simplicity with contentment...

don't ask me why i am here...again...

2011-11-23T04:51:00.000-08:00

okay, maybe in another year or so...or perhaps 10 years later...i'll read this post and say..geex...you're really childish then....or...maybe i'll say....haiz...i wish i can turn back time...

this is was i am feeling now....reading my post when i was younger certainly made me miss those days.....

growing up....somehow i dunno...maybe becos i'm working and at the same time studying...so life kinda wore me out....or...is it becos...life itself is getting back at me..simply becos i was pretty god darn lucky for a very long time of my life???

im 23 this year....got a job...sometimes i feel seriously under-paid....studying...wondering where will the degree eventually lead me to....having a life..that maybe most ppl outside this its wonderful...everything going very well....but i think this year....is the year that i absolutely hate the most.....

the most impt thing that happened is the departure of my dajiu.....and all the trouble he has caused before and after he departure....although my grandma didn't tell say it out...but i know she is partly blaming me....i was the one to let him out...tell him to go off....and oh wells....whether i am right or wrong?...i dunno, would i have done something else, i also dunno....i just hope...that my grandma and everyone else can get over this...even if it takes me the rest of my life to have this regret in my heart.....really....everyone needs to let it go..and move on....some of us have...i'm not so sure my grandma has already or not.....at this point in time...i think she hasn't.....it hurts me alot to see her like that...but there's really close to nthg i can do...except talking to her....bringing her out..and really try my best to make her happy.......

then there is my mother and daddy.......funny rite...how my parent divorce....they choose to let their son be their middle man....my mum is getting lazy...dun want to move along...my dad...is left there hanging.....i really wish something or somehow this can have a good ending....and i also want to make sure that the hurt to both parties can be as minimal as possible.....its really delicate..with my mum involved....and one is in sg..the other in hk...how to settle....i'll have to be the one going here and there.....soothing both sides la.....

after that...there's er jiu....geez....moving house....i need to get that settled soon too....slowly..,..just waiting for the appropriate time to do the talking...and arranging.....and maybe we can all move on...and leave this sad place.....

my sis....i dun think i need to worry abt her yet....except for her studies...but there is really nthg much i can help her.....O levels....she is pretty much on her own already....

work??...haha...i feel like i'm getting capable....but this also makes me feel terribly underpaid for the work that i'm doing...also....i want my carefree assistant life back....i just dunno if this is really something worth it.....let me get thru my bata...and we shall see......

love life....hmmmm.....oh wells...things are just too busy for me to think abt it...i miss my nua-ing days....i really want to get hold of it...and enjoy myself nua-ing.....then i'll day dream...and think of my dream lover.....

school life....at least its second year now....cleared all the non bio modules...now its just really working hard...so see if i can get my dist and high dist....hahahahahaha....let's hope so....

have i mentioned i'm getting charge for not attending IPPT??....i just hope the charge is just a fine...which alot of ppl already say it is going to be just a 50 bucks fine....if it is...at least life is not that bad....i mean..i already do my IPT...and got a gym membership...so...i suppose..the JDO will let me off??...rite??...please la.....i pay 50 dollar fine..okay??

i really dun like growing old....i enjoyed growing up...but..now..it seems i growing old...so many things to worry..so many things waiting for me to clear....and how i need to work for my future....its taking its toll on me....but i will still need to face it in stride....and tackle them down...one by one...what cannot kill me only makes me stronger.....and stronger i'll be....

oprah said...once everything that i can possibly do is done with....just surrender it...and something somewhere will take care of it for you.....so...i'll shall put that in mind....do all i can do to the best of myself...and just surrender it......let it go....and may the good things happen and come back to me.....if all else fails...rmb...SMILE!!!!!!!...TERENCE...jiayou...u can do it...jiayou!!!

wishlist..updated may 2nd...hahaha

2009-05-01T19:28:00.000-07:00

goodness gracious...as somethings in my wishlist materialised.....things are quickly filling up the empty slots....hahaha....

1. Coach tote bag....for MEN!!
2. Sunglasses.......
3. New accessories......chain...rings....bangles....
4. Shoes...loafers!!
5. Cash...lots of cash...hahaha

p.s. coach things are so much more expensive here in sg than the states...hahaha...who is going states??...tell me...i wanna buy coach!!

long needed post....hahahahaa

2009-04-08T05:19:00.000-07:00

alrite...and so....its been 1 month since i last updated my blog....and i think i should make it a point to clean up the cob webs....hahahaa...basically....i'm bored to death tonite.....

ok...lets start with something...work related(or rather camp related).....hmm...i've been in GB for 5 months already....whooo....1 more month to half a year there and 2 more for my 1 year soldier mark...which also reminds me that i must have some form of celebration with everyone i know...hahaha.......and slowly....i'm beginning to settle into the whole tempo already...oh wells....i think thats the only thing that can happen...isn't it??...but i'm kinda at peace with the status now....at least i'm not getting into any trouble...and it'd better stay this way.....

as for my personal relationships.....yes yes...i'm very happy to report to everyone that.....I'M STILL SINGLE!!!!....so...dun bug me anymore if i'm finally attached or not.....cos i dun really meet anyone in camp.....

my friendships however...needs some strengthening....and so....i might want to plan for a chalet....so that...i can invite everyone everyone.....and they can all come and see me....woohooo....that would so save me the trouble going around and meeting ppl all over sg....hahaha.......

now....my shopping urges....hehehehee....i have yet to get all the things i want to get...cos...i haven't really slimmed down yet....my wt is like constant for the last 3 months...although my uniform does seems tighteer.......hehehehee......

down...sick....haiz....

2009-03-09T03:22:00.000-07:00

oh wells....just when i thot i have evaded the cycle of falling sick every 3 months....haha....it hit me again...so...yeah...i fell sick on a dismount day...and....i dun even have MC...haha...ok la..i did reject getting one.....

in anycase....it was a very sucky dismount today....erm...i think as compared to the last sucky dismount (when i got scolded by everyone on the mounting day)....this is much worse...cos..this time...it was someone within us that doubt me....which i seriously think that the intention that is more humiliating than saying it out....especially when after some childish ppl got into childish fights...and decided that...ok...now to confuse everyone else...and to make everyone seem as childish and evil as he is...he shall pick on everyone else.....and..erm...well...lets start with terence....

i mean...if its really my fault...just say la....and pls...dun beat around the push...and for fuck sake....(yes...i'm using the word fuck).....dun confuse things la....and....the way you guys say it....especially...after the opening of doubting someone's integrity.....and then frame me up like that........its not fair to me at all lor...its really not........

if you think that it could be my fault, just tell me straight lor....pls dun beat around the bush..and wait for me to admit, becos...it has never occured to me that i might be the one who spoil it...i really didn't think its me.....and it really wouldn't hurt to mention it straight in front of my face and not go 1 big round......really u know.....that feeling sucks...becos u just got pushed to the execution table without knowing really if its you or not.....

and i'm beginning to think that this place is full....really really full of politics.....oh wells....you guys want to play politics...fine...i'll do that.....but beware....i'm no stranger to politics....i'll be the most scary bitch u guys have ever seen..........lets see who shall outwin who...!!!!!!!

p.s. its not a good day to fall sick....or should i say..its a blessing in disguise.....

hmmm....just some random things....

2009-02-11T04:27:00.000-08:00

wow...this is like....a long long needed post...haha...its been into my 3rd month here in GB already...things are slowly getting used to already....until the big thing known as ORD happened to my section mates....

so...kenneth and john both ORD liao....which is like...yeah..finally..their hard earned freedom!!!...very happy for them...though at the same time...i'm just pondering how long will mine take...hmm..in abt another 1 year and 4 months...haha...but at least there's a date to end it all...i must think of a crazy thing to do for my ORD...haha......something very crazy...like standing at the train track and shout ORD to the whole world!!!!!

haha...anyways....good luck to those ppl who have left platoon 2...be it the ORD ppl...or those that are so lucky to get posted out....i'm still there....trying to change the things bit by bit...still dun understand why are the ppl there so gloomy....but oh wells....its time to infuse some positive vibe there...haha....

alrites...its pretty short...but yeah..thats all!!!....see ya....

p.s. i finally get a clean cupboard to myself after all these weeks here!!!

my personal want list...

2009-01-25T07:43:00.000-08:00

ok...so..to make my every month work go and feel better...i've drawn up a personal want list...by which i'll get once i hit a certain target of months and savings...hahaha.....

they are...as according to the sequence...

white casing for my hp
a new brand of perfume...perhaps...narciso rodiguez
polos shirt...paul smith..then RL
sunglasses...this time..something ex..haha...prada perhaps??...
erm...new loafers??...
ehz...jeans...straight cut bottoms??
accessories...lots of them....

that ought to give all of you some ideas on gifts to buy for me...haha..rite??

looking back at my year....

2009-01-01T00:58:00.000-08:00

today is the very first day of 2009...by right i should write abt my reflections yesterday on the very last day of the year...but i thot....its nice to have a new beginning by looking back on how life was to me....

2008 wasn't the best year i had in my entire 20 years on earth..but i would say..its the year i had the most changed....

physically...i finally came down on my weight and i feel so much fresher and better looking.....

mentally....i gone into NS...where every boys become men....although i might have gone thru that stage before i entered NS...but it had certainly made me more independant....

spiritually....i feel that somehow...i got a new life...a new start weighting to begin...but perhaps that will be sometime after my NS...haha....

so...i would say...life has been good to me for 2008 like the many years before....in anycase....i'm ending off.....with a wish...that everyone i love and i care abt....yes yes...u reading this...will have a wonderful 2009 ahead!!!!!!!

is honesty always the best policy???

2008-12-09T04:17:00.000-08:00

hmmm...this is a question that i have been pondering all day.....lets hope one day i'll find the answer....

meanwhile.....i just pray that my honesty will bring me something good in the end....good begets good...rite???

the moral of the story is....take, suck & go.....

2008-11-25T13:21:00.000-08:00

ok...5.22 a.m. in the morning...and i still have sometime before i get ready to leave back to camp so that i can move to my new working (permanent) jobsite for the next 1 years and 7 months(guelling 19 months).......

was rather anxious abt getting the posting order yesterday.....and when i got it....the first thing that came into my mine was..."ok...within the 2 that i anticipated".....hmmm....shift work is going to be a little weird now....that i dun really have my full weekends.....still...i want to work out something with my new place...and see if i have save up my off days...haha..then take them like...3 days in a row...haha.....but in anycase...i'll be working in weekends as well...haiz...looks like i have to get used to it already.....

wonder how will it be like for the first few days...good thing is that most ppl in my bunk are also going there...so at least i have some familiar faces over there.....not like tekong and training school all over again....when you know no one except yourself....haha....

ok..i should get going and get ready to leave my house already...tataz...

p.s. hopefully..its going to be easy for me to adapt....

i'm bored...so...here i am....

2008-11-08T20:46:00.000-08:00

its been almost a month since i last entered a post.....wow....that was how lazy i am to write up a post here...haha...not that anyone really reads it...everyone and anyone seems so busy now...haiz....

in anycase, my life have been more or less the same so far. nothing special came about, still the same old same old except for the fact that i'm going to get POP again and get into another sub-unit which i hope its going to be a good one, cos i really look forward to a 8-5 kind of job so that at least i dun need to face up with all the regimentation and discipine plus all that crap.....

tok abt that, which brings me to the point of some people that i've met in camp.....trust me, its much worse than what i have back in tekong, this time, i seemingly dislike some of my superiors more over here....especially 'THE TRIO'...gosh.....how i describe them....hmmm..one of them is still ok..at least he does things with a reason(although that doesn't rule out the fact that i dun like him)....the other guy...is just someone whose barks are more painful than bites....and one final one....whom....i seriously doubt his function in the organisation....

in anycase..this guy.....is erm......let's see...where do i begin...has limited vocabulary as he only uses the F*** word to scold ppl.....no brains.....lack manners....behave like a gangster more than a soldier......low EQ (not to say IQ)....and oh...have i also mentioned that he likes to pick on stuffs?????........yeap...in short....let me just say that my stay in that training school will be a much better without the presence of some ppl around...then again....the world will be so much more perfect without this ppl too.......i hope i'm not going too overboard...cos this was exactly the same kind of feeling he made me feel that he is such a person.....

well...now after the venting of anger...my feel slightly better to go back camp later and get started on my area-cleaning...just in case someone wants to pick up some other faults again......

end of the year is around the corner again...haiz...normally....i would be very very happy as its time to reflect on what i have done over the past year...and plan for what i want to achieve in the next....but seriously...this time round....not particuarly interested at all....cos...i'm in NS...like...2 years void from my life....hahaha...so...who cares to plan or reflect over a voided period of your life??....rite??......hahahahaha...yeap......

ok..thats all for today...i hope i didn't infuriate too many ppl over this post....hehehe

how i've spend my 20th bday.....

2008-10-10T17:56:00.000-07:00

well..i've spend my 20th year living on this planet in the most peaceful way compared to wat there is in the past few years.....not much presents....no parties and celebrations...just a simple meal with my family with a price tag that i didn't need to pay for....hahahaha.....

hmmm...this year is a shifting year for me....went from studying as an occupation into becoming a NS man...haha..from using my brains to work for me....to using my muscles to work for me...hahaha....have i also mentioned that after so many many years of crying and screaming to slim down...i finally did it...hahaha....14kg to date......wow....this year...shifting year....hahahaha....i guess what was hardest for me is adapting...hmm...maybe its something everyone have to go thru...and it relaly put my self-proclaimed independence character to the test...and oh wells....haha.....

for my bday wish...nthg much actually....just hope that my family and i can have a fun and healthy time ahead of us for as long as i want it to be....and for everything to fall out in place eventually.....and of course...for my 3 secret goals to come true....hahaha...of cos...one of them...involves a particular date....hahahaha.....some ppl will know what i toking abt....hehehe....

p.s. to those who have wished me a happy bday....and if i never get to reply you....thank you so much!!!!

my 'want'...'wish'...and 'need' list...hahahaha

2008-09-30T06:21:00.000-07:00

my needs:

1. 1 decent belt*
2. a few standard pair of raw jeans or 1 tone pants*
3. some polos......or shirts*
4. good reads
5. MONEY!!!!!!!!!

***haha...these are needed...becos of some stupid rules on wat ppl should wear....argh....stupid ppl and their stupid rules.....hahaha...then again...think of who i am in the first place...haha.....

my wishes:

1. Get thru my training and go to a lovely 8-5 posting!!!!
2. Erm....get my bday wish to come true...haha...its for me to know but for you to find out....
3. Get my 3 'the secret' goals reached.....
4. Attain a body that makes me look healthy and fit...by....erm...say....next CNY??? (haha..for the shopping spree ma)

my want:

1. Get some nice outfits and purge my wardrobe...god...i got so many things to get and altered...
2. get another bank account.....and have my credit card...haha..at least i can attain some financial freedom from my mum's clutches........
3. nice pair of loafers...and one other shoe...
4. no outfit is complete without the accessories....
5. erm...my white leather case wallet and its full set of items...hahah
6. for all my needs...wants...and wishes to come materialise......

YES YES....i can feel them....all coming...and i feel goood abt them....yes................here they come!!

as promise...some b4 and after shots...hahaha

2008-09-15T21:15:00.000-07:00

POP lo.....hahaha.....call me PVT Chui.....

2008-09-10T01:26:00.000-07:00

yeah...POP lo....hahahaha...thats been the word that i have been wanting to say and meant if for weeks....but guess what...i made it thru...and so....naturally....5 hours ago...i can shout it out loud for the whole world....or at least the whole tekong to hear....hahahahaha.....

and so...finally got my 11 days of block leave....and yes....said goodbye to 1 impt phase of my life...to another phase in NS...thats called unit life...let's hope it'll be good for me...and i get to get something out of it...hahaha..

okok...i've got to go....but...i'll upload some photos in the next post...hahaha...tataz...

1 more week to 11 days of freedom....yes!!!!

2008-08-30T22:23:00.001-07:00

ok..if you happen to drop by for the past few days...you'll notice that i took away some of the entries cos i was advised not to post anything abt my BMT training...hahaha...and so i took them away....

and yes....just to give an update on how i look...hahaha...i'm still botak....and i'm just less that 5 kg to my perfect weight....and then i can start training up my shape (or muscles)...hahaha..if things goes well...by CNY next week...i'll be a totally different guy (from the outside of cos)....hahahaha....have i also mentioned that...i'm just 1 more week to my pop....to be exact....in 10 days time...then i'll have my 11 days of block leave...can't wait to enjoy that 11 days of freedom as a civilian and doing things that i've been craving to do....like going shopping on a weekday....watching afternoon shows....just lying and doing nthg...and of cos...meeting up with all of my friends...whom i haven't got a chance to meet for the past 15 weeks......hahaha......

in anycase....for the past few weeks...i've come across several interesting ppl...and boy...its been a long time since i've got this chance to meet ppl that i dun wanna include in my social circle in such a short period...hahaha..the last time this happen was 4 -5 yrs ago in sec school...but then...i was much more bitchy than now...haha...not to say i'm not one now la....hehehe.....

in anycase...these days...i've came upon some very interested ppl....some good...some not that good...and some...let's just say..i prefer them to stay out of my social circle....hahahaha...ask me abt them next time...i'll fill you in every single dirty details...hahahaha....

ookok...thats all...i'll fill you in more details when i POP...hahaa...tataz....

p.s. one day...i really want to tell this guy this: 'Confidence and arrogance will be your greatest downfall leading your man'.......hahaha...

qns: how sweet is home??

2008-07-05T00:13:00.000-07:00

hi ppl....well....i'm here to update again.....actually..there's nthg much i can blog abt over here since i'm mostly bounded by so many other things...haha....

in anycase...my weight is getting down...yes!!!...haha..or the first time..in like 4 years...my weight finally dropped...and by that i dun mean by faking the figures or using some underhand means(note: not that i have done that in the past anyway).....hahaha....yeah...my fitness is picking up...but still..there's alot more to work on..or one thing....my muscle power...whoosh...its really really weak...hahaa....thats what happens when 1 gets too dependent on the brain....hahahaha.....

also...i really look forward to go home now....its like...i finally understand the meaning of home-sweet-home....haha....i really started to cherish this time more...and really..understanding how hard it is to really depend on yourself for most things....which i am very very grateful for my family to be able to provide for me.....

yeah...basically..thats all i have...cos..the rest...aren't really that good to be publicised out..so...hahaha...if you really wanna know..come to me!!!

tataz....

p.s. ans: its so sweet...its almost diabetic....

my first 2 weeks in BMT....or rather...my first 2 weeks of 2 years in army....

2008-06-21T03:48:00.000-07:00

ok...hi everyone...i'm back after 2 weeks of enforced isolation on the island of Pulau Tekong for my BMT training....hahaha...and so...here i am blogging abt some interesting things that i have come across over there for the past 2 weeks....

disclaimer: i was told to practice discretion on what i blog and therefore...dun expect too much juicy details.....

oh wells...the first few days of fitting into communal life was abit not so easy...especially having to leave home and spend it with 12 other different man living in the same bunk....so when i called home the first few nites...things got a little emotional for me...but things got better after the initial phase...and i began to adapt to the communal living part of life la....hahaha....

then the training started really gradually...and so..its not that difficult as i thot it would be for me..and so...really...again...glad is rite...i'm just worrying too much......its not that difficult to get used to the military lifestyle of having to greet everyone higher ranking than me and having to march here and there....haha..cos 4 years in RC has erm....kinda equipped me for that....and so....the footdrills are really i should say...chicken feet for me la...haha...

other than that, the food there was alright too....and yes...despite all the food i have in there...i did manage to slim down...haha..not alot...but at least i did slim down..so...its an accomplishment for me already...considering the fact that its just 2 weeks in BMT.....hahahaha.....

basically....thats all la...nthg much..since most of my life in BMT now is devoted to slimming down....haha...so..there's really nthg much to blog abt la....haha...like i promised...no juicy gossips for anyone at all...i suppose??....hahaha...

okok..thats all...till i blog again.....ciao!!!

p.s. life is so precious and so fragile...therefore...cherish it...every single minute of it!!

ok....3 months of holidays now comes to an end...

