

ok..thats all for today..seeya!!!!

p.s. i took less thatn two days to finish this drama..fast rite????...hahaha

its the start of my 4th sem in NYP....

hello...my school started for the first week.....haiz...so fast ar...i've been in NYP for 1.5 yrs already...time flies...well...remember i said that this sem is very packed for me in school.... but after the first week...i found out that its not really packed...its super busy and stressful...6 modules and 5 projects..all have heavy weightage...looks like this time...i must really jia you already!!!!!

anyway...i've got a suspicious feeling that i am being avoided by someone....haha...ya...that someone...well..lets just say we have a special relationship ba....dun think wrong ar...its definitely what you are thinking...haha....and i shan't tell you what is it as well...hehe......

ok..thats all for today..see ya...

p.s. i really hate downloading lecture notes from CMS...can't we just buy it?????

its my BIRTHDAY!!!!!

weex....finally...i have been living in this world for 18 years already...haha...i still have lots of years to come....

my bday wishes are...get very good grades for my next semesters to come....loads of money for me to shop...a healthy & fit body...haha...yep...thats the 3 wishes i'm having....

ok..thats all for today...see ya...

p.s. a big thanks to all my friends who wished me happy birthday...thanks!!!!

part I....my bday party...

hi there...just finish taking a shower after i came home from my party...its very nice..hehe....

met ved first at the common bus-stop then took a cab to newton b4 changing to mrt train....saw jojo...then we went to tcc for a bite cos vedro was complaining abt how hungry he was...haha...he took a sandwhich...jojo had cake pudding..yummy...i drank sea of gold(favourite drink at tcc)....then half-way thru...hawa came...then we quickly finish off and went to suntec to meet eileen and glad who has already reach long time ago...while walking into suntec...met my other daughter...lynn..end up..she is working in a travel agency...for attachment or something...had a little chat then went off already....i was trying to hard to spot glad and eileen..but they spotted me first...so we decided to watch a movie at marina square....more abt the movie in part 2...haha....

b4 we watched movie...we walked around and then i spotted a bag at new-world-order...looks quite nice...but cos 50 bucks...me and glad thinks that thing cost too much so...didn't buy...then went for the movie already....after the movies..eileen went off first to meet her mum...then we went to new york new york for dinner since hawa not joining us so no need to go seoul garden....when we reach nyny...straight away we had sits...it was a box sit la....wasn't that comfortable but its nice la...sitting in there...waiting for the 3 guys(nic, yiwen and jia xian)....mean while we took our orders and have them serve the appetisers first while waiting for them...ved went to get some candy floss and we had some fun with the machine...finally the guys came..and we are ready for dinner...had fun during the dinner..the food not bad...then the price also very reasonable...i was so full when i left there....then we went offf...at first we wanted to go jalan jalan at raffles city...in the end everyone was so bored..then we went off...that gladys khoo..keep pesterin me to take the train in stead of the usual 162 i could have took...anyway..had fun beating yiwen and ved in the train also la...haha..then took bus home with ved...and here i am now....hehe....stay tuned for part 2...next entry!!!!

p.s. thanks all my darls for the wonderful party...and glad for organising!!!!!!!

part II....the movie!!!!

ok...thanks for staying tuned...haha...anyway..this part is for the movie...WORLD TRADE CENTRE...for me..i think its a must watch....cos its really touching..i'm gonna tell you abt the thoughts i have after the movie....

the movie touched me in such away than it made me think of life as a strong fighting warrior instead of just a fragile being that we die off after a few decades....you see..the story was abt the lifes of the survivors of the crash of the world trade centre....its abt this bunch of cops that were going into the building to evacuate the ppl after the planes bang into the world trade centre when the building came collapsing down...how they were stucked in the debris...how they survived..and the family of these ppl...its not that kind of hollywood movie that leaves you an impression becos of the storyline..the cast...or the actions...this movie touch you in such a way that its sets you thinking abt life in a greater aspect....

for many ppl...911 was nthg more than the day marked in history that caused the once tallest builings on earth down...or the terrorism threat in the world...and how many ppl were killed..but this movie tells you the whole story in shoes of the ppl that lived thru that moment...the real heros of the incident....which i think gives me a whole new lot of thinking.....seeing how strong is the human's will to keep surviving thru all odds...and how things can change the life of so many ppl directly or indirectly....911 is a lesson for all of us...in a whole lot of different ways....and this movie makes me think abt 911 in a positive way...the will to survive in human beings.....actually..all of us has that instinct..being nthg but animals for millions of years b4 evolution that gave us the brain..our body was built in that way....but for many of us...its lost....