2008-06-04T04:53:00.000-07:00

oh wells...i guess by now...everyone will know that i am going into NS tomorrow....and first stop in NS....is tekkong island for BMT....15 wks in all...and by the time i come out..i would have already missed most of my friends' bday....

these few days...everyone has been telling me abt NS...the bad and the not so bad side...i guess...all i need is time to adapt...time to tune myself into the clock of military life....and fit myself into that lifestyle...upon doing that...i guess..i would be fine with alot of things already.....

i seriously dunno what to say abt going into NS...i'm not excited...not too sad...not too anxious...and not too depressed.....just...no feeling....you know...sometimes the calmness you feel before something big happens...thats those feeling....but like glad says.....eventually i still have to get in..unless i can change my sex into a girl...or become an cranky old man....NS...is one detour that i must take no matter what.....so....goodluck to me i guess......

ok.thats all for today's post...nthg too anti-govt or mindef i hope....hahahaha....the next post will be in 2 weeks time when i come out of my confinement period.....tataz.....wait for the juicy details....

p.s. like i told glad...if i can get thru NS....then i really really believe that...actually there aren't alot of things that are impossible for me.....haha

i've finally GRADUATED!!!!!

2008-05-21T15:38:00.000-07:00

hihi...after 1 tormenting sleepless nite..and 1 hr of nerve wrecking nervousness....i've finally graduated from NYP....whoooshz......i can't believe it....haha....yesterday all the lecturers came asking me how i feel...my first reaction is....yes...I MADE IT!!!!!!.....hahaha...but too bad i didn't get to take pics with alot of lecturers and classmates though....manage with AK and Micheal...but the rest of the lecturers...oh wells..too bad la...haha..next time when i come and visit...i'll take....hahaha....then there's with muznah and heather...haha..as for the rest..they just...erm...disappeared....hahaha.......

my mum and grandma came for my grad...haha...when we entered the audi..my grandma is trying so damn hard just to try and find me.....hahaha...but i'm sitted at the front row and she keeep straining her eyes all the way to the last row...hahaha...but at least she manage to get a shot of me before i go up the stage and get my dip...haha....i kept imagining what might go wrong on the stage...falling down...tripping over...haha...or fainting???....haha..but it turn out ok la...hahaha...i hope my pic taken is nice though....i think i'm gonna but a pretty box like what i have for my sec school...then i'll put all the memoriable things abt poly into them....wah...10 or 20 years down the road...it'll be so fun to bring them out and see them again.....hahahaha

now that grad is over...my next big thing is enlistment...ppl keep trying to remind me its 2 wks time...and i keep trying to forget that....but oh wells...whats gotta come still gotta come....so lets just hope for the best la....hahaha....yup....

ok..thats all for now...seeya

p.s. my lovely honeys in MB0503...and MB....congrats...and the best of luck to wherever you might go.....

love,

your nanny always

i'm gonna kill myself if i turn out ugly tmr!!!

2008-05-20T12:28:00.000-07:00

hihi...so....its nearly 3.30 a.m. in the middle of the night and here i am doing my blog post....argh..i wished i could be sleeping away on my bed rite now but unfortunately...it just seems like something is keeping me from sleeping....if i turn out ugly for tmr grad's ceremony...i'm am so so gonna kill myself...

so anyway....tmr is my big day.....3 years mounting and boiling down to just 1 day...1 moment...for me to officially graduate with my diploma in hand...oh wells.....very fast actually...everything seems so current..its like the feeling i have when i'm getting out of sec school...hahaha..i think i just went from my freshman orientation last month.....haha....and tmr...i'm finally graduating from NYP with a DIPLOMA IN MOLECULAR BIOTECHNOLOGY....phew....thank god i survived it.....

haha...alrite...i think thats it for now...

man v.s. nature....

2008-05-15T03:42:00.000-07:00

ok...its very unusual for me to make 2 posts in a day...but oh wells...this post is just an immediate feeling i have.....over the past few days...i know of the different natural calamities over asia.....the cyclone in myanmar....the earthquake in china....and yes...i'm sure we have all heard of it...but when i saw a special report made for the earthquake just now...my nose felt sour...and i felt like crying.....(yes...my sentimental-selve is in control again)......

there is abt this news where a young school boy was stucked waist down rite under a pile of debris yesterday and there is no way for them to save the young boy by moving away the large slaps of concrete...a little mistake can cost that young boy his life...so the doctors made a painful but necessary decision...they decided to amputate the boy then and there....there goes a possible healthy life and disable free life of a children less than 10...this i'm sure...is not going to be the only child that would suffer from the same fate....the whole province of sichuan is so devasted that they actually called some parts of it totally demolished into piles and piles of debris......there are old grandmothers for the sake of trying to keep their grand kids alive...digging under the debris to find bits and pieces of food to feed them......local hospitals are also resduced to dirts and dust and ppl have to lie down on the ground to await medical help.....newborns were delivered rite then and there in the and placed on the dirty floor......

hell...would be the word or perhaps even an underestimation to describe the sight.....

ppl say in times of death....the very true fundamentals of love can be seen.....there's a couple who used their own bodies to block a wall slamming down just so that their precious daughter can be saved and by then....exchanging their lifes for that of their daughter right in the face of death....

we human beings always try out very best to be in the top of the world...to rule over all other species and even our own kind...but in the face of mother nature....we are just spawns......i can't help but wonder....how many people's life would be changed right from then.....perhaps...in sichuan....their lives would never be the same again.....

p.s. life is so precious...yet so fragile... and while you still have one...cherish it.....

i finally got my computer back....

2008-05-14T17:27:00.000-07:00

hihi....now if you ppl have been wondering why i haven't been online for the past week...thats becos i went to service my computer that took that 1 week to get fixed...finally...after all the turmoils...i finally got it...hahahaha...but first..let me go thru wat happen last week....

thurs...its out with little rascals to go back school and collect our robes for grad.....while i was trying to fit into one of them...i suddenly got a feeling to sing the church songs...hahaha..cos i look so much like those ppl in the church choir in that robe....but anyway...we went to marina square to have out dinner..and of cos on the way...we all joked and laughed.......at marina square....we were so lost at what to eat...then we went into secret recipe....hahaha...we were so turned off by the menu that we just stood up and left already.....hahaha...then we went to swensens...which obviously have a much better range of menu....then we left off from there...and i went off alone after parting with the rest.....

fri...it was a busy day...went to SGH with my grandma for her checkup....then to chinatown for snacks...then brought my uncles laptop to hp for servicing (yes....2 laptops were spoiled almost at the same time).......then vivo to meet my darls to celebrate jas bday...dinner was at....secret recipe (so kill joy rite...after what i had the day before)....but still we chatted and bitch around...ppl were late all over nite...haha..nicholas held the record..cos in the end...we dissuaded leenx and hawa to come.....we went home str8 after that...cos everyone wasn't in the mood of doing other things...hahahaha....

sat...was nice...celebrated mother's day with my grandma at ah yat...the food...although spicy but not bad.....then we went suntec and shopped around...and bought a present for my grandma...hahhaa....after that...went carrefour to shop around..and then home...then to a new restaurant at thomson road to continue out mother's day rendevous....hahah..then went home...bored again by the fact that i have no com...haha...watched tv..and went to bed....

yesterday....went to temple in the morning and pray..accidently made a huge mistake...swap the divinations of my sis with mine...and therefore everything that was said yesterday weren't right...hahaha....oppps...sorry...so i guess...i'll have to do it all over again the next time i go bugis.....then i went to collect my com at jurong....while i was trying to press the button to cross the street...a stupid honda SUV...9678 i think...drove pass at high speed and spattered all the water over to my clothes.....i was fuck all the way....i got so pissed....that i actually used all the vulgar words i have and start swearing....hahaha....thankfully....no one heard me....hahaha....then..i went home...to go to ubi from there...to help a very very distant related person to take over a shift at a tuition centre....everything ended at 8...and i finally got to go home....hahahaha....

okok..thats all i have to say for now...seeya!!!

another phase of my life....wow...

2008-05-05T21:22:00.000-07:00

ok...i'm in my mum's office now blogging....yup..i know its wrong...but oh...no one is in the office except me and my mum's boss becos everyone seems to have gone out for lunch....although i'm getting paid to sit here and do nthg...i reckon that doing a little blogging won't hurt...besides its not that i dun want to work...there is nthg for me to work...haha...is it time for me to feel a little guilty???

anyway...the past week have been kinda ok for me...lots of anxiety stress...but nthg much...most of the things that i should do has been solved..so in some way..its a relieve for me as well...the only last thing in my list is NS....today i have finally manage to plot it as something in my life...not as something horrible....but as something more netural....another phase...a new phase that everyone (i mean every singaporean guy) has to go thru....oh wells...maybe seeing things this way would be a much better way for me to accept the fact that less than 1 month time...i'd be going into that phase which will last 2 years....its a good thing you know there's a deadline to that phase...at least you know that no matter what....you only need to suffer for 2 years and u can come out of it....hahaha....

you know its like taking O levels....before you take it you are so damn nervous...and you find everything so difficult....but after the O levels you look back and you find out that its actually quite ok at the very least...its over already....hahaha....maybe NS is like that for me....once i'm over it....i can look back and tell myself all that worrying is really uncalled for....hahaha...lets hope so....

oh wells...now its time for me to really enjoy that final holidays i have before NS...becos after that....i dun think i'll ever have a chance to take such a long break in the next 2 years......

tataz

p.s. i'm finishing most of the dramas i want to watch...anymore recommendations???

there is something about my life that i really dun like now....

2008-04-27T05:19:00.000-07:00

i dunno if anyone of you have got this kind of feelings before...that you just think your life is so stuffy...so trapped...so not going accordance to your way....and you just want to jump away and hide from it all.....

well for me...it has been especially like that since 2 years ago......something i've done made me go very very paranoid...and frankly until now...i'm still feeling so...and its not getting any better....sometimes i just wish that if time can be turned back...i would so never do the thing i did...and perhaps...that would make my life much much more carefree......

i loved my life the best when i was in secondary school...things were so simple and perfect that....nthg much to worry abt...no money troubles...no growing up fears....no resentment in going to NS and spending 2 freaking years there......no paranoia.....no stress...nothing..nothing at all....the only thing that i need to worry is study well to get good grades....and i still get to do carefree things that i want to do.....

but now...life is increasingly getting on my nerves...and i dun like it.....i know its part of growing up...but i dun want to grow up...i want to be able to still lead my carefree life and just enjoy it all....worries...worries....its something that i would have never want to ask for in the first place....

the more i go into this post...the more i felt like crying....there are far too many things i want to take in now....as much as a strong and matured person i am in the outside....i do still deeply want to be that 15, 16 year old child where life was easy and fun.....but i guess...its all not going to come my way.......

i read thru the posts that i started writing when i'm just fresh out of sec school..waiting for my results....the way i tone...the writing is so cheerful...so lively...so happy and so no worries....but now....just look at this post...isn't it getting a little too sad...too pathetic....

i seriously dun look forward to my 20th bday...cos that means i'm 1 year older...and 1 year into my freaking journey of my life......

p.s. growing up has its perks....but they do not come cheap.....

i'm worried....and i dun noe what i'm worrying abt....

2008-04-25T06:18:00.001-07:00

i am worrying abt things i dun even know why i'm worrying...in fact i'm worrying things that are not even known to me.....argh...i HATE GROWING UP....sometimes...i'm just so jealous of sab...its always nice staying in sec school stage....

p.s. i am having PNS too....Pre-National Service Stress......and i had the most horrible 24 hours!!!!

6 weeks to enlistment.....haiz...mixed feelings...

2008-04-17T17:09:00.001-07:00

oh wells...this morning...my mum gave me a shocking news....hahaha....all my hopes in finding a job to suffice my shopping desires have just been pronounced gone......becos i'm getting enlisted in 5th June 2008.....gosh....this 2 months i've been complaining about when's the letter coming...i want to now....so that i can i can plan my work schedule.....but now that the date is here...its kinda weird....you know...mixed feelings...thats what i will call it....

its kinda scary....exciting...lost...confused...nervous...feeling unprepared all at the same time.....oh wells...i guess....thats pretty normal rite??....hahaha..or am i the special 1???....2 years without having to think what clothes to buy for whichever function i'm going...hahaha...or 2 years without buffet hi-tea cos i ain't going to have the time to do that.....no lazying around at home watching tv...cos i'll be getting as much sleep as i could.....god...those 2 years...i feel like crying now..but i got no tears....hahhaha...

i think i've been telling everyone that....NS is those kind of things that you are already being instilled into the mind since the very very start....and hence....it like a slient blow....you know something big is happening for yourself....but yet....it doesn't impact you as strong as it should be......haiz...well..the only thing i can do now is to get prepared for NS by training up...hahhaa...so..next week onwards...i'm starting my training.....

ok..thats all...tataz...

p.s. 2 years of my life....devouting to emptiness....hahahaha

my very first public video debut.....hahahaha

2008-04-17T04:10:00.000-07:00

guess what...i'm going into big screen now....hahahaha....went back to school today to do a video for the graduation ceremony...hahaha...had 3 takes in there....rather funny....so hopefully the effect will turn out well....hahahaha....

this week is a week of interviews for me...hahaha....i have gone to 3 interviews already...erm...there's a job that i'm really interested in which is at outram that side....hopefully i'll land that job down ba....

ok..thats all....

p.s. dan: i manage to save some reputation afterall
sab: haha...sorry..i didn't land the tutoring agency's job......

i thot i should blog this down....

2008-04-08T08:13:00.000-07:00

for a person who spent his entire childhood in chinatown.....i'm used to seeing old aunties and uncles collecting cardboard or newspapers along the roads of chinatown...for me its something that i have seen too many times.....and thats why...i dun feel anything weird or peculiar becos that was what i've seen since i'm small....and hence..i never wanted to know the actual story behind it cos its just a plain normal sight...all i know was that these elderly have no kids take care of them and they depend on the money from selling the cardboard to keep themselves alive...sometimes i pity them..but seldom would i feel like there is something that i can do to help them.....

but today...something in me told myself that maybe perhaps...i could do something...i was watching channel 8 program about the story on these old ppl going around to collect cardboards....and then i started to see the familiar sight that i've always seen since i'm a little kid.....and the story behind them....sometimes...i really wonder...what if i'm not born into a family that i am in now...what would my life have been in different.....i look at the tv screen..seeing those elderly going around collecting the cardboard...i asked myself...if i'm them..would i be able to do it as well....my answer is very simple....I CAN'T....

they do not accept any help from the government...becos they believe that as long as they are still able to work...then they can take care of themselves....but for me..i dun think i would be able to survive one day in their shoes....not to say their entire life....hmmm....maybe when i go back to chinatown the next time...i'll a good look and these ppl...and admire their will power and perserevrence....who knows...i might even lend a helping hand (monetary wise)....

k..thats just a small little thot...

my shopping list....

2008-04-08T01:35:00.000-07:00

ok..i'm bored at home..and i've been browsing thru the different catalogues i have...so with that i have came up with a list of things i would so love to have before the end of this year....yeap!!!!

1. Casual Loafers (one that fit..yiwen and jo will understand my agony)

2. New Scent (Hugo Boss is getting out of my league...haha)

3. A nice polo-tee with details that i saw in Haji Lane (but first..i have to slim down)

4. Cool Shorts (there're my best companions)

5. New Accessories (its been ages since i bought new ones but i would have to slim down first)

6. Bag (Still torn if i should go for high-end or the middle ranges...)

7. Slimming pills (if i can't slim down even after NS...haha..just an extra precaution)

8. Wallet (something chic but not overly luxurous..hehe....)

9. Straight cut jeans (err...but i doubt my fat thighs can fit into it)

10. t-shirts (something body-hugging i hope...again...my figure is a pre-requisite)

11. dirty button shirts (like the one i have from pull and bear....yeap..)

12. I-phone?? (i may not be able to fully utilise it...haha..but it makes a great fashion accessory)

13. A.O.T (i.e Anything Other Things.....)

hahaha...ok...as all of you can see...most of these cost a bomb..so i'd have to go get a job to support my desire of these items...haha..looking for one now..so if there is any lobangs that you have..pls tell me!!!!!.....

ok..thats all...now lets hope someone can help me fulfill this shopping list...if you want to buy me presents...this would be the gage...hahaha....

p.s. ppl who visits my blog...hehee...go back to yours and write a shopping list down as well...yeap..that include you who is reading this!!!!!

weex.....redang trip report.....

2008-03-30T21:20:00.000-07:00

hi ppl....its been a while...haha..anyway...i just came back from a 3 day trip to redang island in malaysia..with my darls...ved...yiwen..glad..jas..gigi..jo and her bf....erm...overall out of 10...i'll give it a 7 cos 3 points were deducted due to some unhappy incidents such as getting seasick and puking....taking a bumpy ride to and fro from there...etc.....haha....

the highlight of the trip is the snorkelling ride...you really get to swim next to the fishes....and its not like those kind of feeling in underwater world...its really the very shiok feeling.....haha....i tried to swim all the way to the deeper region where the gang are...but water keep getting into the equipment so i gave up...haha..becos i feel very very uncomfortable when water gets into my eyes and nose...so i swim at the shallower waters....but i walked all the way to the jetty where the deeper waters are to take pictures...haha..and oh..jas had to practically drag me back when i'm done taking the pics...hehehe....jas..its a nice workout rite???

other than that...its basically very relaxing..i get to read a book at the balcony with sea view...some mahjong game with i won 3 times in a row....hahaha...so shiok although i eventually lost a little to jo.....all the meals were included in the package and its buffet style...but its not exactly those buffet you expect in hotels in S'pore...the food is not really that fantastic...but still edible..and there are malaysians who gorge like hell over there...haha.....the rooms are very decent...clean..and everything is working...so its not that bad....i bunk in the same room with yiwen and ved....and i finally know how slow guys can be when getting ready....haha..imagine the girls all done waiting for 2 guys to kick start the activities....hahahaha.....i didn't sleep alot cos i still miss the bed at home..but i got decent sleep...and i missed the sunrise over thaer...the first time was becos i had no one to go with...and the second was becos the clouds blocked the sun...so sad....

its really fun enjoying that days with my darls....we toked alot...joked alot...and its really relaxing...maybe we should do something like that every year...but pls...lets so somewhere where we can take a very relaxing flight.....hahaha

p.s. i strongly recommend ppl who can take long hours and travelling...able to take the risk of getting sea-sick to go there....the snorkelling trip is worth it!!!!!

well....i guess...thats it....

2008-03-18T14:26:00.000-07:00

hey yo...i know i'm known for being an earlier waker...but today is far to early for me to wake up under normal standards....its like 5.30 a.m. in the morning now...and i woke up just to check my final sem results...thats all....hahaha....

well...i thot my IAP itself would be considered as a module for the module credits computation and it turned out that it didn't...and i thot they should...cos IAP performance is really also an reflection of how did we perform in the organisation and is a reflection of what we have learnt in school....but well...since they decided to only use my FYP results...hmm...i guess...i can't do anything much abt it rite??....as to how did i do for my final sem....i would say...well within expectation.....slightly higher than average but still considered lower when you compare me with the brainy ones...haha....but at least my GPA look very very very much nicer now compared to what i had in yr 1.......

i was looking at the results for all my sem, it turned out that actually...my yr 1 dragged my results the most....if i hadn't scored so poorly for both of my chems...then my GPA would not have been that difficult to raise for the past 2 years.....haiz...but i guess...i only have myself to blame ya...i studied chem like how i studied bio...and just like how you cannot learn math by reading...i scored poorly like nobody business....oh wells...i guess...i would have to repeat that chemistry nightmare again when i take U....which now....i got a strong feeling that i'm going to take overseas one...or a local private U (cos i just cannot survive outside without my family)....hahahaha.....anyways..i kinda decided which one to go already....PSB academy ba...get a degree from UWA....not too bad as well....hahaha...at least the position in the world's ranking is higher than NTU...hahaha....64 v.s. 69....haha..so..hmm..i guess..i'll go take that degree ba...something abt genetics perhaps..cos rite now...its my strongest subject......

anyways...studies aside...i've been rotting at home quite alot..and i think i'm just beginning to be very lazy...haha...so i'd need to start to look for a part-time job with flexible hours...cos i dun want to spend too much time in working at offices which needs me to spend my full day there...flexible hours are good...haha..at least i can have some personal time in between.....

ok...thats all for today....see ya....

p.s. if you want to know my results..haha..have to come ask me personally...and if you want to know the ranking of the UNIs in the world....come find me also.....

AND....NYP...I'M FINALLY DONE WITH YOU!!!!!!!!!......YEAH!!!!!!!

well....really how gracious are we????

2008-03-03T06:08:00.000-08:00

hello...i'm dropping by just to blog abt something i saw today.....i was with my grandma having lunch at a cafe in my neighbourhood....it was during lunch hour and so the place is crowded with ppl.....so as i was sitting down enjoying my fried rice with chicken cutlet and my grandma enjoying her curry chicken (she didn't like it at all)......i saw something very very....erm lets just say ungentlemen....

there is a table for 4 that is empty and no one is took it cos the ppl just finished their food and left...and so it empty....so there came by this old lady(around my grandma's age) walking towards the table and just as she wanted to put her bag down....this middle age man come walking and placed his butt so ever fast that the lady can hardly react...the poor lady tried to reasoned out with him that she really did want to sit but the guy just refuse to give up that seat to that poor lady.....the lady said that she has 3 ppl seating down for lunch and would really appreciate if she can have the seat even though that guy really did sit down first....but guess what...that uncle said....well i've got 3 more others joining him later...so look for a seat somewhere else........that lady had no choice but to hunt for another seat by which fortunately...she found one...rite at the table beside me....thank god....

this made me really think....that uncle...dun have that little sense of empathy or even that little gentlemen like in him to call himself a man......so what he sat first...so what he had 1 more person taking the table than the old lady......the old lady did walk all the way and when she wanted to sit down...you just happily place your god damn butt to the chair and claim the seat rightfully yours no matter how the lady reason...you just refuse to give up that seat.....haiz...i guess that wat the modern society taught the ppl....fend for yourself no matter what.....

but really is there such a need...sometimes...giving ppl a little leeway...or just giving up a little bit won't hurt...in fact it can even make a great day for another person....haiz....selfishnesss...i guess....thats what its called...

thats all...bye...

p.s. the old lady made a very very true comment at the end...'i hope he'll not enjoy his meal'.....yeah...god damn he won't!!!!!!!

haha...that would so explain myself to all of my friends.....haha

2008-02-27T06:14:00.000-08:00

Your Brain is 80% Female, 20% Male

Your brain leans female

You think with your heart, not your head

Sweet and considerate, you are a giver

But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

What Gender Is Your Brain?

its over...or at least i think so

2008-02-22T03:13:00.000-08:00

its still awhile more before dinner..and so..i thot i should come here and just blog down how i feel now before i forget it later on....

less than 2 hours ago, i officially ended my IAP in EHI...which means...yep...i have finish all my curriculum in school.....it was really nice working in EHI..there's the all tastes of life...the spicy..the bitter..the sweet and the sour....although it does not make up a part of my fondest memories...it left a deep mark somewhere in my heart...my first job...my first ever job that does not have any family members as my boss....so..its really a special kind of experience for me....

today..i had lunch with my colleagues...its very sweet of them to treat me to lunch at crystal jade...and i really thank them not only for the lunch...but also for all the fond memories i have.....then i rushed back to school...spoke to dr. liang and dr. mao...then rushed back to office to hand up the official report...and just tie up the loose ends....so its no before long that i said goodbye to everyone....one of the senior staff actually gave me an angbao...and she said, "take it..its for good luck"....oh wells...i'll keep the packet...at least it reminds me of my life there.....then i said goodbyes to everyone...and left....i turn back...and everyone looked at me...waved...and i turn back lifting forward again...in my heart...some strong emotions just urged up....i guess...i'll miss this place....cos i've worked 6 months there afterall....and it does holds a special place in my heart....so...yeah...

i took the shuttle bus..just when i reach my bus-stop..i found out that my thumbdrive is still in the office...god...i scramble to call my friends to keep the thumbdrive for me...haha....see la...wanted to make a great exit...then become so forgetful....haha....i just found out that i left my calculator there as well....hahahahaha.....

now that its over...i have to hate but to think abt my grades....i wonder how did my supervisor grade me...i hope its good...but i also know that my boss have her very own principles and standard which i must say...its not easy to get...so...ha...ok la...maybe i'll have some slight chance of getting A.....

alright thats all for now...see ya!!!

p.s. ruth...yee ling....sook cheng...jes..ade...grace...irene...chin han...vivien...li kiang...kwoon yong...swee ling...sharon(s)....christina...lao ban...jennifer...hui leng..bevs...monica...zainab...joe...mrs lam..mdm foo...john..calvin...mr png...goran...relus...chenny...auntie and uncle...plus the bibis......thank you for those 6 months that i've worked with......i'll always remember that...THANK YOU!!!!

time to clear some dust....

2008-01-27T05:43:00.000-08:00

hello....i guess i haven't been blogging often (sab must be saying...yaya)...in anycase..today i'll do a long post....

counting down to my final 4 weeks here in EHI....time flies ya....going to be 24 weeks over there already....learnt quite alot....but now..its time to settle down to do concentrate in doing my reports and all....let's hope its going to be a good one cos i'm depending on this final sem to pull up my GPA grades...haha...crossing my fingers....

been very good boy....haven't been spending these 2 weeks despite all the new year sales....haha...i guess some of my friends will know why i'm not spending...haha....in anycase...i guess i still have to go shop for 1 or 2 pair of shorts.....and maybe one more pair of show....i'm going to buy a little more this year cos its like going to enter NS....buy more clothes cos i dun think i'll have that much opportunities to go shopping as often as i am now already...haix...tok abt NS....i dun think i'm really ready for it though...its those kind of things that you know is ineminent...and its going to come...but you just dunno what to do abt it....i guess...now...its start to slim down first...then see what happens after all of that....

anyway...this few days....my paranoia self is taking most control of myself...haha..dunno why...but its like that la....can't help but think abt bad things that are going to happen to me and my family....but i guess my optimistic self is taking control back already..so its not going to be that bad afterall....haha...afterall...i'm still an optimistic person...i guess....

i'm sure you know human beings always going for things that was never meant to be yours....like the grass is greener on the other side....and so you keep hoping to go over and take what was never meant to be yours????....i guess...as i grow older..i really have this feeling....trying so hard to take or possess things that was never meant to be....and even though i know its was never meant for me....and never will it ever be meant for me...but i still want to try....i still grasp that little hope that someday...what is not mine might be able to become mine.....what i need is for this grasp to loosen.....and in a way....letting it go....cos letting others go in your heart...is letting yourself go.....letting yourself off this vicous cycle....only then its the way to freedom in the maze.....

i know all these things...i really do....but what happens when the grasp is harder than you think it is???...what happens when you dun even want the grasp to loose....becos you so dearly struggle to not let it slip away.???......sometimes i really wish someone can just come and take that thot away from me...cos really...i'm telling you..its not a good thot....its not something nice....its something silly...something that you never ever want to in your life to appear again.....but still you want it....you want that thot to realise....haix....thats how bad the thot is....now...i guess...selective memory loss would proof to be a very good illness to have in this context...haha....so can someone go try to develop this technology???

ok..thats all today...hope its long enuf.....

ah bao...next time i free then i relink you la....

p.s. its hard to quit....not quitting is even harder

still learning....so...pls...guide me along the way and keep it coming...

2008-01-04T05:24:00.000-08:00

these few days was demoralising at work...maybe its becos i'm working side by side with my boss...and so..it makes it seems like i'm very stupid at times...haha....but in anycase....today...my grandma and my boss told me something about myself that perhaps i myself didn't know abt as well....

they both told me to learn how to listen to other ppl advice at times.....let down my own prejudice or opinions and really process what other ppl tell me....i always deemed myself as a good-listener.... but perhaps..i'm not that good at listening as well...or perhaps...i should really start listening and actually think about what other people say to me....

i think...ever since i'm in secondary school...somehow...i'm too trained to listen to myself only...and so when ppl give me advice that i do not sought for...i shut out those words.....i guess...i must really learn how to listen to others and really.....process them before making any other mistake.....

come to think of it...i think i really learnt alot during my attachment...not only abt the science techniques...but also the way a working life is....i think i'm too protected already...i have never ever in my life work for someone else...all the part-time jobs i take are either at my auntie's company or my godfather's shop....haha...so...they didn't really expose to me the world outside....its really now that i'm doing my IAP that i understand what is it like to have a real boss...listen to instructions...and working....the human aspect which i have never ever encounter before....and so i guess..i'm still learning along the way....for now...i need to learn how to listen....what comes next..i dunno...but i'm happy to learn them all.....

haha..okok..thats all..tataz!!!!

p.s. sab...see i also got update my blog one hor....

food fight...with choc cake...at muzzie's bday...

2007-12-19T19:01:00.000-08:00

yesterday was a surprising day..got a present from my boss early in the morning which kinda surprise me a little...haha..for a moment i thot it was a prank...but anyway...thank you so much for the christmas gift....then...we had a year end party yesterday...lots of food...i was so so bloated that i could puke....haiz...sometimes i just can't stop doing things that i have to stop doing...eating for instance is one of them...haha...

at night we went out to celebrate muzzie's bday at simei yesterday...have to go all the way from buona vista....but since its where the bday girl wanted..then ok lor...haha...when we were there..we had 2 choices...steamboat or western food...i happily supported western food..cos i was still very full from the previous meal..and didn't feel like having steamboat that is going to ruin my throat....haha....so....in the end...we had western food....now...hold on to your seat..cos i'm abt to say what i ate....i ONLY ATE A CLUB SANDWHICH...can you believe it???...haha...its like one of those few times i ate so little for dinner...yeah...then was choc cake for the bday girl...which in the end became a food fight...i thot i was save for the day..until they came and attack me..or to be exact..muzzie and heather came to attack me and ah bao actually helped them to block my way...argh...thank god i got strength and i broke off the bundle very soon...but i still got choc on my face...and arms...i'll rmb that...next time...its my turn to attack!!!!

haha..thats all...seeya...

p.s. have a great 20th bday muzzie!!!!

my "CNY...or rather...adding to my wardrobe" shopping list...

2007-12-14T07:22:00.000-08:00

now lets see.....i've got a few new tops...4 to be exact...maybe i'll just get 2 more...1 polo..and 1 button...that should do for my CNY...haha..if they survive not being worn by me for that long that is.....

then bottoms...i need to get perhaps....4???.....2 jeans...and 2...well...lets just say...not decided yet...but definitely those those khaki colour schemes that i have in my existing collection....

some new accesories might me good...perhaps...a necklace or 2...and a new ring....haha....ohoh...a new messenger bag will do quite well as well.....haha....

okok..thats my shopping list so far...so if anyone wants to buy me anything...just work along this line la....hahaha

lalalala...i'm in a very good mood!!!!

2007-12-14T00:04:00.000-08:00

ok...so today..i went back school to do my first FYP presentation....dr.guo's my assessor..and she told us that all 3 of us did very well....means...we'll get to have As....yeah!!!!

and..down at the atrium...they had a tangs bazaar...bought a pair of onitsuka shoes...yeeehhheee....weee!!!!!

i thot i should come here to blog for a while...

2007-12-09T00:38:00.000-08:00

hi ppl....i thot its time for me to do some serious blogging so here i am....well...this week...nthg much at work...i didn't do any serious labwork...and i've been skiving off and i got caught by my boss...she told me off a little...but its still ok...haha....got my presentation done...letting her see tmr..and see how will i fair....

in anycase...yesterday was so shiok...i was at tiong bahru having breakfast and marketing....oooh...so many things to eat...but i choose....lor mee...with shark meats.....so nice....made my trip so worthwhile....then i went to bugis to meet up with my colleagues (or shld i say co-workers)....to buy a farewell gift for one of my colleague who is going to NY....as usual...i was early..this time by like..erm...45 mins...so i went to starbucks first....then i waited and waited and waited...finally...ppl start to come...haha...then we went chilli padi for some good nonya hi-tea before going on our shoppin spree....with 200 bucks budget in hand...we started roaming at raffles city....walked and walked...but nthg to our real liking...so we hit marina....there again...nthg much..and i found out that..not only ppl like me(i meant big size) have trouble buying clothes...the smaller ones as well...some international shops only have M as their smallest size...haha..so ironic...but in any case...we got to nautica and bought a navy blue pullover....then...muji for a pair of gloves....with the majority of the budget still at hand, we went to suntec....finally at suntec...we blew the rest of the budget...

went to crocodile...now..i know..many ppl thinks its a brand for older man...but it turned out that its really trying to get to the younger crowd...went to the store...saw a shirt that really got a lot of meanings..its like pictures of poverty on the shirt...and at the back with very wise words from mother theresa....and best of all...the amount of money we paid for the shirt...goes to the children's foundation directly...so..its like....of course we'll buy...haha..got one for him...and one for me as well....and then...2 shops down...lacoste...haha..we got a scarf for him that goes with the pull over....and then....at precious thots...we met yee ling, chin han and swee ling....so...we decided that we'll meet for dinner after the shopping...they got ahead to get their ipod while me and ruth went to find the perfect box....at citilink mall...we got our box...and we felt so complete...haha...finally everything in the list that we are suppose to get is completed....haha..then we went to magic wok for dinner....by the time we got there..its already coming to 8 plus....we quickly settle down and ordered first....time goes by...food is served..and i'm still chatting with ruth without knowing when the rest will come...cos its very weird when you are occupying a table for 5...when theres only 2 sitting there for a long time...haha...thank god they finally came...well..after dinner....we went back to raffles city...now at there....ruth went off first to get carrots for her rabbits...while me and the girls went a little walking until they are all so tired and i went home....the bus back home sucked....no sits...jerky..and a man that keeps playing hp game and everytime i knock to him and he lose...he'll say f***....not like its my business anyway....

got home..bathed..and slept...

p.s. shopping is fun when you dun have to pay for most of the merchandise

i think i'm suffering from paranoia....

2007-12-04T05:14:00.000-08:00

i dunno if anyone noticed abt me....i'm always double or even triple checking everything i do you know.....and if i dun do that...i'll go and think abt the worse case scenario that can happen should i not do that checking.....i all along didn't had a term to explain that until one day someone from my lab saw me checking the same thing for like the 5th time...then she said...you paranoid ar....

haha...and that was then that i know what is it abt me...yeah..i think i'm a little paranoid you know...haiz....i'm always letting my imagination run wild...things are supposedly or 100% alright kind of things...i'll go and wander with my imagination until it gets very very ugly and someting bad can happen...sometimes i even propose the scene forward until i die becos of it you know....aiyo...my imagination is certainly giving me things that i love and hate....its like a muse to keep me inspired to do things and make ppl laugh...on the other hand..it keeps instill in my those bad omens....

argh...how i wish if i can only have the good part only....i dun suppose that will mean that i'm suffering from any psychological disorder rite....haha....

tataz...

dialogue gossiping.....

2007-11-28T04:18:00.000-08:00

ok...first of all, i need to as a rheotorical qns.....its our course really that difficult????....or did we just manage to survive and live thru it.....haha....i'm asking that becos...that had been the main topic of debate for yr 1 and 2....they are like complaining that there are too many things to do at one time....life is definitely not easy....but think of it....whose life is easy????....

i guess...its just life la...things only gets more and more diff as you go ma....thats why this place is call poly....not sec or pri school what.....how can you ever grow up to a better person if you dun pass thru those hurdles......its like only mid sem...and you ppl are complaining like hell...just imagine the end of the sem...when all the reports and projs start crashing to you...not to say preparing for the exam....haha....aiya...just learn to live thru it la...so many of us did.....no matter how much you complain...you are not going to change the fact that its going to be like that...reports...projs...and heavy modules...if complains actually work.....trust me....all of the complains i made is enuf to waive off the projects already.....so...just live with it la...and you'll get thru and become a better person....and oh...stop comparing us with other polys...cos we are just different....in case you dunno....we are NYP...and they are not....besides..we are better than them in alot of ways....hahaha.....

today...some lecturers got shot as well....surprisingly...i didn't shoot anyone this time...the other did.... guess....one of the MBID lecturer got shot the worse la....but i think the fault is not entirely hers also...its definitely not something she wants anyway....the other modules went very well with her also what....cut her some slack la......at the least....tell her personally....then tell the senior ppl...get her mentally prepared anyway.....haha....i dun think she is going to take it into heart so deeply anyway.....hehe.....

okok...thats all for my dialogue gossiping....tataz...

p.s. there are other things i want to blog...but not really in that good mood...so..next time la huh

my stars...from glad's blog

2007-11-24T06:31:00.000-08:00

Lets101 Quizzes - blog quizzes

while waiting....here to blog...

2007-11-10T20:19:00.000-08:00

blogging has seemed to be a more increasing thing that i'll do only when i'm free...haha...yeah...especially after starting on my IAP....i only use my com only during the weekends....its been a chore for me to on my com after i get hom from work....in anycase...here i am to blog....

its a sunny day today...haha...a perfect day for furniture shopping...if anyone ever rmb...how i have manage to break my bed...so this time...i'm going to IKEA or COURTS to get a bed...and shun bian look for some inspiration for redecorating my room in the near future....haha....

anyway...i'm very well suited into the crowd at work already...ppl are nice...and i've got to know a few close co-workers...haha...now they have manage to get me to do something that neither my darls...my classmates..or family has gotten me to....that is to exercise...somehow...haha...yaya...i've been playing squash....going jogging with them already...haiz...i guess..this would be a sign from the divine intervention to get me started on exercising...haha....

i think its last week...i went out with the little rascals...was suppose to go sakura but in the end went ramen tan..and took super super long to get seats...finally...we ordered and thankfully despite of the full house, our food came pretty fast....we ate..and walked our way to heeren, balcony...which i did 2 things to embarass myself....ordered virgin magarita when all of the first are drinking something alcoholic....haha...then....making mistake that i actually tendered a 100 dollar note when its only 50 and in the end...dan had to save me....haha...oops...never mind la...it was so dark there...i can hardly see a thing ma....hehe.....

haha...okok..thats all for now...see you again...soon!!!!

cleaning up my blog....haha....this is a very very very long post....

2007-10-27T07:21:00.000-07:00

while i'm waiting for my face cream to take effect and my show to load....i shall do a little bloggin to clear my the dust for the past 17 days that i have left it here......

alrite...lets start of with work....things are going along fine....getting more and more adapted to it already....but still finding it hard to resist lying in bed than waking up to go to work every morning....haha....in any case....i've got to know all of my colleagues at work better already....which is a good sign until i offended one with my words again....opps...i didn't really mean it...haiz...but its all over now...so...nthg much to think about rite???....wore a perfume to work yesterday..and my colleague told me it stinks and smell like a middle aged man....god...i have to go and get a new one already...to think that i have been using it for so so long....haha....

last week was heavy...really heavy partying for me....went to alec's place last fri for some partying....god...its like liberation after one day of work....haha...all the bitching and seeing ppl drink...played a little mahjong(not very shiok though)....haha....stayed around until 12 plus when geraldine's dad came and i got a ride home....thanks uncle(again)......by the time my whole pre-bed ritual (if there is such a thing) is done....its already like 1....haha...its been a long long time since i slept so late....

the next morning...i woke up around 10...got ready to leave the house and met glad(with someone else)....to go get presents for ppl whom we are celebrating bday and late-bdays for....got jo her tee that she wanted from mango....and well....as for ved...let's just say....it ran out of stock...so...we'll have to go hunt for another one....but dun worry ved...i already have in mind what i want to get for you already...haha...and its not a book....ok....so...after that...i did a little shopping of my own and bought the mr tee that i have been looking for since dunno when...got it...so its one item lesser on my shopping list....okok...then met up with ved and drove to pasir ris...things were so funny in the car...haha....missed an exit at TPE...but still manage to arrive at the place....aiya...jo's bf left just when i reach..can't even get to say hi and see him in real person...what shocking is that i saw a very slim and fit kenny.....and he became so gentlemen and matured....and i'm so not used to it.....haha....with everyone beginning to slim down...looks like i'll have to to...haha...so lets go for it together jas!!!!!.....and jo got me a massager for my day...so sweet...thanks!!!!

after that was usual bbq stuff....untill after that....me...ved...glad...shikai...jia xian and kenny get on board and go see the night life of singapore...haha...since we are all at pasir ris....of course...the first stop is changi village.....and yes...it is the FIRST time i've gone there at night...so...for ved and those suspecting individuals who thinks that i practically live there...you are wrong......anyway....toured around...but only saw one....haha...very scary already....since there is no more show there....we went to the next night spot...at geylang...haha...we were laughing and joking around there....saw the...erm..what i would call the 'practicioners' there...haha..and i saw some young guys...not bad looking..and i would guess eligible guys going there as well.....the point is...are they really that in need to go there to seek their relief....haiz...i guess...thats what are men detoriating to be...so ladies.....beware!!!!.....haha....then...we went to beach road to see...but there's no show there...so too bad....finally it was clark quay where we have a drink and ved sent us home 1 by 1.....passed by our secondary school.....and all that chatting with our ex-classmates(now good friends)....makes me think of my sec days....those good old days...that we all regretted not treasuring it and appreciating it better then.....really...if you let me choose a part of my life for me to re-live again....that will be it...my 4 no worries years at sec school...things were much more simpler and innocent then.....and then i can do things more carefreely and fun.....its like....as i grow up...i started to miss those time....i can bitch, gossip, command and most of all....live freely then.......well....i know...that that is a part of my life that i can never go back to again....but i'm always grateful becos at least i have all the years in the future that i can use to saviour the memories i have in those days and good friends to share it with......ok...back to blogging....so..of course i reached home very late with all the partying...and went to bed at 3.....haha....thank god there isn't much for me to do on sunday...and i took the monday off as well...so...its kinda good afterall....

it was working on all day.....until thurs that i took a little short jog with my colleagues chin han and swee ling after work around the biopolis area....haha....we made fools out of ourselves that day....god....but we discovered quite a few places...and its nice...so...its kinda enriching for me...although the way back was alittle eerie la....haha....yesterday..went out with yeeling and chin han after work...walked around....spent money buying masks again...i just can't restrain myself....god.....hehe....i dun understand why does all of them keep looking after me like i'm their little brother....i'm old enuf...ppl are calling me uncle already(i shall talk about that when ppl start asking me).....today..went buffet (there goes my diet) with my auntie and grandma with sis.....after that went to walk around at suntec....haha....bought a ring...at a good price...and went carrefour to buy ingredients to cook up the lunch on monday....yes...i'm bring some to my work place...haha.....alrite...then....went home....all the way...until now i'm blogging...

thats all for now...see ya!!!!

i've been walking on the earth for 19 years already...can you believe me???