another thot i have was actually looking at the bright side of live...i watch on episode of oprah show where they featured the miracles of live than makes ppl think abt how wonderful live is..and no matter wat is coming thru...never give up..which i think is really true and this movie is a living testiment of it...these ppl are at the brink of death and they can survive thru it...when you compare it to the troubles we have in out life that makes us give up...our problems are really nthg....

ok..thats all for the move....stay tuned for part 3...my past week...

part III...my past week...

ok...this is the last of the sequels i have for today's blog....today was the first time i have 3 blogs all together in one day...or to be exact..in an hour..haha...anyway..this final part is about my past week la..so its pretty short and sweet...

this week was a not that busy week for me...cos i only have to go out to help my cousin..troy..to get his final preparation for his PSLE....he grown so much...next year..he'll be going to secondary school already...wow...how time flies...isn't it...in 2 more days...i'll be here in this world for 18 years already...haha....i wonder how many more years do i have...but i hope the number will be around 70 la...its the best time to finish my mission on earth...hehe....for now is this number la..maybe when i get old..i want a higher number....

anyway..back to the topic...yesterday..i went bugis with glad...bought only 1 shirt...haiz..but never mind la...i'll have more in the future shopping trips...after shopping....i went off to meet my family for dinner at the resturant in novena for my bday...cos tuesday my mum can't make it..so..celebrate yesterday lor...i was so full yesterday la...haha....

ok..thats all for now...see ya....make sure you read part 1 and 2 of my sequels....tataZZ

my bday is coming!!!!!!!

hi ppl....last week at home was so shiok...haha...cos i didn't at all went out shopping...partly becos i'm sick and also..i wanted to stay at home to rot...anyway....my timetable came out...it sux....really....i'm packed from monday to friday..and most of the days...i only have 1 hr break...oh god....so many practicals...haiz...i wonder what will happen to me at the end....i think i'll really get to slim down becos i am to go be stressed out....sem2 is a horrible sem...

anyway..my bday is coming....weez...finally i'm 18...and its legal for me to drink already....woohoo..... my darls and my family is going to celebrate for me..i wonder will my classmates do.....get the hint?????...hahaha.....

i want to go shopping already...anybody wanna come along???????

i'm sick again...haiz..but i have happy stuffs to tok abt...

hey...its 9.58p.m. and at normal times...i am suppose to be watching the tv..but here i am blogging...that is becos..i am sick and i have been coughing non stop...due to this..i cannot have an early nite and after taking some tcm for cough...i am here waiting for the medicine to take its effect....i dunno y...everytime i come back from chalet..i'm always sick..is it becos of the heaty food...the alcohol..or the overnight thingy..and one common thing...i'm always feeling a little sick when before i go to the chalet..so the chalet will only aggravate my situation....haha...

ok..toking abt the chalet...after so much trouble...my class finally has its own gathering..but guess what..only 15 ppl came..can you believe it..the rest all didn't come...haiz..no choice lor..but we still had fun la....started off pretty well..until jiawen's bf came from downtown east and brought along a group of guys...haiz..the moment that happened...one of the guys saw sabrina and yiting(the 2 most pretty girl of the day) and start trying to get close..and the whole bunch of guys happily sat down and played "the strawberry card game" (which no one in our group wants to play with sab).....chasing a large number of us out of the room into our own territory and heather they all went out to get some alcohol..i followed at first..but then the cheers at downtown east was closed and so..me and michelle headed back...no choice..we waited for the gang to came back..and we chatted outside...finally the guys notice that their presence was a nuisance and finally want to leave...but then..the guy that 'flirted' with sab and yi ting saw heather drinking and was saying..so tempted...and heather was like finish the whole bottle if you dare la(there was one bottle that no one wanted to drink)...and so..he happily finish the whole bottle..still trying to act cool after that..and they finally departure...yiting and alec and baocheng left leaving me and wilson and a bunch of girls...we went to took our shower..and those that are tired slept...those played mahjong played mahjong..and me....well..just watched the tv..feeling very tired..that was like around 1...then i started to have energy...woohoo...i played a little mahjong..and that was time to have the sunrise...turned out that there was no sunrise to be seen from the beach that we had...so..oppsy..they all came back..and most of them fell back to sleep...once the morning light came...wilson went off...then jiawen also went off...then geraldine was unwell..so michelle and elizabeth took off with her together..leaving me and fiona still awake...haha...then fiona started to took a nap..then i all by myself..cleared up the bbq...the chalet inside..took care of all the rubbish..and then waited for them to stay awake...and i left...to the beach at round 7 plus..just sitting and looking around..lydia woke up..and she had to leave for work..so i sent her off..and return the bbq pit..after everyone woke up..we left the chalet..and went mac for breakfast..then all of use went back home..i reach home at around 12 in the afternoon..slept all the way till 6...by then i was feeling sick..and oh dear...it got all the way worse till now...