2007-10-10T06:06:00.000-07:00

hihi....as of today...i have been living and breathing on this earth for 19 years already...haha...well..let me start with some thank you speech shall i???....hmmm..let me see...first of all, i would like to thank my parents for concieving me 19 years and 40 weeks ago....haha...without them...i wouldn't even be here.....haha...then of course my mum...who has been putting me and my sis always b4 herself....and my grandma....she has been taking care of me for all of my life....my sis...for the laughing and angry moments that we had when we are growing up together....my aunties who dotes me alot....and of course...all my friends...classmates and darlings out there.....all of you make my life complete.....!!!!...yeah!!!!!!!

anyway....i have been working at EHI for 1 month already......well...i didn't really learn any hardcore lab skills or techniques for the past 1 month...in fact...i haven't even used a micropipette for all of my stay at EHI....haha...but well...i know alot of other friends and learn alot of other things that is rather challenging for me...hahaha....you all have to know that i haven't been working in the real world for a long long time....in fact...its not at all b4 lor...haha....

okok...thts my bday post...haha...tataz...

thank you everyone who had wished me bday...one way or another either by sms....msn...friendster...mail...phone...or in person...thank you so so so much.....love ya!!!

haiz...troubles troubles...and more troubles...

2007-09-25T23:10:00.000-07:00

blogging in my office now...just got allocated with a laptop of my own in the office that i can use to do some of my work.....in anyway...i'm not here to blog abt this com la...its abt the troubles i face at work...or as my auntie will put it....fumbling at work...the first 2 weeks of work was nice...nthg much to do...so its kinda free for me...my for the past few days at work..i've got into some troubles...ok la..not some..only 2...and one of supervisor colleagues just scared the hell out of me by saying some nasty things to me becos i forget to wear gloves....haiz...i know its not really her fault that she is scolding me...but its not entirely my fault either....its like...i didn't even know that there is serum in there and when i found out that there is serum...i have already picked the vial up.....in anycase...still..she started to scare me by saying what if the person have HIV...then how...i was like...argh...okok...sorry!!!!....haiz...my supervisor came in later and tells me she always exaggerate things...so...dun worry too much...in anycase...the serum is from a child...i dun think the child has HIV yet so early...and there are no open wound on my hands as well....besides...i washed my hands super long after that....haha....but i still need reassurance...hehe...my colleagues helped me out la...thanks to them....

ok..thats all i want to say...so....tataz...

p.s. i'm hypnotising myself that i love my job alot now...haha.....

finally my goal has reached....

2007-09-18T15:22:00.001-07:00

wow....this morning woke up at 6...just in time to view my results...haha...my GPA is finally good now...3.040...ok la...compared to alot of others...its really the lower end of the average...but after my chems in yr 1...they drag me down alot...really alot...like..0.5 of my GPAs....so..it took quite awhile to get up...exactly 2 sems later...i finally got over 3....haha....my goal has seems like its reach...now...i have to work hard and see how my FYP and IAP goes....maybe can get 3.3???...then i'll be really really happy...at least i know i can still stand a slight chance to study in local U....if not...haha...i'll get an absolute sit in the aust. Us.....those that I choose la...haha....

and oh....i was staying with the copier and labelling machines for the past working days of my life...haha...can't start lab work until samples comes in next week....which i'll have to go and collect over the weekends...and today...going to bukit batok (study site)...to give pamphlets....haha...okok....thats all...have to go now..tataz!!!!!

p.s. whoever is up there...thank you for letting me reaching my goal!!!!!! ....now i got a new goal...help me out ya????

work...work..work...i'm like a working adult now!!!!!

2007-09-15T00:13:00.000-07:00

something i wrote last sat....but posted it now...

hihi....wooo...1 week of finish working in EHI...i'm very contented in working with all the experts in epidemiology...haha...actually...i think i'm really better in working real life than studying in school....i've got really nice colleagues to work with and my supervisor is really cool....at least from what i've heard from other ppl....my supervisor seems like the best...haha....grace(my supervisor) will be so delighted if she sees this....

anyway...this week...i didn't really begin in too much lab work...thats becos partly my whole place is busy with the Cubans that came here on a work trip and to attend the seminar and that my supervisor just came in on wednesday so there is nothing much i can do.....so what did i really do??......erm...how about labelling 500 tubes for 4 days...and then reading all about dengue epidemiology....haha...yeah...and on top of that...attended a seminar for like....the whole day...by half of it...i'm all about to sleep already...haahaa....but next week...i'll get to really start work...real lab work...woo hoo...

okok....yesterday i went out with lots of classmates...had Manhattan fish and chips...not really that fantastic...haha..they went clubing later...i went home...hehe...have to sleep la...

p.s. there are other posts also...

my first day of actual..actual work...

2007-09-10T06:37:00.000-07:00

alritey...today i started work...first day of really working in the adult world...and not fun and enjoying my life in my auntie's office or godpa's shop....haha...so..this morning..was a gosh...dreadful morning....firstly..i wore the wrong pants...so i had to go home and change...then when i came out..i missed the bus..have to wait for like 20 mins for the next bus to come....then on the way....it was supposed to be express way ok...but the traffic moves super slowly...gosh...i took the bus that alot of NP students took...haha...now i know why is everyone dosing off..cos they know the bus really takes a long time to travel...the good thing is...i was at the back of the bus and there is this cute guy that sat beside me...very good at dressing himself...haha...his chest muscle is as big as my breast...just that his is muscle...mine's fat....haha....

then it rained...gosh...made the bus even more slow...no choice lor...alighted at the place i'm suppose to alight and took a cab...hail for super long before the cab came...gosh...in the end...instead of being early...i became late..thank god my supervisor is on leave..haha..no one to scold me...

at work..4 of us...one more guy working temp sat together on 1 tiny round table....gosh...so cramped..and the 3 of us..yoges..deng lu plus me have to study biosafety and SOPs all day round...at the end of the day..we still have to take a test lehz...if we never pass...cannot go into the lab...guess whats they passing mark???....80%....haha...tmr i'll know the results...hehe....

okok la..thats basically all for my first day of work...haha...bye!!!!!

shopping makes my world go round....

2007-09-08T18:58:00.000-07:00

my biggest lesson learnt from going shopping with my darls...glad and jo yesterday is that....whereever you go...as long as you are going shopping...never ever wear a pair of uncomfortable shoes...or at least..wear a pair of fitting shoes...haha...glad and jo can testify the fact that i have been complaining abt my pair of shoe for like....the entire shopping trip....

so..in any case...i've finally meet up with jo and glad to do some shopping.....but...eventually i went home empty handed...haha...cos i didn't want to buy and didn't dare to buy....i met up with glad first...went to jalan jalan around bugis junction..and then went to tcc for a drink..they change their menu and now...they dun have anymore sea of gold...i loved sea of gold...now they dun have anymore..looks like its time for me to start looking for another signature drink of mine at tcc....haha...so...jo met up with us after that....and then...we went to bugis village for the shopping spree...with my already screaming feet....haha....so..we walked around..and went to the sunday shop (by now..i've got 6 of their tees already)....jo and glad each bought their own pair of jeans while i didn't think of buying any..cos i didn't really like jeans...but i think i'll buy a pair or two next time i go there.....i want to get the tee that everyone is wearing now..the one on litte miss..and mr tee....argh...they just dun have the guy size at bugis for the mr collection....they only have the guy size for the little miss collection...looks like i really got no choice but to go to heeren mambo and buy from there....then...our stomachs start to grumble...so me and glad brought jo to ice monster to try their mango ice...that is so exotic...and its to die for....after that..we aren't done with the snacks so we moved to long john and had a little platter before going to haji lane....

so..you know...haji lane and ann siang hill now its like the place where to coolest and hippest underground brands are....with lots of nice little boutiques there....so..it was at one of the boutiques that i found those bermuda shorts that i have looking all around..which is not at the high priced end...abt 40plus per pair..and its really nice...but eventually i just didn't have the courage to ask if they have my size..haha...cos i thot..such boutiques..its sure that all of them are going to be clothes that is suited for the fit and lean...haiz...so eventually..i didn't even bother to ask and i left...but i at least know where i can find such places to buy clothes already....and they have all sorts of cafes and resturants there...they even have a egyptian resturant there...haha..next time we can go and try...there...i find lots of nice places to shop...and i think it'll be a heaven for ppl like sab..you can find all your dresses there!!!...haha..next time i bring you there....

so..after haji lane we decided to go back to bugis and walk a little round more before going for dinner...and i am telling you...the dinner food there..is really just ok la...but jo's ramen looks very very not appetising...and then..we went to OG...oh god...jo at OG...keep wanting to get the guess bag...me and glad kinda sucessfully persuaded her to get something else...eventually..she bought a carlo rino bag at 20% off...and it sheek..white...and best of all....cheaper than the guess bag...haha....after that...my bus came..and off i went...haha...so jo and glad have to walk themselves to the other bus stop to take the bus home....

today...i'm at home..watching some shows...enjoying my last day of holiday by rotting...haha...okok...thats all...tataz!!!!!

huge lesson in life...never ever judge a book by its cover...

2007-09-07T08:19:00.000-07:00

hello...i came acrose a RD article that really got me thinking...its abt a girl...1 year older than us....with a very very rare skin genetic disease....harlequin icthyosis(HI)....only 1 in 250,000 babies can have a chance of getting it....basically..this disease causes the skin of the body to grow 14 times faster than normal skin and then you'll be shedding thick thick loads of skin cells...your skin can dry up so fast..that if your skin is allowed to dry...you can't even bend your fingers...so..this poor girl had this disease...and miraculously she survived...having to survive so many ordeals and even get a college degree...most imptly...she is not afraid of being judged...not afraid that people will get disgusted by her and how she looks like....and that she is willing to open herself up to help children of other diseases...and those kids dun ostracised her....how brave and courageous this woman is...i mean...if i were her...i would have locked myself up like a hermit..and never ever get out of the house at all.....

sometimes...its not the disease that is scary..its the way and state of the people's mind that thot about it....and unfortunately...i'm afraid..thats just not something that all of us are born with...we have learnt to developed this sceptical eye at everyone else....those kids dun despise her in anyways...becos their innocent is in the heart and they look at the others with the heart..not their eyes....and that is why children are the most honest and angel like being ever on earth.....which by the way...many adults can't even do that...and i personally...admit that..i'm one of those ppl....haha....especially on the you-know-who.....

ok...enuf abt my values on life...now for something on the more personal level....well..these 2 days...i have been staying at home clearing up all the vids that i haven't got a time to watch them when i am in school...haha..who else has the time to watch them when you are in school..especially when you are in my course....the most scary course anyone could ever attend in NYP...haha...okok...opps...i dun want to get sued....ha...so...i'm on this new series...queer as folk....well..its kinda...erm...not very well known...but its basically a gay version of sex and the city....where they really toked abt the different views and things in life...

so...that was how i spent my last hol week for school....cos next week...i'm starting a 6 mths work attachment at NEA-EHI....haha....and the truth is...i'm not at all prepared for anything...not at all...haha..cos i dunno what is there to prepare....well..i guess...i'm kinda ready for it mentally...and socially...i'm always ready in meeting new friends..and from what i heard abt this place...haha...i'm going to really expand my circle of friends...on some particular side...haha....well...and honestly..i dunno how are things going to be like there...cos for starters...its real life work...not experiments in school...you cannot afford to make mistakes...haha..well...its not that i make alot of them in school...but its just that you know...i dun wanna ruin thousands of dollars worth of experiments....haha....

ok..thats all for today...see ya!!!!

mahjong...east coast..haha....physically and mentally tiring...

2007-09-04T08:11:00.000-07:00

okok...let me start of by reaccounting what i did for the past few days...haha...erm...i was at home all day for thurs thru sun...haha...it was nice staying at home to rot...so shiok..haha..guess it was something that i desperately need after the exams....hahaa

then yesterday morning...made a trip back school..to collect reports and information abt the modules..haha..see i'm such a good nanny....haha...better buy me something for graduation...haha...okok...moving on..after that..i went to geraldine's place for mahjong..i was suppose to meet all of them..heather..geraldine..and sab at northpt....well..as expected...heather and sab was late...why is it that it appears that only a handful of ppl around has the idea of time management....haha...in any case..after everyone came...we went to the foodcourt at northpt to buy food back to geraldine's place so that we can have lunch there and straight away start with the mahjong....haha....and so...mahjong...wooohoooo...it was one of the most glorious victory i've ever won...4 rounds in a row...haha..of course la...it wasn't very professional way of playing that made me won...so..they decided to raise the bar so that i will need to play professionally...then of course..i started losing...but still...geraldine was the biggest loser...at home ground somemore....and oh...before we left at around 7.30...i stole sab's wallet becos she left it lying around...and made her go all the way back to geraldine's place to search for it...haha...me and heather were laughing hysterically...haha...then it was home sweet home...

today....we went to east coast park....gosh...we were suppose to meet at 12.30...and i reached quite at the exact time....then...dan appeared 10-15 mins later...after i finished my big mac meal with upsize....haha...then...by the time..the guys and girls come...it was 1.30...and we finally left at 2 when everyone finished eating...and then we went to rent the bicycle..dan and anwar didn't want to cycle..so they sat there and chit chat while the rest of us go for the main activity of the day...cycling....oh god..the person...who gave me my bike...he is either trying to make me work real hard and lose weight..or he simply hate me...gave me a super short one...and made it so difficult for me to ride..i had to use up all my energy...haha...took some pics at certain stops....and i was totally wasted during the last bit..and i simple gave up riding and started walking instead...haha..then heather called that everyone is now waiting for me..so i had no choice but to ride that slow pace and finally reached for the sugarcane drink...before starting off early so that we will not miss the time to return the bicycle..becos of me of course...haha...

so i had to slowly ride..and finally...gathered myself to return the bike...when i got down the bike...my butt hurts like nobody's business...and my legs were sore...sweat was dripping down my forehead while half of my shirt is wet becos of my sweat..haha...you should have see me then...the word to use on me...was wasted!!!!....haha...so...i dragged my very weary body and went to parkway for dinner...i ordered kauy chap...actually wanted to have 2 bowls of that kuay with at 1 person's share...in the end...haha...something else came out of my mouth..and it became 2 person's share...haha...i had to like...force ah bao to eat some so that i won't look too big like a glutton...haha....and we of course had some fun chat...and then..we walked around the mall....played a stupid drum game..and failed utterly...and had discs with yufang..haha..it was so exciting...in the end..i won!!!!

then..i took bus with yufang...sab...geraldine...elizabeth...heather and her bf...changed 2 buses thereafter..and here i am blogging...haha...

okok..thats all for today..see ya....

lalalalalala.....hehehehehe...hahahahaha...thats my title

2007-08-31T06:25:00.000-07:00

hello...its 9.26 at night and i've got nthg to do around....while waiting for my show to load...i decided to come here and blog abt something....honestly...i dunno what thing am i suppose to blog abt...but i guess...i'll just rattle on like i always did....

i was watching law and order on the hallmark channel just now...that is one hell of a good series...and i've got to say...the deepest heartfelt feeling i had watching the show was not abt the criminals...its abt living with the rightoeus courage that everyone had...i always watched the lawyers trying to get their way thru the attorneys...which is like...hello...your client just killed someone...and you are trying to get him away....is that even..ethical...which by the way...it is...under the law...everyone reserves the right to have a lawyer to defend for them...and the lawyer is suppose to defend their clients...but still...where did all the lawyer's ability to distinguish right and wrong...evil and good go???...is this what they are suppose to do?...helping people who broke the law to get away free...i dun think so...haha..so much so for my childhood dream of becoming a lawyer...looking at those lawyer going into unscruplous means to save their clients....gosh...it just shattered my dream...

toking abt values...i wonder what values are still left on the face of earth that is worth being praised...what has the world become....didn't everyone after WW2 decided that there should be no more war already....and that everyone should be in peace and harmony...then can someone explain to me why is there vietnam war...and the iraq war...actually...this kind of war is something that is the least scary..at least you know where your enemies are...and what are they going to do...but the war against the terroist is totally opposite...we are in the light when they are completely out of sight...and within a moment...boom...there it goes...some car just exploded in the streets of iraq...pakistan..and somewhere else in the world....sometimes i wonder...what the hell is wrong with these guys..who on earth gave them the idea that sacrificing their life to do such idiotic things is meaningful enough....i guess..its something they have been taught and brainwashed with the very day they are born.....but i think...the bottomline is..they are not bad people...they are just trying to protect themselves from being bullied...its just that they way that they engaged in is just to extreme....maybe someday...someone will be able to teach them that actually they can use their life to do something great and good...not by being suicide bombers...but by perhaps..educating or doing businesses and then using their abilities to help their people...isn't that much better....i guess...that someday might never come...but at the very least...there is this piece of hope around....and as long as there is hope...there is still a chance of this world being a better place.....

suddenly...this reminded me of a song by barbra streisand...SOMEWHERE...and maybe i shall leave this song for me to conclude it all....

freedom...lost...lovey birds...

2007-08-29T06:19:00.000-07:00

ok...first of all...i want to make this post shout out loud.....I AM FREE!!!!!!.....yeah...kinda that meaning la...i finally finish my excruciating 2.5 years in NYP...MB course....well...my experience in NYP...is something bitter-sweet...haha...but the sweet part came in more than the bitter ones....studies aside...i've met and know lots and lots of new friends and classmates...of course...all my boys and girls in the class...hope that i've been a nice nanny and took care of them well....haha....not to forget my pal in class... heather...sab...elize...yufang...muz...geraldine and dan...haha....its nice having them as my pals in class...killed alot of boring time in lectures....and definitely...those sweet people from other classes...can't name all of you...but you know who you are...haha...

actually...the thing abt this course is that you must really have the gift for it...and that you are must be persistent enough...haha...if not...its really a dead and dry track to take...really...looking back...thats is the idea that i can gather...each and every component counts..and that you must really work hard for all of them....any slacking...everything is gone...so...my advice to those ppl left...is...hang on...and stay focus...haha...yeah....thats the thing in our line...

other than my classmates and work...i think...i have also know some very wonderful lecturers...a.k...vanaja...jay...micheal...dr.liang...dr.xu..henry..william..miss lim...miss diong...miss tai..miss tan..miss lai...miss chia...dr.chan...miss leong..alvin..and so so much more...thank you for all your lessons...good or bad...exciting or boring...haha...thanks to all of you!!!!!

suddenly...now that all exams comes to an end..and we have to go for attachment...i'm sort of in a mixed feeling...on one end...happy that all the studying in NYP is over and that we can take a break in IAP...and on the other...a little lost..empty and of course...going to miss the school a little...haha...but in whichever case...this is part of my life that i'll remember...always...those bitter and sweet...yes...haha

toking abt my IAP...its really confirmed...NEA...haha...at least quite a few of us are there and we can go and have lunch together...haha...and i get to gossip with them as well...and oh..one thing...haha....my pay...is 440........haha...i think sab and muz must be so jealous now...haha....

and oh...love is definitely in the air...suddenly all my close friends are attached...and also...some couple just formed rite under my nose and yet..i have no sense of detection at all...haha...really...it never occured to me at all...haha...but still...its nice..and hope they'll have a unforgetable memories together...remember to invite me to your wedding dinner ar...haha..dun worry...i sure give a big angbao one...haha....

okok..thats all for today...see ya!!!

p.s. thanks for the card daniel..its nice having you as a wonderful classmate as welll

and

all the best to prawn noodles with agar agar...haha....

all of life's...what if and if only...

2007-08-18T22:02:00.000-07:00

halfway thru the day...and i was getting very sentimental and didn't want to do my revision..decided to come here and vent it out a little....

in any case....maybe its just me...always asking myself what if...and if only...haha...yeah...for everything i do...i'll always ask myself...sometimes...i always think..did i make the wrong decision...did the wrong thing...or simply speak the wrong stuff....i guess...i'm always asking myself that..cos i'm always lack of that sense of security....

i love to day dream...and most of the time..i always imagine what would have happen to me if i have done the thing the other ways...or choose another life....but slowly after all this while...i've sort of come to the understanding that....no point thinking of them anymore...becos...its all over..and since i cannot go back in time to make the decisions all over again...its best that i give up those little thots that things will be different....and just let it go...

i know that we are just like a big jug of stuffs...in our mind, if we keep pouring things in and not getting things out...we will go bonkers...but sometimes..i just feel that its so hard letting something off...letting it go and forgetting it is by far the most difficult thing i've ever encountered....i know that..nthg can come in unless i take something away...but in terms of this...i'm a very greedy person...all i want is to put the things in and not taking anything or anyone out of my life...haha...sounds stupid isn't it...but its really like this....

i do hope that someone that eventually find out a way to selectively get rid of certain memories of certain things...then...i can choose what i want to stay and what i want to forget..then perhaps...i'll not daydream of those impossiblities already......

ok..thats all...vented it out a little...bye!!!...

p.s. someone teach me how to forget????

oh..foodie guys...

2007-08-16T21:08:00.000-07:00

kinda getting too tired and lazy with my revision..so..i decided to respond to wil..haha..and blog abt the guys and food...hmmm..which one shld i blog abt first...haha..i know..my favourite boy in class..dun get me wrong....

bao bao...now..what food do i think he is...lets see...hmm..for him..looks is very decieving..tall and dark as he might seem...haha...he is actually a gentle puppy (as someone will put it)...haha...so..i think..the food that represent him will be...a nice array of sashimi...haha...looks like there's alot of things going on in the plate...but actually..its nthg more than the natural sweetness and flavour of the ingredients only...

bao's friend...haha..who i termed..gay partner..ah zhong...hmmm..lets see abt him...actually he is really the opposite of bao..haha...looks simpler and cool from the outside...but inside...i think..he is a very very..explosive person...its not difficult to think of a food for him...haha...i think..he will make a nice bowl of prawn noodles...hehe...looks plain and normal...but really...everything there is so flavorful and with that tinge of chilli...that kinda makes up ah zhong...haha

aloy...is the joker of the class...haha..always with his boy's school kind of tricks...i think for him...he is something sweet and nice...haha...choclates truffles....haha...girl's bestfriend...other than diamonds and shopping la...hehe...he is really for everyone actually...and i'm sure his gf will have no problem forgiving him if he makes her angry..haha...becos..he never fails to make ppl laugh....haha...

wilson..the guy who wanted me to write abt this...i think..for him...he is...your very typical guy...haha...but with attitude...and always know where is his turf and limits..for him...i think...he'll make a very nice bowl of...haha..wanton mee....or fishball noodles....you know why...its really those kind that can be found everywhere...but yet...its something..that you will kinda notice it everytime...it gives you a very down to earth feeling...just like wil...and with that spicy kick..thats all the attitude it needs to show you....

now...who's next...hmm...nantha..the big cool guy...for him...definitely...ice cream...peppermint with chocolate chip...haha...makes everyone's heat cools down immediately...really..even the hottest summer craze can't do anything to his cooling effect...i guess..he is a friend that you really need..to cool down your excitement...haha...yeah..thats nantha....and very reliable also...

haha..i know who's next...edwin ang...hehe...well this 10 o'clock king...haha..and the guy i always like to bully...hehe...for him..i think...he always give a dreamy feeling...i wonder is it just me..or is he always dreamy...dreaming..i mean...haha....okok...well for him..of course something dreamy la...yes...cream puffs...those japanese ones...filled with thick thick cream...haha...that is dreamy enuf...rite girls???

okok...now..its daniel...well daniel..i think he is really someone very fun to be with...and so..of course...something fun for him...haha...i actually thought of those biscuits that i used to eat when i was young..those with sugar icing on tops...with different colours...haha...but now..i think he'll make a nice really nice tub of cookies..yes...funny...cracky...and once you start..you can't stop!!!haha...

alrighty..who else...hmm...alec...well...i guess...he is someone...always sitting around at the corner...haha..looks innocent..but always engaging and looking out what is happening around him...and oh..appears when you need his help...haha...that..i think..he is going to be a cup of green tea...haha...always somewhere there..and always there to give a little anti-oxidant help...haha...

ohoh...there is one newcomer....yong cai...hehe...i guess...he is a really mr nice guy..always so polite and nice...haha...so..from what i think..he is going to be a nice set of english afternoon tea...haha...always reminding me of how gentlemen and how nice he is...haha...

ok..its lunch time for me...haha...bye!!!

wow...schooling is over....i meant...in NYP...

2007-08-11T19:51:00.000-07:00

as of 10th aug 07.....my days of tutorials and lectures in NYP is officially over at 3.30 p.m. with henry as my last lecturer for the years in poly..whats left is my FYP and IAP which i'll be doing together at NEA....haiz...next week going over for the interview..shld be ok..i think...well...

abt my recent outing..haha..last week i went out with jo to raffles and then bugis to do a little retail therapy which i have not been able to do for the past weeks....haha...but i had to wait for this big missy for like 45 mins...thank god i went to the fruit juice bar..ordered something and finish reading the straits times and thank god..at that time..she's finally there...i like the ambience at the juice bar...next time...whenever i'm waiting for someone in that vicinity...haha..that will be the meeting place...cos..i got a strong feeling...i'm always going to wait for ppl or something...haha...in anycase...i bought a shirt while jo...haha...bought a kappa tee for the sake of buying something....hehehe....

and yesterday...after my presentation(i'll talk abt it later)...i went out with my mum and we had buffet at the equinox...haha...at raffles swiss hotel in case you dunno...at the 70th floor...wow..this time...i had a hard time in that 45 secs in the lift....the pressure difference just made my ear cracked...haha...but i survived the ordeal...the place was nice there too...you can over look the whole CBD area at the place...woooo hooo...so nice view and nice food too....my mums and aunties really know how to enjoy life and pamper me after all my suffering in school...haha...thank you!!!...after that..i had to teach my another auntie how to use excel...yes, your eyes are not playing a trick on you...haha...this computer nerd here is actually teaching someone how to use the computer..haha..so funny....

well...as for school matters...some projects came back..got quite good results...although proteomics might not be that good...i think...had several tests...turned out to be pretty manageable...i will not say its easy..but at least...i think i should be able to get Bs...as for my business...finally i finish my last presentation...all that work for the elective...but miss tan is really nice and helped out alot...thank you...i'm so gonna buy you chocolates...haha...and oh..thanks for the chocs...racheal..eugene..edwin..daryl...haha..its nice being your class rep for that 1 sem also!!!!

ohoh...one last thing....national day celebration in school...haha...i think its nice...erm..although the thing was a little rough but overall...hmm..i think its something fresh and new...haha....well..of course...i'm in charge you know...hahaha...okok...i'm leaving you with some pictures....

My chocs....its nice...haha...

Me and jo...

The watermelon 'thank you card'..haha

me and my yima at the equinox...

sleeping has got me into troubles again....

2007-08-01T00:34:00.000-07:00

ok...now...my past week...was erm...termed as ever so....i dunno what words to use...its just sucks....so...i'm going to just highlight the impt parts....

very very firstly....i want to say a BIG BIG SORRY...to muznah, sabrina, michelle and most imptly danielle whom i guess is still very angry with me(and hopefully after your sleep, your anger will be appeased)....its my sleeping gene's wrecking havoc and cause all of you to stay up so late to do the work alone...its my fault and so....DUI BU QI...i'll find ways to make it up to you all one day.....promise!!!

miraculously, we are able to complete that project from scratch in 2 days...and most of the efforts really go to them...all i did...was like the minimal 5%..and paying the expenses...haiz...well...its definitely not nice being irresponsible for once..and i thot..its a chance for me to remember to ask things clearly and make sure i'm that i'll be there....gosh...

haiz...after this friday...finishing up all my stuffs...i'll be so so free....finally..and i get a chance to watch harry potter...with my sister...and...some little long needed rejuvenating shopping...

ok...i'm going to hand up the reports now...tataz....

p.s. SORRY...DANIELLE...FORGIVE ME..K???

10 weird things about myself...

2007-07-29T04:33:00.000-07:00

danielle tagged me to do this...so...here it is...10 weird things abt myself that you ppl dunno of...

1. I cannot stand insects...any kind...i absolutely gets goosebumps looking at them...

2. I cannot allow anyone to go on my bed...not unless they are cleam by my standard...not even myself...so...if this happens...i'll change my bedsheet all over again...

3. I've got my very own spoon that i use at home...and its absolutely big....its actually a serving spoon

4. I've got a thing for buying weird stuffs(like condoms/underwear) to my close male friends..haha

5. Sometimes...i got sick and tired of toking too much and too loud that i can dun tok to anyone for 1 day...and coup in my room...

6. Although i like to shop...but i love to stay at home and do nthg also...haha..

7. I like to imagine myself slim again and wearing all my clothes that are too tight to wear already...

8. I cannot stand couples smooching directly in front of me...especially in the bus..they should do it at the back...not in front!!!!!!!!

9. I love to match make my friends together...haha...but i dun like my friend(particularly 2 crazy girls)...toking abt me and another girl...

10. I WAS SLIM ONCE ALSO!!!!!

haha..ok..thats all...5 person tagged to do is are:

1. gladys
2. vedro
3. heather
4. fiona.
5. daniel

my ever so 'fun' week....more like weekend post....

2007-07-22T02:28:00.000-07:00

hihi....i'm here to update my posts....so...school this past week is best termed as....nothing happened...haha...i guess thats the best thing to describe school...cos..its those kind of weeks that nthg really happen when it comes to school work...but something exciting happened on wednesday...haha...my NAPFA...first of all...i've already got this mentality that i'll never going to be able to make it...so...its just fun time for me...and thats how i thot....so...instead..i went there and cheer ppl up...and make those ppl that can pass...pass!!!....haha...yeah...thats what i did...but boy..the next day...my muscles are having screaming aches....i remembered that i had to groan all my way up the bed...haha..thats how painful my muscle aches are...i had so much trouble going up and down the stairs....hehe...

with all that hard work i put it....hehe...i went to had steamboat with danielle...sabrina...geraldine...yufang...elizabeth...heather and her bf at beach road after their presentation for PCT the next day....so...i enjoyed the food overall la...but somehow..i like the one resturant beside the one i'm having actually...haha..maybe becos they have free flow of drinks..and their meat is nicer...but the one that i went to...the fishballs are really nice too....hehe...i think i ate the most...geraldine and elizabeth was full very early in the nite..it is was me that kept eating and eating non-stop...before we went off...haha..a disaster happened...i accidentally dropped 1 slice of watermelon into the soup...haha...thank god no one is actually drinking the soup anymore...haha...then we went off....so...before that sab left her laptop with me and asked me to carry for her...so..when i was going off...the rest of us wants to see if she'll actually remember her laptop...haha...true enuf...when i left and said bye bye..she not at all thot of her laptop and actually said bye bye to me...haha...then i walked away very fast...then she suddenly realised her laptop is with me...haha...blur girl....super blur....

and yesterday...i went to have porridge in chinatown...haha...yes...chinatown...my hometown...i grew up from there in my early years you know....hehe...so...very yuckily...i had a housefly in my porridge and i immediately gave up eating that bowl..that was a very very nice bowl of porridge ok...haha..thank god i nearly finish already..and i have eaten all the nice nice ingredients in the porridge...then...me..my grandma..sis and auntie went to the buddha tooth relic temple...the newly opened one to visit...gosh..its so big over there....very big you know...when i walked around..its like...so grand...serene and big...of course...thats when all the tourists went away la...haha....then the 3rd floor was the exhibition on the buddha's life...wow...its so amazing at all the exhibits and all the stories that they have...my grandma felt like fainting halfway thru cos she's not used to the lights...so..we went up to the rooftop to the orchid gardens...so nice...we stayed for a little while b4 going down again to pray to the tooth relic...and then...me and my auntie asked my grandma to wait outside while we went back to the exhibition to finish it off....but it was an overall nice experience....and then..we walked over to the chinatown square for a soak of the ever commercial atmosphere...and i was looking at the aunthentic italian pastries they had in 1 resturants when i remembered that i have to watch wat i eat..so..i gave it a pass...but i bought my sister some gelato before i went off....haha...of course..i tasted it a little to see if it meets my approval or not....then a little shopping and home sweet home...

as for today...i woke up pretty late...and just when i was about to get started to do some work....my mum asked if i want to go out shopping with her....of course...between work and shopping...hehe...i gave up work...and went shopping with my mum at IMM...bought 2 pairs of slippers there cos mine's a totally slippery one..and i had enuf of fearing to fall each and everytime i wear mine...then it was giant...gosh...its like everyone is stocking up in advance for a war like that....ppl were squeezing everywhere to get the stuffs....i dun even get a chance to get a cart and had no choice but to use baskets....they had lychees there when everyone including my mum when to snatched for....aunties and sales...haha...a deadly combination...believe or not...it took us 20 mins to queue up at the cashier so that we can pay for our merchandise even with all the counter open!!!!....

and then...here i am bloggin about what happened...haha..ok thats all...tataz!!!!!

my common test results...lets hope it will be the same for exams as well....

2007-07-16T03:30:00.000-07:00

ok..i've got back all my results for my common test...at the moment...things are going rather satisfactory....3As...2B+ and 1B....i think i'm happy with them cos i know the work and effort i put in is not as much and so...i'm happy to see my results like that..so..more or less....i have no complains to my results...lets just hope that my exams...i'll have the same performance standard and its even better...then i'll be so so so happy!!!!!

ok..thats all..tataz...

Dim Sum Dollies...so funny....hahahaha...its a good way to destress...

2007-07-14T18:03:00.000-07:00

hi ppl...yesterday nite...i went to watch Dim Sum Dollies with my auntie and my uncle in the esplanade...its was so so hilarious...haha..its about the history of singapore...so..they talked about...sangnilautama...british rule...japanese occupation..independence..all these stuffs...but in a very very funny manner....

i went to by auntie's place to give tuition to my cousins first...then my uncle..auntie and I set off to the esplanade amazingly early...becos we were afraid of not finding any parking lots...haha...so..we reach super duper early...and then we looked for a resturant over there where we can have our dinner.....so..we walked..saw pernarakan food...saw japanese...saw indonesian...saw korean BBQ....but then...my uncle was attracted by the asian bistro...haha...cos there was this lady around 20+ standing there...and so..you know what men do when they see pretty girls...so..we went in...haha...it was really a big mistake in the making....we called for dishes to go with rice....the fish is not tender...the vegetables is over cook.....the chicken, still ok...but the black pepper beef...is ehz....not black pepper enuf....haha...the keropok is nice though....the ice lemon tea i had..is...gosh..i think they used sugar syrup instead of honey because...it was so no nice...the tea is so bitter..and the lemon..is so.....well...erm..sour....haha..its just not nice....then we went off.....after dinner..we still had like an hour left...and so..we walked around citilink....and on the way there...we saw my aunt's and my mum's friend...in case you mistaken..its 1 person....haha...with her daughter.....erm...i think....my mum's friend...lets call her..auntie T....thats what i always call her....is a super super super super nice person..everytime she'll ask us our to different hotels for buffet...but...mother and daughter really dun have alot of fashion sense....what her daughter is wearing...oh gosh...some cream tube dress with beige heels and its with a pokle dot strap..its just wrong...haha...

then at citilink..i had yucky ice cream..and we went to the theatre...it started..and its just like laughter after laughter with more laughter...they are so good..and hilarious...i never miss their shows at all...compared to the last time i watched...this time round..its more musical than stand-up....which in some ways...is better than the previous years...but also...a little less funny.....i laughed especially loud when ghandi from india met mao zedong from china...haha...they said that india and china will become world superpower and india can takeover all the call centers in the world...while china cna manufacture anything and everything under the sun...that was so funny...and also when the british girl met her maid...who knows no english...its another whole lot of hilarous stuff.....i was thinking that they will tok about japanese occupation....but they didn't really mention much...cos...we took a recess and...when we came back..the war is over....haha....the brothel...gambling den and opium shop.....the funny parts about how singapore is founded...also all very funny....

for once...i was destressed from so much school stuffs....ok..thats all for today...i have to go back to my stressful life now...tataz...

p.s. thanks auntie carly and uncle rodney for such a wonderful nite out!!!!!!!!

a long long post on my past weeks....

2007-07-11T19:07:00.001-07:00

hello...i haven't been blogging about my past weeks for a long long time....let me start with something fun...last sat...our class went to marina south for steamboat to celebrate the bdays of the july babies....before that..i was suppose to meet some of them go buy the presents for the july babies...sabrina..fiona...mich...wilson..ah bao..and edwin....so..i reach city hall first...and waited like...at least 30 mins until danielle finally appear..then i found out that we are the only 2 person going to buy the presents for the 6 of them in less than 1 hours time...haha...the both of us are like in a reality show...in a whirlwind shopping trip...and bought so many presents for them...i hope they like it....

then it was dinner...its ok la..although the place is a little too crowded...a little to far away..a little to warm..but the rest...i guess..its still no problem...haha...then we start to get food...i didn't really eat alot though...i guess this is what normally happen when i go for buffet steamboat dinner...the place is so oily and there is smoke in all directions that when we all left the place...we smell like oily smoky food haha....then daniel came with cake...and you know what ppl likes to do with cakes...hehe...i thot only the bday ppl will kana some chocolate face mask...but that alec also made it one me...argh...thank god its only a little bit..or else...i'll kill him....haha..after that..its home sweet home....

and for my next few days and weeks...its school and projects...haiz..lets hope we can get it over and done with....and oh...this sat...i'm going to watch Dim Sum Dollies with my auntie and uncle..yeah...haha...now i'll get a good laugh....hehe...ok..thats all for day...seeya...

p.s. thank you so much heather...you know what i am toking about....

just something random

2007-07-10T17:11:00.000-07:00

How do you mend a broken dream
when everything is set to be over in the beginning

How can you fix a broken heart
when its is broken to a million pieces in a deep abyss

How you can heal a broken soul
when all of it is never complete without you

How can you repair a broken lamp
when there's no power to light up again

How can you rejoin a broken land
when you have a torn it apart with your very hand

How i wish time time will reverse and happy moments will be relived again......

p.s. For all of love is just a dream...a beautiful dream that everyone holds...when the dream is over...its really over...for then...you can only wake up..and face the reality......until you fall asleep to another dream....to experience love all over again

pissed off...fed up..stressed...and a little sad...

2007-07-05T04:07:00.000-07:00

as of today, there is a total of 6-7 lecturers leaving or left the school already..some of whom i really enjoyed learning and working with although i dun know that long enuf...as to why they leave...hmmm..i somehow got a feeling its about their work...in any case...i wish them all the best...

today is a day full of negative feelings to me...its one of those days that it just bad things just follows each other one by one...and the truth is...it sucks...it really does...i dun even know why do i have to do things that are so redundant and useless yet getting accessed by those things...school is just getting more and more unbearable for me...stress level is just about to go over the top...and its definitely not going to come down anywhere in the near future....

sometimes i just dun understand the fact that why ppl can be so blunt when they tok to lecturers....maybe its becos no one has in their life...thot them abt...manners....

p.s. i find that we SCL students are so much more professional that those professional SBM students when it comes to being professional for a professional report....might as well give me their diploma cert as well when i graduate together with mine....