last saturday also went pasir ris park...for mentoring..had a fun time with the kids too....yeah...took some photos...show you next time...

p.s. i saw joanna as well..yeeps..nana!!!!

not bad grades...but low GPA....

hi..sorry for not blogging for so long...cos i cannot bring myself to it...today..i'll first tok abt the most saddening thing for the week...MY RESULTS....haiz....the only good thing is...my MBT miraculously got B+...the rest not bad...cell tech..ABC and IM..also got B+...only A is marketing..haha...i can still get A for that...but my GPA...just fails to rise abt 3 you know..cos my first 2 sem's gpa is really low..so it just pulls everything down..or else my GPA for this sem got 3.428 one lor...so whats my lesson learnt...dun ever ever flunk your first year..its going to set you into a big chaotic vacumm that will make you work like siao to get good grades...really..and no matter how hard i work..i still cannot get thru to the 3.5 mark i want for the yr 3....haiz...so sad...but nevertheless...i'll still be working very very hard for that..yeap..i promise!!!!!!!

ok..thats all for today..i'll come again soon to tok abt the rest..see ya..

p.s. wish me all the best for all the sems to come!!!!!

i hate stories with this kind of endings la...open and tragic!!!!

yesterday just finish watching a hk drama series...its canto..and abt the olden days..concubines of the emperor...haiz..its the 3rd time i watch this drama...but i still cry for the 3rd time nevertheless...the storyline is very captivating..in fact..its so good rather than the other ones you find in the market...those other stories are predictable..so boring...but this one..the storyline is nice and there a lots of suprises along the way...but there is a very bad ending...out of 4 main characters...2 died..1 stucked in the palace...1 living but lover dead...i hate this kind of endings lor..its so..SAD...haiz..now you know y i cried rite...and the songs they have also very nice...if i can..i'll upload for you ppl to hear...

the other kind of ending is the open one..dun you just hate it...so...so...disgusting..just like the channel 8 series that ended yesterday..so stupid rite...in the end...melissa also never go with norman..argh..out of the 3 male lead..norman's story attracted me the most one lor...in the end like that...wth....

anyway..my holidays was alright la...all along trying to slack..haha..having fun..and i started my diet already so..hope that i can slim down..and all the best for my results also...!!!!!

let it go

i told myself i'm letting it go
but i didn't know it was so hard
i told myself to forget it
but it just keeps coming back

how i wish i'm a child again
then my life can start all over again
how i wish i'm a dying man
then all the things will soon have an end

if the stars can hear me out
please just take this suffering away
if the sun can shine on me
please give me hope to renew again

it was never meant to be
so please take it away from me
let me cast this thought away
so i can live my life again ...

its going to be a long long blog....

hihi...i'm back after 2 weeks!!!....everyone got miss me??? hahaha....nvm....i'm officially having my holiday as of yesterday 10.15 after i finish my last marketing paper.....for my papers...its seems that things are going not really as good as i thot it will be but its not that bad after all...i may not be getting As for all my subject...but there is a high chance that i can pull up my GPA pretty high...i'm quite happy with my IM, Cell Tech, MBT and ABC......but HBD didn't really turned out that good for me...cos i did really expect them to give such questions..anyway...i won't score too bad either....as for marketing..i really dunno how to do one of the 10 marks questions..but heck care it..cos i did pretty good for common test and my tuts...so..i should be able to pull it off....results coming out 2 weeks ahead...lets pray for the best....

when i was having my exams...i seemed to be very stressed out..even i have problems with my bowels...haha...but nvm...its going to be ok...i'm feeling much better now...my health is really deterorating..i can practically fill it...omg...its just like what the zodiac speacialist said dragons will be this year...but next year will be a much better time for me....