Samsui Woman NDP' 07 Filmlets

2007-06-30T09:27:00.001-07:00

you know...i'm so so in awe with these ppl...look at them...worked so hard just for 50cents a day and look at the foundation they built for singapore...i mean..they are the most hardworking ppl i ever seen...working hard to scrimp and save for a future...look at us now...wanting to reap without sowing...and look at them...sweat and blood all into building this country so that they next generations like us ppl and have all these things to use and thank for.....i just want to say...THANK YOU FOR ALL YOU PPL HAVE DONE FOR THIS COUNTRY!!!!!

Ode To Life

2007-06-30T08:59:00.001-07:00

to display how weird my choice of songs genre are...haha..here is one that i particularly like...the lyrics and the melody is nice..besides...i like the drama itself also...i think its the last one i watched before taking my Os...haha

my last common test in NYP....

2007-06-29T07:07:00.000-07:00

ok...i've just finish my common test in school...haiz...6 papers in 5 days....well...some i know how to do..some not very confident...but i think i should be able to make it after all...i think...haha...

hmm...i found out that i haven't been updating..so here it goes...i finally went out with glad after all this time she's in china..and i'm busy...didn't do alot of thinks...just the usual shopping and stuffs like that...started out quite cold and boring..haha..cos 2 of us not really in that mood also..but as time goes by...it got better...so...yeah..we had a nice time...

then it was abt my first business opportunity..haha...doing test marketing for my project..and the best part is...i get to reap some part of the profit...haha..so thats nice...and for the rest of that week...its just studying...

ok..thats all for today..nthg much to blog abt either...tataz

what do i really want in life....

2007-06-16T05:07:00.000-07:00

since...i've got nthg to do now...so i thot about coming here and do some blogging....hmm...so since i'm out of topic to blog...i shall blog abt a subject that i think most of us would have thot of b4 and must have in some point or another written abt them in their primary school compositions...haha...i remember long long time ago...i wanted to be either a lawyer or a teacher when i grow up...haha..thats true...i think lawyer at that time was cool...cos i was a tv drama fanatic then and i find lawyers so authoritative...so good at speaking...and since i was in my childhood a very experience liar by then...i thot i would do a good job....haha...but i guess..its rather impossible now already....since i'm in a discipline so far away from law....

then i wanted to be a teacher....i was a teacher's nightmare in primary school...and i find teachers have alot of control and power...haha....i guess...i'm an authoritative freak...haha...but as i go into secondary school..and now in poly...i find teaching very noble...imparting knowledge to the ppl who wants to study...and of course...the power comes as an incentive la....haha...so..when i was in secondary school...i'm obsessed with being a teacher...and i got it all planned out....you know....going to JC...then NIE..then a teacher...HOD...finally principal...hahahaha....i even adopt my studying strategy as teaching...now..when ever i do my revision....i automatically becomes a teacher and start toking to the wall...haha...yes...i'm like that...haha...i think...i may end up having a job like this when i get sick and tired in the industry....

but all these are just the more idealistic and occupational part of what i want to be...but practically...erm...i guess...i'm a really simple person...haha..although i like to have branded goods alot....but...i gues...i'm really a very versatile person...i can have dinner that cost like 100 but at the same time..i can get it a equally delicious at $3 in a coffeeshop....haha....i think thats what my mummy and grandma instill in my when i was young....you know...good life doesn't really necessary comes with a high price....and i guess...quality life doesn't too....so...next time...i dun need to be like a millionaire or something....i just need to have a comfortable life...you know...like...a nice home...a wonderful job that pays well...a happy family..some wise investments to slowly build up my wealth...erm...occasionally holidays over the world....thats...all i need really...haha...i guess...its not too much to ask is it...although...sometimes...a little gucci...LV..Prada seems nice to me as well...haha....and oh....parties and high tea too!!!...fiona will relate to how much i love high tea buffet....hehe...

see...thats all i need...hmm...i noticed...i never write abt love...haha..i guess...its not something necessary....haha...i mean...love is good...is very good...but not an essential to me...i think...i can get that equal much of love from other ppl as well...haha..but that doesn't mean i'm not afraid of loneliness...a little is good...but too much...its digusting...thank god...i'm sociable...and i have tons of friends....

ok..thats all for today...before i go...just a thot for you...whats your life you want??...blog it!!!

p.s. i'm a happy person....haha....

The 'Do you really know Terence Chui' Test

2007-06-15T05:26:00.001-07:00

Create your own Friend Test here

what do you call a holiday...packed with school work....

2007-06-14T06:06:00.000-07:00

its thursday today...4th day of my common test break...but guess what...i didn't get to enjoy any break at all for the past 4 days....all stuffed up by school work....project...meeting...report... revisions...totally just took up all my time....argh....i think the whole thing about break is a big mistake....and dialouge session....see how i shoot it to the management.....hahahaha....i'll show my prowess....some lecturers actually look forward to hear from me at the session ok....hehe

anyway...i have a very weird haircut...oh gosh....its weired...now...i look like...something i dun like...haha...but all my friends say look better than b4...oh wells...lets just see how it goes....hmm...

thats all for today...see ya

p.s. IMM got factory outlet for branded clothing....i want to go!!!!

poly life...is all about learning how to juggle different components in life

2007-06-09T05:46:00.000-07:00

well...first of all..i would like to say sorry to my teammates for my presentation yesterday...i screwed the structure up...but in anycase...the teacher told me that the presentation was good..so...everything should be fine...and oh..yesterday i got my proteomics results for test 1 back...sucks..i only got a C...OMG...y???...i thot i did pretty well...i think its the trickiness of the questions...haiz...next time must be prepared for such tricky qns already....yesterday..i defended a teacher from being grilled and tortured by one of the boys from another class...he himself fail...just simply means that he didn't make it for the grade...just becos the teacher had a question that is very vague..and needs a second opinion to check for the correct answer...doesn't mean that its you time to start coercing the teacher to give you the marks....thank god i was there to help...if not...she might be eaten up...she's so helpless there...and yet..you just rudely start questioning her and not even letting her to have a chance to take a breather...for goodness sake..she is your teacher afterall....if you are in my class...i'll make sure i'll scold you and scold....really....thank god he belong to the other class....is this really what students are becoming??...its so disappointing....

anyway....i was at the living room just now...when i saw the a programme from china...they were toking abt this 17 year old girl who becomes a mistress of a rich man just becos she wants to live a good life...and still wants to become a famous designer one day.....even if she made it...she just just going to be a 2 or 3 class designer...never will she be able to become one of the master of designs....that the most disgusting is that..there are actually companies who help these girls to a a so called virginity pass to prove that they are virgins...and actually help them to make contract when they want to get themselves to become a rich man's mistress such that these girl's right will be protected....yeah...rights might be protected...but dignity and moral values of such a person..is totally gone...and i guess...she'll be looked down at for the rest of your life...dun she ever know that..a human most impt value is to love thyself...and lead a life with dignity...dun she ever know that??...its the most simplest virtue anyone can have....and yet...i guess...your's is corrupted....

ok..thats all for today...see ya...

p.s. having buffet tmr...yeah!!!!

NAPFA test is coming...dreading it now....

2007-06-01T19:39:00.000-07:00

ok...had johari's window with the class again...this time...its just collecting comments and pasting them on my paper...haha...someone describe me as powerful....hmm...i wonder what makes them say that....powerful....i don't remember churning out great whirlwind in class or hurricanes in the lab...but still i gladly accept my status of being powerful...haha....

after that..we went to celebrate heather's bday at PS....as usual...i gave the secret away....aiyo...how would i know she didn't know lehz....so..i just blurted that out lor....suddenly....everyone plunged into silence....i knew...i said things that i am not suppose to...hehe....but nvm la....heather knew we were planning something already...so...its not exactly letting out a big surprise...and next time...if there is a big surprise...just dun tell me anything...just tell me to bring the money and i'll be there can already lor....haha...so..we had lunch at swensens....oh god..their bake rice was really nice but a little too small serving for me..so i took some of muznah's chicken..and sab's fries...i wanted to call for dessert....but i knew something was coming....haha....so...i stayed calm....then after swensens..it came...a huge bday cake....made of nthg but chcocolate fudge and chocolate and marshmallow....at secret recipe....then heather had to had the greatest serving...1/4 of the cake...i barely finsihed mine..cos it was too chocolaty for me....hehe...but heather manage to finish the fudge part la...as for the think chocolate icing....i guess no one can ever finish that...so we let her off....

after that...we went to the arcade and watch heather and sabrina play games....muznah left first...me and danielle just sat there and watch the ppl play games....yu fang and geraldine went to play basketball...as for elizabeth...i didn't know where she go to...haha...but we had fun la...sab was practically stomping on that dance machine lor.....so...we went shopping after arcade..i saw this nice t-shirt going at 50% off in P.O.A....haiz...fit me in the shoulder...but made my tummy look...ever..ever..so big....so...i had to give it up..then..its walking around...and home sweet home

over the weekends...i'm gonna stay at home..to clear up my work....projects...reports...and resume...so...after that...its 1 last week of school..and hols for me....but the sad thing is...after that...i have to go for my common test already...haiz...

things are breaking down in my house...can't stand it...

2007-05-29T04:58:00.000-07:00

things have been breaking or spoiling in my house...haha....first the bed...then the lights...now the fan...oh gosh...argh...tonite i'll have to go without the fan and use the air con...its going to be so cold tonite...and my nose is definitely going to be blocked....my nose have been giving me so much trouble since i was in primary 4....but now...i can basically handle the problems my nose can bring to me now already....

anyway...thanks to my auntie...hehe...i got my first victory in GSS this year...my first pair of levis...and its not jeans...haha..its a pair of shoes....weird rite....but hey..at least the shoe is made of denim material you know....so..it works on similiar way as well....okok....and as to why my auntie...cos she paid for it...hehe..so..of course...i have to say thank you to her la....and oh..i also got myself some facial supplies....haha...but not discounted...so doesn't really made it an item that i got during sale....and oh...abt sale...i went tangs with my grandma...and once we reach the 2 level..its like all hell break loose...haha...things are definitely going cheap...and its crowded with girls everywhere...thank god..i got a breather upstairs at the men's department...guys dun really react to sale as much as girls do...yeah..you never see guys frantically going crazy when there is sale at the men's department..they still manage to keep their cool....funny isn't it....

okok...enuf abt the sale...now abt school...haiz...i dunno school can be best describe as....erm....i guess...in 4 words...work, work and more work....i definitely see deadline coming close and things piling on my desk...but somehow...my body is not reacting for me to start clearing those things so that i can meet the deadlines....haiz...i guess...after in MB for 2 plus years...this is the syndrome you will develop...haha...i stil remember the school slogan for taking in new ppl this year...choose it, live it, love it....well initially...i thot so...i mean...i got these feeling too....but when the really thing gets going and you soon find that you are losing grip is other aspects of your life becos of school work that you have...you find yourself finding the next 2 phrases....hate it and regret it....haha....i'm now already at the regretting stage...so...its ok...i'll just continue on...besides...i'm in year 3 already..haha..there's nthg i can do also....

okok..thats all for today..see ya...

GSS is just around the corner!!!!!!

2007-05-22T04:27:00.000-07:00

the weather now is definitely getting warmer...god...even when i'm sleeping..i can still sweat...haha...that is how warm the weather is now...anyway...just got scolded by my mum...she ar...always threathen to chase me out of the house...haha..like i care...i dun even live with her lor...i'm in my grandma's place....cannot fix the bulb herself...ask me to do it..then i can't...and go off...she just start shooting at ppl...like as though as i care....haha...she can scream all she wants...i'm so used to it already...nthg to be afraid off...wahahahaha....

and oh...25th may is a very impt day..yeah..the opening of GSS...haha...well..other than..CNY..bdays...mother's day..and festivals with good food....this is the next most impt thing in the calendar...and oh..not forget...exams...is before GSS....haha...i have a short shopping list of my own...hmm...let me see...i want to buy a sunspec...and erm...maybe a new wallet...and soem supplies...thats all...haha...see..this year...my shopping list very short rite...yeah..

ok..thats all for today..tmr have to bring com to school to do my project..argh..so tiring..and sickening...so many projects...most of them are meaningless lor....tataz..

p.s. lecturers in my school really have alot of work to do...they not only teach..they've got so many other things to do...no wonder so many of them are leaving....

bored...so blog...

2007-05-18T06:27:00.000-07:00

okok...i'm bored...except chatting with danielle...i basically got nthg else to do...and since..i still have half an hour before i go and accompany the tv...i guess...i'll just come here and blog abt everything and anything under the sun...first of all...i told danielle that...if...anyone is able to finish compiling the 'things not to say to make danielle puke' and 'things to reflect (someone's) blurness'......haha...who's that someone...i guess everyone should know la hor...but lets not make her angry...in any case..if anyone manage to compile the 2 lists....haha...that gal/guy deserves an award...altough...i'm not quite sure who is in the right state of mind to do it...hahaha...

anyway....watched american idol yesterday...melinda is out!!!...godd...i liked her alot...blake should be out...i guess she's really the old time girl...so..she appeals to me...jordin is great too...but not blake...just no blake for me...haha....but i understand why is it so..i mean..its an idol contest...melinda is not that idol kind of girl.....so...i pretty understand why she go voted out...as for blake...i wonder why is he voted in...i think sab is right..cos he is the only guy..and normally girls will want to vote for them more....but i'd like to see jordin win..she's young..talented..and has a beautiful voice....and i think melinda shouldcome out and make a record of her own..i think it'll be pretty nice too...

haiz...days in singapore is really boring...i guess...becos of our size...we aren't really that into doing so many other things...haha....so..that makes us...bored working freaks...haha...in some way..we are very much predictable....so..no suprises for singapore..if you tell singaporeans that something big is going to happen tmr...they'll most probably run away first...haha...but singaporeans are nice...i mean...look at us..we are capable..and we manage to forge out a whole new nation without natural resources...all by ourselves...for that..i think singaporeans are pretty amazing in that sense already....haha..yeah...we adapt to changes quick too i guess....maybe too quick..lots of things are fading away...like the old shenton way that i use to go to when i was young...now the harbour is closed as well....lau pa sat...no longer sell those food that used to be famous over there...even chinatown is changing...haiz...all the childhood memories that i have in my mind is gone...i guess...those things in my parent's time should have been gone up to 80% already...but...all in the name of modernisation...old things have to go to make way for the new ones...so...we'll just have to accept that then....

i think one of these days..i should make a trip to pulau ubin....my grandpa use to bring me there when i was young....but now..i can no longer remember what is it like already...i guess..i should make a trip there..and see how those old kampong dwellers live...then i can know how my grandparents and parents live when they are young...take a look at the wild boar they have over there..i've never seen one i real life over there...take a look at how is the laid back feeling of the place like...maybe.it'll become a getaway for city ppl like us...who are so used to high rise builidings..and technolog...we have to do it fast though...before..everything clears for the new estate over there again...but i think 1 thing can never be taken away from the ppl who stayed there..their lifestyle and their philosophy...yeah...simplicity..and contentment...nthg much..just these 2 things..will make a person life much more happy and lively....

modern ppl now are too forward in some sense that..we have forgotten that happiness need not be found only in materialistic wants....fame and wealth...we can always find happiness when we go back to the very basic and essence of living....simple and contented...thats all everyone need to feel happy....haiz..i think..we are instilling too much materialistic education to the young generation..i wonder..what is going to happen to these ppl....

in anycase...i'm signing off..so..tataz!!!!!

welcome to my new blogskin...

2007-05-16T06:54:00.000-07:00

hello..i know i know..danielle and sabrina must be thinking why am i adding music to my blog again...haha...just for a little fun lor..in anycase...after using my blog for like the past dunno how many years...i have decided to change one...and since i'm a complete idoit with computers..i have decided to use those ready made ones from blogger...the good point about it is...its easy to work with...no need to use those html codes which i can never ever understand...haha...

ok...and oh..just to update my post...erm...i had a great time with the rest at jas bday..although not many ppl come...and there are ppl who are late...but nevertheless...i still enjoyed the whole day...singing kbox...haha..tried some new songs lor...hehe..so i'm not that old when i come to kbox also hor...haha...

in any case...workload is definitely piling up...god save me...how i wish its like the old times..only need to worry about tests and exams..so no need...to get project done...argh...ok..thats all for today..see ya!!!!

p.s. my ulcer one the underside of my tongue hurts...even eating also give me trouble...go away la...

how considerate are we to be called as a citizen of a first class city....hmmm

2007-05-02T02:00:00.000-07:00

something happened today that make me want to come here and blog....well...this afternoon..i brought my grandma and sis to marina square for a meal..and also buy a mother's day gift for my mum(which i'll tok abt it later)...so..after that..we went back home and boarded the bus 162..everything was fine until a man came abroad the bus..and wanted to take a sit diagonally across me(the senior citizens one)....1 lady around 40+ already sat there...and she placed her bag on the empty seat...so the guy cannot sit down..normally under this circumstances...anyone will be automatic to place their own bag at their lap so that the empty seat can let be taken by other passengers boarding...guess what..the lady refuse to lift the bag away...so the guy had no choice but to move other seats in front...but kept looking at the lady...immediately..my grandma and i thot that that was a very inconsiderate and rude thing to do....

but wait..thats not the end...not long after at novena stop...a young lady boarded the bus...she wanted to take the same seat that what the guy wanted to take...as the bag did not really cover the whole sit...so she sat down...then the lady beside her..told her to move to other places and sit...that was like..freaking rude and inconsiderate...so the guy just now got fed up and told that lady to give up the seat...the lady got angry and started to scold him saying that she had is not having a good time..and don't push your luck too far....and she started scolding all the fucks...all along the way.....after that...the guy alighted..and the young lady got herself a seat infront of me....

that is by far the most inconsiderate thing i have ever seen....i mean..so what you are having a bad time...who does have bad times....and that doesn't entittle us to the sits that we are having...we are just passengers of the bus and all of us paid the bus fares...the bus is neither own by you nor did you pay the bus fare for the seat beside you...i wanted to say it out..bu eventually i didn't say it..cos i thot i better not join in the fight between the adults....but i think that just makes her a real inconsiderate person...

that made me think of a few hours earlier..when a young girl in her twenties offered to give up her seats to my grandma when the bus is crowded with ppl as we were on our way downtown...i think..in this first class country...there are lots of first class citizens with their graciousness and consideration as a human being...but nonetheless there are also some other black sheeps and just make ppl feel disgusted..and ugly....

ok..thats all for today...tataz

p.s. and oh..we had lunch at asian kitchen in citilink mall..very nice!!...and i bought a leather card holder/money clipper for my mum!!!...wezzz...

my summary for the week....

2007-04-27T05:00:00.000-07:00

monday...
school starts at 2...had a nice time sleeping at home...had 2 burgers that my grandma made..she is the best of the cooks.....lectures are forever that boring....

tuesday....
nthg much to tok about....

wednesday...
only have 2 hours of school...but have to stay back for the make-up on monday's morning lectures...that lecturer is superb...his skills of dragging is by far the best of all i've seen in my years of studying...he dwells on the pdf page...untils the computer actually goes into standby mode..can you ever believe it...the rest of the class struggled to stay awake....to top it off...he wants us to write about our aspirations...we are like...its been over 3 years we wrote a compo...and you want us to write about a topic that teachers give to primary school children???

anyway..i wanted a simple and comfortable life..thats all..haha..very vague rite...

thursday...
school started at 8...its was raining outside...perffect time to sleep but i have to be in the class...thank got my tutor is good..and i dun realy feel bored...then it like hours of break..but b4 that..we have to go for a 1 group to 1 lecturer kind of discussion for project...she speaks so softly..and stares at me when i speak....anyway...then we had lunch...sab..yufang..elizabeth and geraldine went to play arcade at the grass-roots club...me..muzzi..dan and michelle..went to tut room to slack..we joked..we gossip..and we read the reader's digest jokes together...muzzie went crazy...i think its the sudden rise of blood glucose level and she jokes throughout the rest of the day..and guess what..she gave me a nickname...i'm burgerboy..all thanks to the shirt...heather they all gave me...then its dr.guo's lecture already....i think she is nice..she bothered to wait for everyone...if its me...i will just start as soon as i see the majority are here....she's so nice..and i actually understand all her lectures...haha...

friday...
this is what i call the proteomics day..cos the whole day..we have nthg but proteomics practical and lectures....aiyo...everything went well..just that..i'm always called to answer questions...haiz...anyway...sab..the blur queen of the century....actually manage to leave her laptop at the fj...its such a big thing..and she can actually forget it...anyway...i had chicken rice for my last day in fj..its closing...spend almost all of my lunch time in my 2 years in poly there...so..in the last week b4 they close...i have eaten all the food that i basically ate when i'm in fj..tamago..ban mian..nasi padang...chicken rice..western food...haha....i wonder whats going to be here to take over fj....

ok..thats all for today..see ya!!!!

2007-04-20T06:13:00.000-07:00

yesterday...my comm skills tutor....told us that there are some ppl in this world that you absolutely detest even just by seeing the face...haha...i guess...i've got to know this fact long long time ago before even coming to poly....some ppl might say that its just 1 or 2 in a group that just cannot get along with you....and its not your fault..cos you didn't do anything wrong...but when out of a big group of ppl...a majority of the ppl doesn't gets along with you..i think its going to be much more than a coincidence....have you ever thot that maybe its some part of your character that makes ppl destest or just cannot get along with you...i think...everyone needs to do their own reflections...and know what is our own fault...take myself...i'm lazy...talkative..dramatic..but for some ppl they just fail to see their own faults...for some ppl..i think...if you could just try to be more people-orientated..stop looking down at ppl...try to curb your over-rated laughs and reactions...you could be much less detestable..such that when ppl want to work in groups..we won't have to push you around like a ball....we really dun like it...especially when the there are going to be ppl going to be working with you!!!

anyway..that was just some random thots i have in my mind now..and i just want to post it up...hopefully we can try to hit the target audience that we want to reach to...haha..sound so marketing right...anyway..i finish my first week of school...the time-table sucks...absolutely sucks...and i thot i'm over with those long breaks in between..if we do not have that much of resources...then for goodness sake..dun get so many students in la....in the end..all of us have to suffer...

the lessons are boring...well at least of most of them..they are..and some are just exceptionally boring with the presence of certain boring lecturers...i guess..it is not really their fault...they might not want to even teach in most cases..but just had no way but to settle education as one of their jobs in life...besides..being a lecturer at NYP brings some credit to your resume...not everyone can be a lecturer...well..at least not in my school...haha....

i absolutely hate the 10 dollar fine thing...now i have to wear lanyard all over the school..last time...i just wear it when i'm in the targetted area where my lessons are...now..i have to wear lanyard all over school when other ppl in school dun need to wear...argh...so unfair...if they want to do something like that..then make it across the school la...not just particular courses...its really awkward lor....anyway..i still have to congratulate william...his 10 dollar tactic worked..everyone is wearing them now...especially the yr 1s....haha..lets just see how long they can last....

my weekends are going to be spend at home...cos i have no where to go..haha...ok..thats all for today..see ya!!!

p.s. the above comments made are not personal to anyone...if i happen to be describing you...its purely coincidental...hahaha....

first days in school....

2007-04-18T04:07:00.000-07:00

well..first of all...i must say....yr 3 sem 1 is no doubt is most boring lectures of the poly life i have...cos...all my lectures are rather dry..and i dun really have exactly chirpy and fun lectures in scl....it just goes to prove that y are they in science...but not other industry...haha...i started off my day with bioenterprise...my electives....how should i say...its really boring...full 2 hours...but nthg actually gets registered into my mind....then i start to think...is it my mistake to enter this track....i guess...for me...like many ppl say...sales and marketing suits me alot but its not really what i favour....all i can blame is myself in yr 1....haiz..if i haven't slacked so much...i wouldn't be there....but nevertheless....i'll just continue...at least...i know that i am going to score well in these 2 modules.....i can always go for r&d projects in FYP and attachment time.....

the next lesson on monday is a boring one....i got a feeling its going to be a combination of MBT + Mol Gen + Bioinfo....oh god....the first lecture...basically...covered very few new things...but mainly recap of the past sems stuff that we have learnt....and my title of the project...only consist of 4 words...completely open handed...how abt that....

tues was nice...i started a business lecture..that lecturer is fun...at least i actually got what he is toking about and i am not falling asleep...but the next lecture...its super boring...most of the things miss lim is covering..we already learnt that...so its just recapping and recapping....i guess...the lectures of my school can record themselves lecturing...then burn into a CD...try listening to them....haha..i bet they'll fall asleep as well...there is a cure for insomnia...hahaha..hows that for innovation...anyway...just in case any lecturer decide to read my blog..the comments i make are nthg personal...its my comments generally...haha...so..dun sue me!!!!

there is no school today..cos i manage to move the lessons away...but from week 3 onwards...my lessons on thurs is going to be hell...8-8...i'll definitely do something to it..haha...

ok..thats all for today..see you!!!!

my legs feel so sore now....

2007-04-13T17:50:00.000-07:00

wow..yesterday was a great day..although some of us still didn't manage to come...but it was fun...when i left the house yesterday..it was such a heavy downpour...unbelievable...so..instead of meeting jo at the orchard mrt station which will make me drenche a little..i decided to sit and wait for her at far east..which...by the time she come..the rain had subsided already...

so..there we are at far east with a goal in mind..look for the best cap we can find for yiwen...we roamed the whole of far east in just less than 30 mins..haha..pretty amazing rite..that is wat we do...haha..we swept the whole shopping mall in less than an hour..didn't find the ideal cap...so i suggested to move to tangs...cos the last time..i saw the a nice nike cap on the catalouge of tangs...haha..but we could not find and jo became very sian looking for a cap already...i straight away say..lets get him some undergraments..haha..i guess i've got a thing for buying undergarments for my male friend's bday present...jo suggested levi's...since yiwen liked levi's so much...then we both settled on that decision that it shall be our backup plan in case we can't find cap for me...next we moved to heeren...and saw someone i didn't really liked..who has some link to jo..haha...we had wanton mee over there at heeren...it was a serious mistake to make cos i will soon find out later than it actually ruined my appetite..it was good though...so we moved on..to esprit at meritus mandarin...i liked one shirt there...1 is $40...2 is $50...anyone in the correct mind will definitely buy 2 but since i haven't slim down(i doubt i will in short term)....i didn't buy that after all....

then ved came to meet us..and he made me so jealous..i'll come to that later...y am i so jealous...ok..so..lets skip wisma and taka..cos there ain't much to tok abt...we moved to tangs again..to get the shirt...i picked a white plain 501 tee...while jo picked a black/gold tee...the price difference is not alot...its just that i think yiwen will like to go for that la...actually...so..ved being fair made a choice to get jo's suggestion...then a series of very funny stuff happened then we eventually got the shirt..had some spare time..so it was to island cafe on the top floor...and then kino with jo...

and so..we moved to seoul garden at taka...omg..we waited for like 45 mins to get a table...becos our dear shirley and shu is late...prior to that..almost all of them are late..except for me and jo..haha...so we waited....then finally dinner..then home sweet home...now..for the jealousy part abt ved..he came lighter than i am now!!!..i'm so depressed..haha...i always told myself..dun worry terence...no matter how fat you get..there's always ved fatter than you...but now..no more!!!...i'm the heaviest of all already...god..now ved will be my motivation to move on and slim myself down...jia you!!!!

ok..thats all for today..see you...

p.s. its a fun day...but i walked so much that my leg still sores...

count down to school reopen...

2007-04-12T05:48:00.000-07:00

its my last week of my last long holiday for my years in poly....i can't really believe it...god...i'm year 3 now..i find that..time passes faster as i grow up....i felt that few months ago...i was still a new student at poly yr 1....now..i'm at yr 3...then its graduation and ns..then uni..then work..god...its like..unbelievable...everything is so plan for me...i guess many of the time..we are going in a direction that ppl or someone else has plan for us...i guess thats what you call destiny and that person that did the planning is god...well..lets hope that the plan done up for me is going to be good...

well..this last week of the holiday..i decided to keep myself away from work or things to do...but just to enjoy the holiday in its very essence...doing nothing..absolutely nothing...yeah...i haven't been doing anything..engaging in any other activities in anyway..but just staying at home..and occasionally...so out for lunch..haha..but..tmr is a busy day for me...i'm going out...yeah..last shopping trip out b4 school starts...but nthg for me to shop actually..execpt for buying yiwen's gift...and another friends...so..other than that..nthg much..but dinner is pretty exciting...seoul garden with lots of ppl...actully planned on vilage..but then since we have so many ppl and shu and hawa is joining us...so...its seoul...next time then we go vilage...

i just found out yesterday that the GREAT SINGAPORE SALE...is the day that glad is coming home...oh..well...haha...its nice isn't it....i've got some things to buy..just nice for me to save up....haha...i want to buy sunglasses..perhaps...esprit or guess or levis...haha...then some clothes..and maybe 1 or 2 pair of shoes...weez...so many things to buy..its a good time for me to stock up for new year..i know its alittle early..but still...haha...no harm preparing in advance...

okok..thats all for today...see ya!!!

p.s. i'm turing ugly...arh...i think i need a cosmetic plastic surgeon...haha

just some random photos....

2007-04-07T21:27:00.000-07:00

my tiramisu...superb

the view with at the skyride

jo with the view

super models...and their reflections

my appetite...pretty amazing rite...
there is something going wrong with my hair

look at the space i take up!!!

nice collage...isn't it??

regret..remorse..more regrets and more remorse

2007-04-06T16:57:00.000-07:00

sometimes...i really dunno what i'm doing...i know its the wrong thing to do...but my thoughts and my actions go 2 different opposite ways....after that...i regret....god....someone tell me what to do....now...all i hope is that i will eventually forget abt everything that has happen...then...it will no longer linger in my mind...and i can find my new freedom.....

i love my mum!!!!

2007-04-06T01:27:00.000-07:00

i absolutely adore my mother...although she can be a pain in the neck sometimes...but hey..she always take care and look out for me...haha...yeah!!!...so..this post is dedicated to my mum!!!

p.s. and the havanaas she bought for me!!!!

it turns out that i really liked being a judge..haha...

2007-04-05T04:17:00.001-07:00

ok...wow..this week..is a busy week..i have things to do almost everyday...haha...ok first...on monday...i went to collect my phone which i brought in for service a day b4...i think nokia's servicing is so much faster than sony...in sony...i have to wait for like...at least 1 week to do my handphone repairs...but at nokia...1 day will do...anyway...the * key on my phone is insensitive..so i brought it for repair...then i went to school to meet micheal...for some orientation stuff...i found out that i actually wasted the whole afternoon to that...cos...there is not much things for me to do..and guess wat...i lost my sunglasses as well..argh...

the tuesday..i brought my grandma to TTSH for a checkup..she's pretty fine...had 10 bucks of starbucks while i waited...i finally found my favourite drink...caramel macchiato...i guess...i'll order that everytime i go starbucks already....after that...i was suppose to do to heather's place for mahjong..then from there to marina for steamboat...it turned out that the mahjong is cancelled...and i have the free time in the afternoon..so i went home...when i reach home..i dun feel like going out anymore..its the kind of day that you can only use the sian word to describe..i didn't go in the end...haha...heather followed suit...felt so guilty....

yesterday..went back to school...had a clip done..looking at my bunch of juniors makes me feel so old...haiz..old...i'm no longer that robustic as they are...as fun loving as they are....its only 2 year difference...somehow its like 20 years gap...haha...i started the day in LTS2...my lecture theatre cos the ppl are having a tok there....saw mr mallard...my french teacher...thank god i still know a little...hahah...then chatted with vanaja and micheal when the tok is like on going..then william came..he's like the discipline master of the school..and i told the lectures around me that he is obsessed with us wearing lanyards...haha..all of them laughed..but we all understand that he just want to instill some self discipline in us...i felt rather uncomfortable sitting there...surrounded by lecturers...and everyone is looking at me...especially when william keep drawing the attention to my side of the LT...but joking with vanaja is always fun..she's not the lecturers kind of lecturer...vry fun to work with...now that she is taking over miss shailu class....sometimes...i just have to admit that i'm the teacher's pet...cos i really dare to do things and speak to my teachers that most of my classmates dare not...haha...

the promo video at the audi went well..hopefully i can get better response....er...then it was lunch...we had like 3 different aisle of food...since its like buffet style...and i acutually manage to eat from all 3 aisles...of course..i just took the dishes...no rice for me...the talent time preparation was nice...manage to get a sneak preview..its always good to see them prepare b4 you judge...then the judging time came..i was stucked with dr.lau and mr yow (CPT side)...in the front seats..with the lecturers behind me..so stressful...the show is pretty much entertaining..but we can't expect too much..they only had like 2 hrs to prepare only...most of my marks are 17 or 18 upon 25.....

before i know it...the inaugartaion drink is here..i was jumping around when the ppl were like drinking it..of course the ppl in the audi did not know...the worse thing was carol was asking who wants to go first...everyone fighted for that..i was telling miss ler(from CPT)...how stupid they are...eventually..i had to drink as well...but i vomitted it all out...thank god i had the ice lemon tea with me..or else...i'll most probably faint....

then..its home sweet home...ok..thats all for today..see you!!!!

bon voyage...we'll miss you!!!!

2007-03-31T18:18:00.000-07:00

spend the last 2 days partying for gladys since she is going away for 2 months...had mahjong on friday night...met up with glad in school first then when to her place before having dinner at chomp chomp with the rest....and you had any idea how crowded it is...gigi seng suggested up to take away to jo's place since we are all going to spend the night at her place...but i think that the food is suppose to be taken there and then cos its nicer...so...we decide to us out will power..we targeted a group is that finish soon...and the 5 of us...stand in a circle around that table..haha..i think no one can ever tolerate that...so..they left pretty soon..and we have the space..we ordered quite a few things and we all share among ourself...er..oyster eff...chay kuay teow...popiah..stingray...hokkien mee...haha..i was so full when i left la....then we went to jo's place for mahjong by getting 2 taxis to get us there...i played untill 11 then i went off..cos i didn't want get home late..and all the midnight charges for the cabs are just digusting....thank god me and jasmine taught glad how to play mahjong b4 i left...and i left her with roughly 3 dollars to lose..hahaha...jo told me yesterday that glad lost all of that...and additional 4 dollars from her own....jo was obviously the winner...since its home ground....

yesterday met up with them again to sentosa for the songs of the sea...went to my auntie's place to give my cousin tuition b4 going to harbourfront...i was super early..i reach like 2.30..when the rest aren't suppose to come until like 3 plus..since i was hungery...i thot of getting lunch at a resturant or cafe with a nice sea view so that i can wait for them there..and i made a very good choice..the white dog cafe...i know sounds weird...but the ambience is good...i took the set lunch..which came with the soup of the day...chicken consonmme...very nice..taste like marcaroni soup..but its full of flavour...i finish mine very soon...then i had a creamy mushroom linguini..very creamy..i love it..ate the whole bowl...oh god...i have to keep reminding myself..yes the food is nice..but take it slowly..you have like...1 hr more to wait..so i started to slow everything down...i start to see the ppl who came around the same time as me has left..and those ppl who came after me left also!!!!...i'm like so odd..with a table for 3 but only 1 person...then tiramisu came..it is to die for!!!...really..go have that...it'll will mesmerise you..finally a nice cup of english tea..and my lunch is done...guess how much i spend for all the good food....haha..only 15 bucks...cheap rite...yeah...for the food and service..its a must try,,,

then jo and leen came..we finally get to the island...bought the tickets for the evening show..then had a skyride and luge..it was fun..rain a little..so we had to seek shelter..but its not too bad after all..the skyride view is magnificent...then was walking down siloso beach..its so depressing for me..i can hardly find any piece of fat mean..all the lean babes and hunks at the beach..it is siloso after all...anyway...we saw some very wronly dressed people in the beach...1 lady wore scarf..at cafe del mar..some guy had a very sexy bikini trunks at lime green colour but covered only half of his butt....a caucasian girl with black bikini and blink purple tussles...god.its just wrong.and there are guys who went to swim with only their white underwear..just imagine the sight!!!haha..we saw some one from our seconday school..she has caucasian friends now...its not like we dun have..but...er..its unusual for a girl like her..lets just put it this way..its surprising...had dinner at sakae..not a very good one..anyway....

then the night came...leen went out to pick out glad and her sis cos gigi ps us again..and we need some one to fill in for the extra ticket...the show was abt to start..and they are not here yet..i have to like keep appeasing jo's anger..finally they are here and we are glad that we still have sits for us...the show started...honestly...the show is rather disappointing...the storyline is not captivating enough...the effects are good...other than that...nthg much already...and oh..i learn another thing..4 notes..ah.ah.ah ah..haha...what that means..ask me personally ba!!!...then we left the island using the sentosa express....cos the show just ended..so many ppl is rushing to get out by getting into the train..and they squeeze and squeeze to get in....i got so frustrated...i said very loudly....'is there a price to get into the train first or something...its not the last train'...then after that we went to vivo to take some photos..then it was a little dessert again at the cafe and then home sweet home....

ok..thats all for today..see you!!!!

p.s. to glad....have fun..and enjoy your trip....we'll miss you!!!!

intruder alert!!!!

2007-03-29T21:53:00.000-07:00

god..my uncle just intruded into my privacy by coming into my room and start reading his books..suddenly..my room is a study for him now..cos his room and can't him anymore..have i mention..how cluttered his room is with all his books...no idea???...trying imagining books and books taking up 3/5 of the space in your room..and its not 1 layer of books..its many many layers of them....its so cramp that he can no longer sleep in his room and he sleeps in the living room everynight now...oh god...i think its breeding some bugs in his room...sometimes..i wish some one will set a fire to his books and clear that clutter..its an eyesore...like a pain in the ass..especially now that he is in my room...god!!!!...

anyway..i witnessed my big uncle and grandpa quarreling today..they nearly fought...thank god...i came home from NTUC in time to stop them before things got out off hand....haiz...how childish can they be...so reckless..both of them...adding up together is over 130 years old already..still fighting...can't they grow up???...abt that..i dun think my big uncle can ever grow..he is 50+ now..but he is maturity stage is like a 12 or 13 year old boy...never think b4 doing anything...he is a mommy's boy..still sucking up to my grandma...he'll die if my grandma dun take care of him....thank god he is not married and has no childre...or else..i dunno how will the kids turn out to be...haha

anyway..this week is a peaceful week...i'm going to get my hair cut tmr..and dinner with my darls..sat is sentosa...and sunday is for me to rest...mr micheal got me to the the student judge of this year's talent time during the orientation...oh god...i'm gonna be a judge together with 2 deputy directors of my school....haha...

ok..thats all for today...see you!!!!

mixed feelings...i hate the most...

2007-03-25T21:36:00.000-07:00

ok..ppl..this week..its a week of mixed feelings..haiz..some good some bad....but first..the good ones...well..i've got my new handphone..thats one thing...and i got it altogether only 16 bucks...and yes...i didn't not bring my business to singtel..i gave it to M1 instead..cos i had another line that i can upgrade..and after selling my phone to a second handphone shop...i only paid 8 dollars for the phone..and 8 dollars for the screen guard...so all in all...only paid 16 bucks..haha..its a good deal rite...compared to the 218 at singtel...i saved...a total amount of 202 dollars....

alrite..now the sad part...haiz..my results..how should i say..its a kind of expected disappoinment...i knew i was going to do badly for some modules...and very good for others...but it turned out that..i didn't do as good as i thot i would in some modules..instead of A..i got B+ for them...so...i think..i had too much confidence...i think..sometimes..i do have a confidence overflow...so...i think i should learn to be more practical and pragmatic....keep my legs on to ground....i seriously think that i have been too lazy in my yr 1...been slacking too much..i thot that poly was the same as it was in sec school..which..i can carry on my lifestyle without really studying...haiz...so the lesson learnt...never slack during your yr 1!!!!!!

ok..thats all for now...see you!!!!!

p.s. i can't differentiate love from lust...oh god...save me!!!!!

er...no title...cos i dunno what to write!!!!