anyway...after exams yesterday..i went back to srs...wah...its so kiddy now..no matter from the interior to the exterior....i visit practically all the teeachers i can know in the school...thats practically all la...haha....i went back with jo and zixian...then the security dun let zixian in becos of his hair..he scared mr tina or mr rafi say anything...i told him is the two of them say anything i can handle...haha...he was so shocked..he still dunno who the hell i am...haha...want to talk mr rafi in terms..you are far far behind...in the end we all still went in together....chat with lots of teachers...mr rafi...mr tina...mdm loh...mrs chong...miss phua..miss ong...mis low...mdm xuan..mdm duan...mrs tan...lots and lots more...haha..renewed my sosa membership also...dunno y...but i just did that...me and jo also went back to our old classroom..its so dirty now...all the tables are vandalised...haiz...all these made me think back those days...life was much easier and carefree for me then...i wonder wat happened to my old self already....i think it slowly going away..thank god i still have all my darls to remind me of who i was....

speaking of darls...after srs..me and jo had lunch at the ramen resturant in hg mall..food not bad for me...but jo didn't like it that much..then she ordered more..i paid for it..cos i owe her the teachers' day present gift....glad came and meet us..then we chated and went marina for shopping...wah..i walked till my legs were sore....jo told glad where she made her accessories...haha...then glad keep pestering me to go chinatown with her yesterday..omg...from marina..we took train to chinatown and we gave glad lots of ideas..she finally made her necklace...and she stop pestering me already(for the moment)....then jo got lots of chinese novels...haha..finally..we all went home...my legs was full of blisters becos my shoe was soaking wet becos of the rain yesterday...

as for my holidays...i still dunno what i am going to do...maybe i'll decide later la..for now..just let me rot...i miss doing that....ofk...o'm done today..see i told you..its a long blog...haha...bye bye....

p.s. happy teachers day to all my teachers!!!!!!!!!...i love you..and thank you!!!!!!

exams are coming...study for your life!!!!!

hello...while other polys students are enjoying their holidays or at least their coming holiday...i have to study cos my sems exams starts next tuesday...haiz....me and exams is in a love-hate relationship...i used to like exams in sec school..cos i noe i'll score well without studying alot...now i hate it..cos i really have to study to score well...and thats what i am doing now...studying and studying...hopefully i can do as well or even better for my exams like my common test....

ok..abt this week in school...well..nthg much..just went back school for 2 days for revision only...haha..it turned out that only my class acutally asked the teachers' for a revision..haha..i admit what dr. chan thinks la...we are kiasu...okok...that i dun deny....my class is a competitive class....or else...how can we be the top class in the whole of the cohort...haha

nthg to write abt this week acutally...and i dun think i will be coming next week to blog...cos that is my exam week...you'll hear from me the week after..when i report abt my exam...stay tuned..haha...tataz..

p.s. i want to enjoy my holiday already!!!!!!

sometimes we really hope we can stop doing it...but we just get addicted...

oh hihi...its a very easy lazy week for me..i only had to go back school once on tuesday for matthew's makeup lecture and the national day celebration...i was one of the few that wore black..hehe..got reprimmanded...but who cares...patriotism is in our hearts...not on our clothes...rite...haha...pass the mug and the card to mr koh after the celebration...finally got it done during the 5 hr break...and i also got a hair cut..now my hair is the shortest ever since i entered poly..i'm so secondary school now...haha....

the rest of the days are basically slacking time lor..didn't really studied until thurs...finally touch my HBD..cos i got a revision coming up..and i want to be prepared for that tutorial...haiz...i'm so worried abt my MBT...i got a C last time round...hopefully this time can at least get a B...i won't lose my face so much...hehe...

my face has a weird patch of pigmentation..went to the doctor and gave me some bleaching cream...haiz...hopefully it will go away..it makes my face look really very dirty lehz...eeee..beautician said my it was allergic reaction but doctor said it was pigmentation...dunno whose rite or whose wrong..whatever la..as long as i can get rid of the marks on my face...i'll believe whose ever words...

ok..thats all for today....seeya

as promised....the class photos....

its the last day of school....theoretically speaking of course....

hihi...i finally hand up my completed HACCP project as well as my HBD report...and i am free of assignments for the semester already...weex....haiz....but exams are coming..and i'm so so so....not in the mood to take the exam...

lets tok abt the happy stuffs first....i went for my last shopping trip before i go into retreat for my exams....my legs were sooooo sore by the end of the day when i reach home..haha...all thanks to our dear sabrina la...she wanted to buy the addidas jacket for her bf...haha..but she just cannot find the correct one..and i keep telling her to go to the next store....oops...its my fault also la.....hehe...but i know that i went suntec twice and 3 times to citylink mall...and bugis and marina square...haha...no wonder my legs are sore la...plus we walked from bugis back to suntec somemore..haha...but sab's is worse than mine la....we had 7 when we start shopping...but at the end...only left 3..thats me..sab and michelle....haha...we had a wonderful time la....i wanted to buy a MYUK bag at first..but i didn't like it in the end cos i saw a kappa bag...then keep asking me to go bugis village to buy the imitation goods...haiya...i dun like to buy fake goods ma...hehe...in the end also never buy la.....hehe...next time then buy lor..after my exams...

now a little sad stuff...haiz...mr koh going...hmm..actually...i dun feel that sad initially when i heard the news..cos i thot i was over that emotional stage of mine(remember those sec3 times when i cried when miss ngo left).....but now...i'm having that feeling..maybe its because...he's really to good mentor...yup..he is a really good mentor..a kind person too...but i'm not going to be so sad la..cos afterall...we'll still be able to meet..we are going to be in the same sector next time also ma..and who knows...i may be working in the same company as him lehz...haha....ok...i took some class photo....i'll post them tmr...ok..see ya...

i'm here!!!!

hello..this week is a hectic week...haha...just when i thot that i can finally finish rushing the HACCP project..stewart told me to make the admendments...haiz....already..this week..report + test + project...not much time already...still need to do amendments....hopefully i can get it done soon....and also study for the cell tech test that is coming....i really find it confusing to study for cell tech scale up...maybe i did not pay attention..or maybe ng chee wei just sucks in teaching...haha

you know...i'm always told that i'm a very generous person..the word selfish was never the word for people to describe me...but guess what..this week while doing my report...i'm actually being called selfish...haiz...i also dunno why...maybe i just dun want all my hard work by my group members to benefit those ppl that really did nthg to help us in doing our project..and yet use it to their own benefit...haiz....selfish...thats such a subjective thing...while other call it selfish...some might just say that it is being fair to protect their own rights...which side you are on?...that depends on you....well...anyway...i just hope that the darn HACCP can get over and done with so that i can concentrate on preparing my exams...i want to get better results this time...ok...thats all....bye..

p.s. after danielle and heather suggestions...i have increase the font...see ok not la....

i have two dark shadow spots on my face!!!!!!

i just came back from jo's bday party...hmm...its so short..haha..we just had dinner...and everyone just went off....hehe..but jo says its the thot that counts...well..i agree also la...but anyway...i knew i should have booked tickets if we were to watch movies in the weekends...end up...me and jo had to walk from cine to OG to meet glad then walk to grand cathay to watch the show...and we were like given super front seats la...but its not that difficult to lift our heads up and watch the movie..cos the chairs are rather comfy...

toking abt the movie...hmm..its not something i expected...its so...unfinished..and bloody hell...we waited for the LONG credits to finish just to watch the dog becomes the tribes' chief....but the show overall ok la...then i wanted to go new urban male and see see one..these days...the new urban male having more and more shops....but we did not went in after all..i also never bring money to buy things...so we walked to suntec to meet them...haha..and for the first time..all of them met up already...opps...that means we were late...but who cares...the bday girl came with us...and kenny totally pissed me off the dinner just now....argh...

dinner was at swensens....yeah..real normal..cos i thot hawa coming..in the end she did not turn up...if i had known..then we rather go sakura for buffet lor....but nvm la..its still food...after dinner..the boys said its very sian..and all went back...left me, glad, gigi and jo went esplanade for the sea breeze and tok some 'artistic pics'....haha..its fun la...after that..all of us went off liao...

just now when i was bathing...i was day-dreaming again..i was dreaming i became fit and with all the nice clothes..suddenly had an urge to work towards it...well..we'll see...haha..ok thats all for today..see ya...i'm tires and going to bed...

p.s. HAPPY BIRTHDYA TO JO AND DARIEN(my cuzzie)

reality...haiz..what a difficult thing to face...