2007-03-19T21:32:00.001-07:00

well well...first stop...a good news for everyone..i finally started excercising!!!!!!...haha...yup..shocked rite..as of today..i wake up at 5.30 in the morning and started jogging in bishan park at around 6....i took the whole park..in like half and hour...haha..its way way pass the time that i took like 3 years ago...i have grown alot you know...haha...the annoying part is that i see this guy (or girl..haha..can't really tell without much light)....running pass me 2 or 3 times...i'm like..he's here already?!?!?!?....haha...i'll continue on...i hope..haha...crossing my fingers...await the fit me!!!

the other thing is something that is very very annoying...i went to taka to change and upgrade my phone to 6288 which last week..the price was 168 when i saw that...so since i'm going that area...might as well go and buy the phone...my mum was there..and the guy quoted us 168...so i was like..good..after eveything..i just need to top up 12o more...but when i was trading in my phone..i forget that my batter was not the original one...so i have to go back to take and went back alone...which...then i have to wait for 1/2 hour for that person..who told me that he quoted me the wrong price..after everything and that i need to pay 100 more..argh..i dun think i've got cash in my nets...so i went to try to withdraw..which..i forget my pin..and my card got eaten.....idiotic rite..i wasted like 2-3 hrs just for that...in the end...made me lose my chance of changing the phone..and spoil me mood...i seriously think that the person at singtel is an idiot...can quote the wrong price somemore...what were the management thinking when they hired that guy!!!...i swear i'll never bring my business back to them again....

ok..enuf of complaining...i have been rotting at home..but i like that feeling..haha..ok thats all..bye!!!

p.s. wednesday and my results will be out!!!!...maybe i can get a phone as a form of reward then..provided if i score well la!!!

woohoo...haha...yeehee...lalalala

2007-03-14T05:04:00.000-07:00

ok..now..if you are wondering about the title of the post...its becos of 2 reasons..the first is that i've got no idea on what is the title..and the other reason is that the title is all i will use to describe what happen yesterday...

yesterday..was a long awaited time when all of my jie meis get to get together...well except that jing is not there...but other than that...the rest of us went....it was fun...i met jo at orchard first..cos i went to pick up my repaired phone from the service centre...there is like...a super duper long queue...and i have to wait for jo to come..cos she's late....and meanwhile..a uncle was picking up a chat with me abt the phones...i went like : why is it always uncle's or auntie's that come and chat with me???...y can't it be a gorgeous hunk or babe????...argh..i was praying jo to come faster cos i want to get out of that awkward situation i was in..thank god she came..and we went to walk around while discussing what to buy for for yiwen's bday gift....

i paid like $85 for the repair...and we went to the food republic jap's resturaunt for tea break...haha..if that is wat you call it...jo ordered the sashimi again..cos she got a craving for that...the sashimi there is really nice..i think the chef is really good at choosing the correct fish..and the right cutting size...its so much better than those salmon sashimi that you find outside..its so rubbery..and thin..and so not fresh..i like it there..i ordered a soft shell crab maki..and it was heavenly!!!!...

then we went to suntec from orchard..walked around...until our legs were a little sore..and we decided to go to the juice bar at for a drink...or rather..i decided to go there for a drink...haha...we sat there for about 1 and a half hour...cos we've got no more place to go...and we are so tired...meanwhile we were discussing where are we going to get dinner tonight...becos we thot that girls did not planned..we were so troubled by where to go and eat..we practicallylist out all the resturants that we know in the vicinity....thank god..we sms jasmine..and she said she made a reservation at some cafe....

finally at 7...the rest of them finally came...and me and jo have to go look for that at the cityhall mrt station during rush hour...can you imagine that????...the traffic..i spotted eileen...and went over that side..glad and gigi came later....we could have took off from there...but then..we wanted to see leenz fren...who really gave most of us shock..haha..sorry leenz..but at that sudden...i found out that glad had a better taste...haha....anyway..you won't understand...and i accidentally blurted out glad's secret...guess what..she told everyone abt mine..argh..so bad...i mean...that secret of hers..is a open secret..mine's a really secret secret....

then we asked gigi what are we having for dinner...and she turn all of us off straight away by saying vegetarian food...omg...me and jo were like..we are carnivores...haha...but the food turned out really nice...i like it..i think..sometimes..if we put away some prejudice and things...its really not that bad..in fact...it may be good...like yesterday's dinner...i like it alot....jas..was like the company's spoke person..haha..kept telling us this is nice..and that is good...she and gigi started selling the company's product for fiber supplements...which acutally own's the resturant...

after dinner..we were went crazy taking photos....and when i said..crazy..i really meant it...god..i laughed until i had stomach-ache..and my jaw was shivering becos of all the funny things we do...suddenly..it was like we went back to the old times...back to those secondary school days..when you have 10 of us squeezing into a neoprint machine..haha...i'll post the pics once i settle the prob...you know i'm an idiot when it comes to technology

i really enjoyed yesterday..i had really alot of fun..its nthg like those forever lasting friends...who needs love when you really can get all from those fantastic friends....ok..thats all for today..see you...

yes yes....i'm here again...

2007-03-11T10:38:00.000-07:00

oh god...its been a long long time since i blogged for 3 days consecutively for a week...that just goes to prove how bored i am at home..its a sunday morning and i have no plans for the day...i guess...i'll just stay at home to watch the movies...this time...i'm getting alexander...yup...something historical...haha...haven't been reading or watching things about history since i entered poly....yeah..a long long time ago i think....

anyway...i'm really bored at home...i found out that i haven't been stepping out of my door for 3 days already!!!!...hahaha...yeah...i did not go anywhere at all....hehe..so obedient rite...thats becos no one date me out....haha....the amphitheatre downstairs is having some recycling event...oh god...there goes a peaceful day for me already now that my room faces directly in the line of the huge loudspeakers...that means...i'm going to be bombarded with those noisy things today...already they had a line dance event yesterday nite..now they have this...dun they ever get sick and tired of that????....i found out something..the ppl helping out in this kind of things are those uncle and aunties retired at home...no wonder they got all the time to spare to do this kind of things...haiz...thaank god my grandma dun get herself involve in such bo liao things...hehe...she is a very modernised woman you know....haha

ok...thats all for today...see ya...

i'm bored..so i came to blog...

2007-03-10T05:17:00.000-08:00

elloz...its a late saturday afternoon and i've got nthg to do..so i decided to come here and blog...what shall i blog abt...hmm...i think i'll blog abt my classmates...describe them with a kind of food..haha..the same kind that i did for my darlings when i first had a blog...

lets start with the brainy ones...danielle...haha..sorry...i have to look for someone to start...so..thats you...how should i describe her...she is like black pepper crabs...tempting...delicious...but not for everyone...if you are lucky enuf to be friends with her you'll find that her temper sometimes excites ppl alot...haha..she looks very nice and cool...but her fiery character can blow you up and sometimes...makes you say..shiok!!!...its takes ppl who really see her inner beauty to know and understand her...if you can't...i suggest you dun try this peppery plate of crabs...it might be dead...but it can still bite!!!..

sabrina...the blur queen...as for her....i think...she is like sweet and sour fish....most of the times..she is sweet...like sugar...very nice girl..but when she get blur..haha..it turns sour...but nevertheless...this is what that gave the uniqueness of the dish and makes ppl likes her so much....she's someone that is for all ages...from the very young to the very old..just like the sweet and sour fish...just like her character....crispy and flavourful at the outside....but soft and fluffy on the inside(she's got lots of soft spots)..haha...

muznah..lets see...curry chicken...full of favour...but at the same time...loads of temper...she has many sides...the tasty side where she is nice and friendly...a spicy side...haha..her temper...a burst of fire....but still..ppl like her..love her...y...cos she is true...just like curry chicken..what you see is what you get...no beautiful fascade to cover the redness of the curry...haha...she is a nice friend to have...becos...she tells you her feelings...straight from her heart...you won't get angry with her..becos you know...she is speaking from the bottom of her heart...this is the kind of friends you need when you are too blinded..and needs someone to slam you and wake you up...trust me...muzzie definitely have the ability...and strength..hehe

heather...ar...my lab partner....i say she is char siew bao...haha..no offence..heather..looks like a plain girl from the outside just like the outer covering of the bao...simple...but approchable...deep inside..she is a burst of sweet and salty flavour....she has a mind of her own...very decisive...keeps to the simple side of life...but still..manage to make her everyday appearance appreciated...its nice having her as a lab partner and companion...she tells you clearly wat is to be done...and always manage to keep the ideas practical and realisic...her colourful side comes when you really get to know her..and toking to you...she seldom get angry...because..she is like the honey glazed meat in the pau...never a direct confrontation...manages to comfort you just at the time you need the most...

geraldine..the quiet one...she is like a fresh loaf of bread...simple..not decorative...looks plain..nthg special..but you find out that you can't really live without it...bread maybe plain..but for alot of ppl..its the source of breakfast in the morning..whether is it with jam, kaya, sandwhich..always tastes that good..sometimes..its rustic and country flavour makes you just wanna eat it on its own...how is bread like geraldine..well...she might not make a lot of remarks...but she compliments the others very well...just like bread...it can go with lots of food...haha..yeah..a fresh loaf of bread...whose goodness awaits the true and destined one to discover...

yufang...hmmm...vegetarian bee hoon...haha...yeap..thats a nice choice...what she needs in life is....well..perhaps...a life???....haha...sorry..didn't meant to be offensive...but for yufang..she is like those kind of food that you need when you really need to fill that tummy up without spending too much money...not exactly the first choice for many ppl...but never fails to work her magic out...but bee hoon alone is very plain...it needs others to spice up and give the whole meal more flavours..and texture..that is when she needs a life...haha...but...this is also the girl..that makes man want to marry her...cos she can take care of the family...hehe...so..all the best to you and your prince charming....

elizabeth...arh...how about a baguette for her...hehe...she may look nice and sweet always standing around the corner...but she is actually a tough nut to crack..she has a mind of her own...always on her own style ans ways...but still...a good friend to have when what you need is a loyal soul mate....i think...all she needs is to find some one that is willing to take the time to chew her outer covering to savour the soft side of her in the inside....haha..

the following food...is used to describe the 4 very cute ladies in my class...huiling..fiona..lydia and jiawen...they are all agar...haha..or some may call jelly...y so??...highly decorative...you can add colouring..fruits...what ever you like into the jelly...but the steps to prepare is very easy...boil..add..stir and set...then voila...the jelly is done..just like my these 4 girls...looks strong and sophisicated...but actually...they are very simple to understand...all the need is the rite person to relate to....haha...

ok...thats all for the girls..as for the guys...i'll post again...when i have the mood...haha..see ya...

hello...my holiday feels so great but empty...haha

2007-03-09T21:11:00.000-08:00

my 6 weeks of holidays started this week...somehow..i felt a sense of emptiness in me..haha..i think its becos all these months..i have been busy with my school work..projects, reports, test then exams..life is school was stressful and occupied...but now..i've cleared all my work...its like i've got so much time now..no needing to worry abt what projects..what reports..what exams...so..i guess...i'll use this time to let myself settle down and recharge...

anyway...i had a very intesting conversation abt the tremor on tuesday with lydia

lydia: did you feel the tremor?
me: i didn't feel anything..i was having lunch at that time..its shook alot???
lydia: ya..i can feel it so strongly
me: i was too engross eating...can't feel anything perhaps...
lydia: haha
me: oh dear...if there is a real earthquake..i should be dead by now..can't feel anything when i'm eating....

haha...that was my thots then...hehe...funny rite...

ok..now for some reflections...you see during my school days..i was very busy...so i made use of the time in the holidays to watch streaming in videos of the movies i missed...the first was devils wears prada....the reason i like this movie was not only becos of meryl streep, also the story line...she really can act i must say....she is the only one that can par with helen mirren in the oscars for best actress....but her dressing for the academy awards was a little...way out....hehe...

the story line is good as well...i like the way they portray the different aspects and walks of life with different goals..what else better to show that than the ever changing world of fashion....there is no really right or wrong to the choices...its more like the different routes that ppl take in life...miranda choose the high life..the glamourous side...andrea choose the simple side of life...but i guess its all depends on the individual and what they really want...for miranda..she choose her career and the high end of life...but she lose her husbands and a perfect family....andrea choose the simple journalist...but ended up having alot more than she thot..which will you choose???...haha..i guess...i'll take the in between..its much better that way isn't it...you'll get the best of both worlds..haha..typical libra i must say...

the other movie is the mistress of spices..i must say..not alot of ppl around me mention abt this movie..but i must say..its really good...just like pride and prejudice...its is by the same female lead afterall...the world's most beautiful woman...i must say...her eyes are really beautiful...and her facial features gave you a feeling of the east mixing the west..very sophiscated...and beautiful...the story is nice...a little about the current world of the tradition clashing with modern world...and a little magic...so...its really made it very nicely...very well done i must say...of course...for her...she got the best of both at the end of the story...she manage to keep her roots...and accepted a new life at the contemporary world...but for the others...is it that easy...????

singapore is a country that has been a melting pot of the east and the west cultures...but how much of the roots do we singaporeans really have...singapore to start off with is a young country...all of our roots came from our ancestors that travelled from other parts of the world...and settled here....youngsters nowadays...how much do they know about their own traditions....i guess...not alot...except that angbaos for CNY...mooncake for mooncake festival...etc...but do they really know their roots...sometimes..i think malays and indians are much better at keeping the traditions than us chinese....most of my classmates dun really know their roots...i mean..in some ways...we are forgetting the legacies that our ancestors left behind...the beautiful words and poems...all those...i guess its pathetic...no offence to my classmates...i think on the whole..this is wat that is happening to singaporeans especially the young ones....we are a young country still waiting to develop our own kind of culture and bring it to the mature state....so alot of the time..we rely on our parents or grandparents to impart the culture of the old times to us....but i guess...alot of of those things simply went down the drain under the effects of the modern trends....i guess...its time to do something...but still..who am i to say all these....i guess...i'm a little better off at this than alot of ppl of my age group...

ok..thats all for today...tataz..

p.s. i guess...youngsters now only have the problem of the keeping the traditions...but also facing the future world...the current affairs of the world...haiz...i'll tok abt this again....

exams...exams...

2007-03-02T09:07:00.000-08:00

i find that somehow after my O levels...my ability to memorise thing fall dramatically...i think...i'm getting old...haha....really...i use to memorise bio and social studies like nobody's business without really studying...but now...i have to really make that conscious effort to memorise them now...haiz...

my papers...overall..was good...med micro and immuno wasn't that bad after all...i think i should be able to get B+ for the both of them...vanaja..is like the 2nd shailu and even better...haha...her question on bird flu was the easiest...how i wish all my lecuturers are like vanaja when they set questions..and micheal when they give tips...haha...so....let me continue...bioproccess and protein tech...it was stressful...i didn't finish my graph for bioprocess....no time to do them...mr ong!!! if you are reading my blog...pls moderate ok???....i dun ask much....a B will do!!!!!....haha...protein tech...B should not be a problem....

mol gen was tiring...by the time i came to the last page...my hands weren't mine anymore...but overall it was manageable..as usual...dr.chan's part save me...haha..just like MBT..so...B+ for mol gen as well i suppose...as for marketing...A should not be a problem....but pls pls...i really need that grades...oh god...i so so regret not putting effort during my yr 1...now my GPA is so sad...haiz....

ok...shan't tok so much abt my papers already...haha...later lecturers see my blog again...hehe...

tataz....

p.s. to all my classmates...all the best for the results coming out on the 21st!!!!

read my post below as well!!!!

yesh...the worst sem is over!!!!!!!

2007-03-02T08:51:00.000-08:00

hello ppl...how have you been...oh god...i haven't been blogging for 2 weeks...thats becos of my exams....but b4 i tok abt my exam...let me blog about my new year sales...haha..if that is what you ppl call it...surprisingly..i have roughly...$400 worth of angbao..and still counting...i may have another auntie coming to my place today to give me an angbao...and my godfather...very pai seh to take from him...cos his business not very good....then not alot of money also..so...dunno whether i should take the angbao from him or not....

anyway...we went to mdm koh's(in case you are wondering...my sec 4 form teacher) place yesterday..and miss phua's(my physics teacher) place last week..oh my god...so long never see the 2 teachers already...guess what..miss phua's boy has really grown up...last year when i saw him...he barely know a few words...now...he is so talkative...haha...its nice to see children grow up day by day....i also found out that lots and lots of things have changed in school....haiz...so sad rite...its no longer that 2nd home i use to call when i'm in seconday school....but we had a fun day with miss phua..chit chatting and gossiping...too bad..only me..josephine...eileen and junrong went....after that junrong ps us..and the three of us when to orchard...it was a stupid idea to do that when its like the chingay day....i can barely squeeze through the crowd...the good thing is...the shops and resturants are all empty...but the crowd was just bad...the next time...unless i have a ticket to watch the show...i'll never go orchard again.....the food at vilage was good nevetheless....

yesterday..omg...i was soaked half of my upper body..and all of my lower body...actually..i need not be wet at all actually...its all becos of yiwen...he did not bring any umbrella.. and i have to go and save him....its was like a hurricane hit parkway parade yesterday...worse..i have to carry a pathetic bright pink umbrella that jo brought..the frontal part was dry when i found that the rain has just brough the rain to my back...jo's umbreall was swinging with the wind as well..instead of singing in the rain...i was swinging in the rain..my shoes were all wet becos...we choose to seek for lower ground when we enter parkway...guess what...it flooded!!!!!...wth...my shoes were like wet...its like you just threw them into a bucket of water..that kind of wet!!!....anyway..me and jo met earlier b4 that when the sun was still out...we went to a recommendation that miss phua gave us...oh..that jap resturant is really good...she was rite!!!...then i went to fix my phone...haiz...1 more week b4 can collect it...when we reach mdm koh's place..it was like 1.15 hr after our planned time...becos...the queue for the taxi was like so long...haha...but me and glad plus jo...enjoyed pissing yiwen off...sorry hor...haha...

ved met us at mdm koh's void deck..we went up together..chatted with mdm koh...waiting for junrong...and then...when across the expressway to kenny rogers for dinner..it was good...the ribs was nice..the side dish and the chicken..wasn't really as good as it seems....then i took a bus with yiwen and junrong home....

ok..my next post is on exam...be sure to read!!!.....

p.s. all the best to eileen for her found freedom!!!!!

i've got so many things i want to blog...

2007-02-19T22:51:00.000-08:00

ok...in view of the exams coming...i have decided to blog in advance for the next few weeks to come...since i am also here waiting for my movie to be loaded...in any case...i feel like blogging like what a free lance journalist does...haha..i know...i'm not to that level yet...but still i want to blog abt things that happens around me..so hold tight..this is going to be a long post...

first...the CNY..well..this year...my business in collecting ang bao seems to have shrinked...by 20% or so...the reason??...haha...beats me too..maybe this time round....i did not go to the some of my uncle's and auntie's place where $50 is the minimum they give...haha..no la..just joking...but this year's new year...is rather...i should say...less festive...maybe its becos of my mood...i do feel that having the CNY before the sem exams for the worst sem ever...is a little to torturing....hopefully...i'll do well for my exams this time....

CNY in my family is a big matter..year in year out...many ppl come and go...my grandma has to prepare loads and loads of food to keep us these pigs happy and contented...haha...my grandma..i love her to tiny tiny bits...my life will be so different without her..sometimes..i feel that she is my mother..and my mummy is more like my best friend...perhaps its becos i was being brought up under my grandma's tender loving care ever since the day i'm born...cos my mum's a workaholic...haha...materialistically...my parents has gave me what i needed and wanted...so...i have no complains...but my emotional and spiritual upbringing..its all from my grandma...sometimes..i feel that she is more fashionable than i am...she even criticise my fashion sense every now and then...haha...her perseverance and elegance..is what i want to learn...she is a very competitive person...perhaps thats where i inherit my competence from....i always tell ppl...if she is given proper education at her time...she will be some big boss now...haha...

i admit...i'm a competitive lazy bone...when i want to get things done...trust me...that thing gets done in no time...and i'll do an outstanding job...but when i dun have the mood...nthg can get me going...i like to compare and compete with my friends..sometimes i lose...other times...i win...when i was in primary school..the lazy side of mine takes charge most of the times...so..i'm not really good...but when i enter upper secondary..suddenly...my grades shot up...and i can almost get the top in class like breeze without any problems....its either my intelligence grew in that short period of time..or my classmates went stupid overnight..haha...but when i went into poly...things starts to change...i'm no longer the best in the class...maybe its becos i have been too boastrous b4...such that...i didn't really put in effort...so my chem flunked..as a result...my yr 1 did not do very well..when i finally woke up in my 2nd year...i did fairly well..but i found out that its all too late...my yr 1 has pulled my grades so down that its really difficult to bring it back up again...haiz...so this time..i'm really working hard to do well....

ok..thats all for today..see you again...after my exams that is...

p.s. HAPPY CNY!!!!

my post was gone....argh

2007-02-15T23:51:00.001-08:00

i actually have a post when it was unable to publish and i lost everything...so here is the summarise form....

1. I bumped into jas yesterday at NTUC...we were smsing each other at that time..haha..so funny...feeling like meeting all my darlings now..i miss them!!!!

2. my dad is back...

3. i'm going off..tataz...

haha...