just when i was happily at the pasar malam buying my favourite ramly burger...someone bumped into me and i was instantly reminded of a past...or to be exact...a past fantasy...ya..thats what i called it...a past fantasy..well...i shan't tell you the story..because no one...not even my closest friend knows about this...its is so classified that i have been so trying to forget...but guess what...i just admitted that i can never forget it...its a part of growing up....and i hate to admit it...but its already a part of my memories....

i know that i'm a person who always like to dream...but i'm always dreaming about lots of other things...being a supermillionaire....or a famous star...or a mad scientist....but the fact is...i seldom dreamt about falling in love...because deep inside...i know...i dunno how to fall in love...really....thats y i posted the last post that i am a difficult guy to fall in love with...but this person is a very exceptional case...well lets just say...i'm hooked...haha...but i know...its a dream that is never ever going to make its way to reality...which is a totally different world from what i dream....

nevertheless....i still like to dream...because it keeps me moving..sometimes...i dream abt things that can never ever happen...but sometimes..i dream abt things that can happen to me in reality...and so..i work hard to fufill that dream...i used to dreamed being a good student leader when i was in primary school...i was so happy to be the computer monitor of the class(a post that till now.. still dunno what is it abt)....then i realised that my dream can be fulfilled when i was sec school...so i work hard..no matter academically or socially or even with my character...and true enuf...i was the deputy head prefect...and getting into a dream course...ha...yeah...working hard is the key.....

but for this fantasy of mine...no matter how much i work hard...it is just not possible...and so..i can just keep in a secret with me..till the day i die...perhaps...

p.s. my darls...dun try to guess who is that person....you'll never make it....

the shoe that i can call it mine....weex

ok..my right foot has a huge blister on the heel because of my new custom made shoes...haha..they're beautiful...but a little small for me..well...no problem...i think i can make the shoe fit me..haha...just need a little of expanding...anyway..the shoe is beautiful..if you look carefully...the words in golden is acutally my name...nice isn't it...haha........



p.s...there is another post today....

its a happy week...yaya...thats is what it is..happy week

well...first of all...i'm still having some muscle ache on my arms after the fat busting activity i have done with my classmates 2 days ago....haha...we just went east coast cycling la..but its fun..i like that...this is the 2nd time i cycled on a bicycle throughout my whole life...weex...the last time i broke a pair of slippers...but this time....nthg was broken..and i am getting more pro...however the problem is...i haven't been excersing too much to a long time and wanting me to cycle for 3 hours is a litte problem especially when the cushioning for my butt is not very good...my butt practically wasn't mine when i got off the bike...haha....

but i was pissed when i just started the bike ride...we have one classmate who did not know how to ride a bike...so we have to teach her...then at the start point, i asker..."ni xu yao wo pei ni ma"...in english..do you need me to acc you....then 3 top naked bikers(guys of course) came at my back and said.."xu yao"...which means yes i do...and i was like...so pissed...i'll castrate them if i see them again....argh...how dare they make a pass on me...nvm..i shall be gracious and tok abt some thing else....

i got back all my results...yeah...i got 5As....the best i've got so far...wahahahahaha...i'm so happy....looks like my GPA will definitely break 3 this time round...wootx.....hahahaha.....anyway..tuesday we went sabrina's place for a mahjong game...but it wasn't a very idealistic kind of fun...becos....her dog was bugging me all the time....you know what is jack(sabrina's self aclaimed cutest dog in the world) did...he hugged my lower leg and trusted trusted his pelvis(if there is such a bone for the dog) forward...and it looks like he is very attracted doing that to my leg...i tried to run..he chased me...i tried to scold..he ignored me..even his owner(miss sabrina koh) also did nthg...in the end...i have to give up the game and let michelle play....all thanks to JACK!!!!!!!!!....

yesterday was a seeing doctor day for me...haha..we went to the chinese physician again..cos i was coughing non-stop and my mum wants me to go and see a chinese doc....so i went..to probably the most expensive chinese clinic in town...tong ren tang...haha..and spend my mum $130+....which she was happily enuf to spend..of course...i went with my grams...haha...then went carrefour to buy things...so many things to eat...cos they having a food festival...wahahahaha.....had my tummy filled in no time..and i went to packed some home too...what a nice day for me...

as to y am i here now instead of school...hehe...my school starts 11 today...so i got plenty of time to waste and type my blog...okok..thats all for today..see ya....

p.s. my shoe has arrived and i am picking them up!!!>....oh and...i'm gonna do something naughty today...haha..bye....

life is just that...choices...and making the right decision...

hello...hmm...maybe i should tell you all something...my mentor is leaving the school already...he is going back to join the industry..some vaccine plant which will take the next 4 years to be completed......he is a nice guy...a typical gentleman..one that you noe will take care of his family very well one...haha....actually...i dun really know him that well....i mean although it has been one over year already...but i dun really know him as a person...i just know he is my mentor...and he is a good guy....tells me stuffs so that i can tell the class...meet up with us occasionally...but other than that...i really dun noe him that well...i dunno his teaching methods...because he has never ever taught us in any subject before....or neither did he gather us alot of times....haha...but anyway....i wish him all the best in wat ever that may come to him life la.....

as for me...this week in school...well...is just that..usual stuffs...nthg much to say also....our teachers keep telling us that we are the better class out of the whole cohord...haha..that we know...its so obvious...haha....anyway...marketing teacher said we had 1 failure in our class for marketing..i wonder who is it...pls..pls...the results are going to be out next week.....give me some good news...i really hope...

ok..thats all for today...see ya....

i'm finally back!!!!!

hello hello.....i'm back blogging again...hehe...i didn't blog the past 2 weeks becos i was sick for the first whole week and the second week was packed with test and i need to study.......

so eventually...we went to glad's and shirley's bday chalet...prior to that..some tension was created...but after all the alcohol....its alright already....i had no appetite the whole day...cos i was a little sick...bbqing for the whole bunch of ppl for 3 hrs worsen it...at the end of the day...i was having cough and sorethroat already....i'm really not good in drinking you noe...i think i only had about.....4 cups...and i went googy....haha....but eventually i was awake to fine out that glad and ved went tipsy....and i have to send them home....haha...they were very quiet ppl when we take taxi...but that night...they started toking rubbish to the taxi driver...and ved keep claiming that he is not drunk when he can't even walk straight....haiz...haha..nvm la...it was the fun day...but the next day..i still had to go back school...with a little hangover...and sick...i had to go to the doc 3 times to finally get well...i'm still having a little cough now

the past week was just tests and tests...then just studying and studying...cos i had to catch up for what i missed during the week i was sick....of all the papers...i think IM...Cell Tech...and HBD..is rather manageable....think can get good results...ABC and MBT...maybe not that good..but won't be that poor also la.....i better not give myself too much confidence...cos sometimes things really never turn out the way you think they should be......

its going to be 2 postings today...so read the next one ok......

my 2nd post....for the day....

today is an important day....one place that i remember the most in my childhood memories is going to be undergoing renovation...but after that...its not going to be what it really was in my memory....that place is chinatown complex....my grandma used to bring me there and do marketing when i was young and we were all staying in a shophouse in chinatown....then my grandma will hire a trishaw and bring me home....those were the days...when i don't need to worry abt anything in the future..and just enjoy the love from everyone...i was the first grandchild in the whole family..so i'm showered with love....chinatown is the place i grew up in...the place where me and my grandma bonded the most....and the place where my childhood was with no worries....but now its fading away......in my memories...maybe its becos i grew up...or maybe becos the place wasn't what it was supposed to be then already....

my life was very simple then...going to my nursery...going home...eating my favourite food...enjoying the afternoon walk with me and grandma in raffles place...its was so easy and sweet then....i remembered that during the first day of my nursery day...i practically hugged my grandma's leg like a koala bear...not wanting to let go...cos its a place i have never gone before...but eventually i still went in...then there was once when i went raffles place with my grandma for the afternoon walk...and i wanted to go to the loo...my grandma had to carry me all the way back to nankin street where our old house was....its so funny yet so memoriable to think abt them...

i wasn't a person that favour the renovation projects in chinatown...chinatown wasn't suppose to be that modern....it loses all the rustic touch already....ya..it might not be very hygenic...but we can all just clean the area up and be responsible....anyway..they'll be moving to the outram park temporary market la...so i still can have my favourite food there....

you noe y i always like to tok abt the past times..the old times..when i was younger...thats because its already in the past..and very likely...they'll never come back anymore..so..i like to tok abt them...so that they will never fade away in my memory...and i can bring them to my grave till the last day of my life..........the another reason is...the past is the past...and its always the best...becos it had already happened...not like the future...so uncertain...right???

ok..thats all for the 2 posts....remember to read my 1st post just now ok??????
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